Monday, October 27, 2008
♥ too many things on my mind tonight
i was about to sleep, to maintain my healthy lifestyle, and then so many thoughts rushed into my head. as usual. i think many pple experience this, the feelin of unable to clear ur head b4 u sleep, no matter how hard u try sometimes. so, instead of stayin sleepless for the next hour or so, im gonna blog my thoughts out.
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the usual things are happenin to me these days. tcm, bball, baobei, and exams. haha... all has become such a routine to me. if i were to live without thinkin abt any of these any single day, i would prob feel weird. haha.. esp baobei! okok this is a serious post :X
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im very much surprised (pleasantly so) that i dont feel the same way i did about exams n tests the way i do about two or so years back. in those days, i feel panicky abt exams at least one month before the first paper, n cannot sleep well the night before the first paper (this happened almost 100% of the time, even if i were 110% confident of the paper). nowadays, i feel v calm and relaxed whenever facing a quiz/exam. i told myself i surely can do it, n i take careful plans to make sure i dont fall behind my target. studyin has become part n parcel of my life. i wonder how i would adapt to life after i graduate.. but thats gonna be at least three years later so im not gonna worrie abt it right now :D
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another thing i would like to mention is abt our internship at thongchai hospital (同济医院）. i was attached to this lady 医师 frm china whose name i cant recall. she's quite amazing, and quite afew patients praised her infront of us. i think she is v capable, and was really REALLY amazed at her capability of reciting 方歌s at a super fast speed. i was nvr able to do that even while i was muggin for 方剂学... n she really REALLY made me feel v small when she told us some (she said all) of her students at a different institution were v v hardworkin and could identify many 方s immediately when she asked them. on that day, she asked us to identify quite a few but we were quite a disappointment. we (I) really REALLY have a lot to catch up to reach that standard. and i DO want to reach that standard.
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i took up this course, thinkin it would be interesting. i start to study about it, feelin that it is exhausting. i start to think about it, n i believe that i should excel in it, be responsible for all the future patients i would face, and that, starts from a single word:
-MEMORISE-
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there's no running away from this fact, i totally understand now. n so, i shall start training myself frm this day onwards to be the responsible doctor im going to be in the future.
i really hope i have the endurance.
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remember my 养生计划 i wanted to keep up with some days back? well i aint doing v well at it, but im improvin! at least i feel guilty if i sleep late, and i do wakie early these days (only to fall back to sleep cuz i too lazy to do any hw..), and i do make a conscious effort to watch my diet and eat fruits! so congratulate me! small improvements count!! yay~
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below is my timetable until exams are over.. combining both 养生 and studies to become a 负责任的郑医师! muahaha~
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0815- alarm clock
0845- breakfast
0930- lessons/revision
1230- lunch!
1330- -NAP-
1600- revision
1900- dinner! + fruits
2000- daily dose of revision (3 方歌!)
2100- revision
2245- -SLEEP-
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if i were to succeed in followin the plan for two days, i can use facebook two hours! heh heh im copyin my roomie's psychology project's method. lol... positive reinforcement!! woohoo~
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oh a few warnings to those readin this. dun eat too many panadols hor. in fact, try not to eat any unless absolutely necessary. cuz there was this patient at tongji who suffered frm a stroke which left him hobbling on a stick (he's only 40+!) due to overdose of panadols over a long period of time. he told us the army prescribed panadols for practically EVERY ailment. wtf. really. what the FUCK. n now he filed against them for causing this to him, n what he gets? money for compensation. what's money compared to health? n this army boy (only 19) suffers from lung problem (part of his lungs is turned into useless fibre, probably genetic) and he fainted several times during outfield. when he went to the medical area n told them abt his circumstances, he told us this was wad he heard: "你有什么问题？aiya.. 你可以站在这里跟我讲话，就代表你没有什么事了lor.." and he would be sent away with panadols. PANADOLS! wtf again. the 医师, after the boy left, told us if he were her child, by the second time he fainted she would have talked to the army pple in charge. who would be responsible if the boy dies?!?! junie was saying in the army, nthg is considered hazardous until someone dies. how true.
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in another case, this lady suddenly appeared one day at tongji with her face BLACK, like a mask. it freakin to think abt it (we can see the remnants of her illness) cuz the black part covers the front of her face, a defined line.. really like a mask. the 医师 said its either due to hormone imbalance, or inappropriate usage of cosmetics. eeks! so scary.. so girls out there, pls dun anyhow try new products. stick to safer ones (eh, i also dunno wads safe!) or dun use if possible. natural beauty is the best, really. n baobei hates to kiss me when im with makeup. haha he would have to swallow all the artificial stuff :X lol~
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ok la enough of the medical n emo things. im feelin v hopeful abt h3 bball this yr! heehee another ivp is squattin our hall this yr. heard she not bad. i really hope we can get first/second this yr. its my final year n i hope i can finali achieve something before i leave... at least i prob wont regret the choice i made over so many other ccas 7 years back.. so.. after exams im gonna do some brushin up with my skills n stamina! :D :D
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finally
^the Queen^
has cleared her head of her thoughts and can go to bed! but sadly, its 1130pm alrdy! its past the 2245 sleepin time :(
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
♥ complaints~
its gonna be a looooooong weekend! yahoo! heh heh. fri-mon free except for tongji intern on sat morn! n i dun intend to do much studyin durin these four days except abit of plant bio lab report... zzz... ive been wantin to blog for the past few days but every time on e com the feelin was lost. haha. cuz i wanted to COMPLAIN abt certain types of pple. but everytime i 心软 den cant put down into words.
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first things first. i wanna put down my view here that i dont think true altruism (check dictionary if u dunno meaning -.-) really exists, at least for me. i cant love someone w/o expecting that someone to love me back (aka i dun believe in one-sided love, it usually makes at least one party miserable) and i prob do charity once in a while with the feelin deep inside that hopefully if one day i have similar probs pple will do the same to me too. things like this. so with this point of view, i shall discuss the types of pple i've met in life so far n dun really agree with.
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well, if ur readin this by chance, i might or might not be refering to you, but im definitely not tryin to be mean. i just dont understand the way some pple do things, n i hope if they get to see my post, they can reflect upon themselves and see themselves the way others may see them. if there can be any changes for the better, all the better! :D
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(in random order...)
TYPE "E-M" aka Extreme Mugger.
im not particularly against smart pple (in fact, i like to hang arnd them cuz i feel that they can make me improve and strive harder) but i dont understand why some pple can live with studyin every day, seven days a wk. or rather, put crudely, study away their life. there'r so many things out there to see, n i know studies a high priority (its on top of my priority list together w baobei, in frnt of others like family n friends), But! i still think a life tt revolves around grades will make E-Ms suffer once they enter society. cuz what everyone need to survive is life skills, communication n understanding, not simply a cert alone. get a life! play sports, jio friends out, get a boyfriend/girlfriend! an outgoing personality will bring u more happiness in life, this applies to all :)
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TYPE "MF-B-NTF" aka Many Friends But No True Friends.
i dislike it when these type of pple go around making many many friends everywhere, even w pple who dont really welcome their presence or find it an intrusion. this kinda friendship is kinda "forced" and i believe wont last long. moreover it usually will give their "closer" friends a sense of "leaving" to join others or "betrayal" in a more extreme sense. im not a v friendly person, but i believe that i will know pple in time if im given the chance to, but i wont specially initiate friendships most of the time. MF-B-NTFs usually feel lonely alot of the time and desire true friendship. leave all those hi-bye friends and stay focused to a few. thats my advice if u'r one.
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TYPE "ID" aka InDecisive.
"anything lor" "you decide" are these pple's favorite phrases. n i HATE to hear them all the time. of course u can say them, but not when an impt n urgent decision is abt to be made. it drives me crazy sometimes when i meet up w friends den decide where to go for dinner. we just spend nearly one hr standin there saying "im fine with anything, really" until one brave soul comes up with a brilliant idea. that reminds me, IDs usually will say "har.. but i dun like that place leh" or "i ate there the other day alrdy" when someone makes a suggestion. my goodness. if u cant contribute, den dont refute. my advice? at least suggest one place n den let everyone vote. don sulk if ur part of the minority. haha..
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TYPE "S-LC" aka Super LateCommers.
i Totally hate waiting for more than 15min for a gathering or meeting, esp for those which require almost everyone to reach before we can set off. unless valid reason like accident or wad. cuz if S-LCs say "the bus was late" or "traffic jam", the thing is they Could have predicted the unpredictability and leave a little earlier. and the worst thing is they arrive an hour late and they dont LOOK the least apologetic (even thou they may mumble "sorry sorry"). sometimes it totally spoilt the mood of a gatherin or the eagerness of a meeting. so pls, try to be on time n not act like a princess. (and its DOUBLE the sin if S-LCs happen to be guys.)
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TYPE SF aka Self-Fish.
ok its abt ironic tt i should mention this type of pple since accordin to my view, most pple r not truly altruistic. haha here i mean selfish in the sense tt these pple behave like parasites, wanting others to give help but offering v little in return. its like, if u want others to offer help in giving answers to a certain subject, den u should be equally helpful in giving help in subjects u can help. in this situation i would like to commend my fellow classmate KeeKa! haha she's been an angel to everyone arnd her cuz she would willingly lend ppl everything :) cheers! i know i cant be like her thou. i would feel too pissed to be "used" lol~
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TYPE "BB" aka BimBo.
haha ok u know i know wad bimbo means. hard to describe thou. hmm some bimbos r quite nice! haha like my roomie is abit bimbotic, but a v nice person. i dun like those that go all flirty around guys. its like they emit pheromones everywhere once hot guys are arnd. lol. i think its fine to go all gooey-eyed thou. muahaha. i was actually thinkin of a certain bballer when i came up with this BB typ of pple.
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actually i could think of a few more but juz now mummy voice v loud, forced all my coherent thoughts away. sian-ded. k la gotta go slp le. tml stil got intern!
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^the Queen^
is being a good girl n takes her herbal medicine regularly even thou they taste pretty horrible. sigh.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Happy Two Years!
Here's an electronic version of what ive gotten for baobei! nice right? being a computer idiot i spent at least 8 hrs fixing all the photos into the template -.-
enjoy!
Here's an electronic version of what ive gotten for baobei! nice right? being a computer idiot i spent at least 8 hrs fixing all the photos into the template -.-
enjoy!
finally at bottle tree park to prawn!
baobei's humongous prawn! but... dont believe him. mine was only SLIGHTLY smaller. n the two other prawns he caught were normal sized only. ive got TWO big ones! heh heh.
i poked three of the smaller prawns cuz the other four were pretty mean lookin w the pincers n stuff. haha baobei damn cruel.. he enjoyed seeing them wriggle n squirm as he twisted the satay stick thru them. UGGGG....
prawnies were still moving as they were placed on the road of no return...
not moving anymore!
oooooh! haha even thou they look yummy, they were pretty much tasteless. haha much to our disappointment..
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back in hall, revelation of presents! oops n i spilled baobei's presie! so i took e chance n arranged all his stars into a lovely heart!
thanks baobei for the effort! its not easy for guys to fold stars :D n so i shall not complain how some of them look squashed or bent or out of shape :X
happily two years~ heh heh n i love the flowers he folded! lalala. he played cheat w the stars... if u look carefully, there is plenty of cotton wool to fill up the space! cheater!
close up!
a random pict of baobei! think he looks super cute here!.
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20th Oct 2008
Crazy Chicks played in Street Challenge and won THIRD!! Congratulations to crazychick no.1 shuling, crazychick no.2 yiroe, crazychick no.3 yinyue and crazychick no.4 angela! well done n i thought it was a lovely day under the sun! im thoroughly burnt thou. haha just like the nicely cooked prawnie in one of the picts above. lol~
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i forgot to mention (did i do that on purpose?) haha that there were only FIVE girls teams. muahahahaha... ok la. so lidet considered average. haha. eh. there were two games which we mysteriously ended up with a draw when we should have won, and one second half which we mysteriously lost 17-0 to a team (final score 22-6) when we nvr even thought we would lose the match. haha. shall not bore the rest w e details. but we did made some frens thru all e funny things (like gangin up against the nie pple... n being sucky at scissor-paper-stone... and gettin my nose practically chopped off by the "traffic light" team's orange player. hahaha~)
an artistic picture taken by denise my little bball manager... haha seems like the focus of the pict is not on us sia.
angela my twin tower! thanks for coming n playin even thou i noe ur super busy! i loved playin with u! *hugs*
haha the gossipin was fun the whole day. n esp beatin shuling's juniors ShanShine even thou shuling thought they were v good.. heh heh.
haha lucky yiroe was pretty on form that day, if not we prob would end up second..... last. haha like wad we did for the first round :( lucky we ended up third n went back feelin happy!
the LOUSY prizes. haha lousy perfume w no brand. seriously, does it mean tt bball gers got only 5 teams tts y the prizes were so sucky?! bleah. haha n got a $20 royal sportin house voucher too. haha ok la. mai hiam buay giam. at least we got back our $40 reg fee i think. lol~.
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^the Queen^
is now having plenty of aches n burnts n blisters n happy memories for the month of October! n now... back to the unhappy reality of having to study for tcm quiz on wed. sigh.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Saturday, October 18, 2008
♥ 2nd year!
HEELLLOOOO!!! IS ME!! haha... after much whining and complaining and screaming and biting and smacking and napping and irritating-ness from paopei..i decided to blog again..not much thank to those who tag or say i nvr updated..argh...the reason i came to blog is because...............................we juz celebrated our 2 year anniversary!! yeah!! we all o'rdy together for 730 days and yet we r still not sick of each other, at all!! =X
the day was plan by my ever-beautiful paopao..she didnt tell me where we gg on that day..n kept on giving clues on the place she bringin me..that piece of shit..more den half the clues was fake!! nei nei..sibei boliao..den she own self shiok only...told me we gg to yishan on e train only to fake me the last moment when we leave our seat..pull me back from the door..haha..in the end we finally alight at Khatib...
where got ppl plan the surprize without knowing how to get dere one..ku ku bird..make me walk so far n went into a park, only to find out it wasnt the place...zzzzz..in the end she finaly went to ask an uncle abt the place..lousy....
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PRAWNING at BOTTLE TREE PARK!!!
haha...is a park oppsite yishan stadium..inside got quite a number of things to do....paint ball, fishing,bball, bumper car,cycle on the lake n more .....but we r gg PRAWNING!!! =D quite a nice surprize as we nvr prawn b4..the place was not bad..quite clean n new..but the prawn pond like abit small and abit ex..42 for 4 hrs.. ( we share e 4 hrs..spilt into 2 hrs for 2) ..haha..alot of ppl prawning there one lo..thru out our stay..dere is always new ppl coming to prawn..and i noe the reason...croz is FUN!! hahahaha.. it was quite different from fishing..the techniques is different ma..n i tink is muzh easier..croz even paopei, who nvr catch a fish b4,managed to catch the 1st prawn one the day..pui..freaking lucky shit..but all the prawns she caught were those tiny-weeney de..abit bigger den those XiaMi...but the ones i caught..wah..freaking big lo..machaim lobster lidat..the Gong all v big one..damn juicy...haha..in the end, after ard 2 hrs..the feeling of the prawn kana caught v shiok..sometime we pull to hard or to slow..den they swim away..they v li hai..muz realli get the timing correct den can pull up the bait..we caught a total of 7 prawns!! BBq them straight and the best part is not the tasty, is the poking of the satay stick..hahaha..1st time poke a living prawn thru the ass out from the head...wah...i see the prawn reaction i also erxin..the legs n everything on the head juz keep moving n shaking..damn ke lian..
and finally we exchange our present for each other!! my colourfully custom make flowers for her was damn nice!! shld upload the foto some other time..spent dunno how many days n hoursto get it done..tink if got handicraft course...i cfm A..hehe...but paopaopresent for me also v nice..she make a foto ablum of us thru our 2 yrs..VVVVVVVvvv sweettt.....n its v nice..looking thru some of the picturees remain me of our happy time and make me love u more!! MUACK!!!!!!!!!!! love a paopei!!!!!! =D
guess i'll blog until here...till next time...........
(hahahahahaaa....dunno how long ltr...)
-the King-
P.S. GD luck to the Crazy chicks!!!
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
♥ the day before two years!
today is the EVE of our two years!!
n i've planned the most perfect spot to go gaigai! shall not reveal it here in case he comes across this ltr! muahaha! anyways baobei has been an asshole cuz he doesnt sound v interested in the place yet. hmpf. we'll see once we get there! *prays it doesn rain cuz there's thunder outside right now*
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waiting for him to finish his lab n get back to room! meanwhile, im bored. haha our laoshi for 金贵要略 is super funny! i mean, he really really has a real sense of humour. haha.. kaka was commentin that the funny lookin snowman model he always uses will prob be the only thing we rem abt his lessons after we grad. lol. n our male teachers frm beijing usually have v girlish soundin names! like our current teacher is called 王新佩 while our 伤寒 teacher is called 肖相如! heh heh. okok im mean to laugh at them. but i think i am entitled to laughin at other pple's names cuz im subjected to others laughin at my name for almost as long as i live. PUI!
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haha anyways our dear laoshi was sayin today tt alot of western medicine ppl dun exactly understand the essence of chinese medicine. they try to incorporate it into their treatment, but end up 弄巧反拙, possibly leadin to death. n he also gave examples of lousy experiments.. haha n one tt i laughed especially loud at was the one on 耗子 aka mice. there was this person who tried to make 耗子 models of 脾虚证 by makin them swim n den push them back into the middle of the waters when they reach shore, n keep doing that until they v tired. haha laoshi commented tt :
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there was this booth set up near can a today. took one of the brochures regardin violence in relationships. haha~ it says tt if ur prob experiencin violence in a relationship if u:
*food for thought* for the rest of the day...
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^the Queen^
is still prayin it wont rain! *thunder GO AWAY!*
n i've planned the most perfect spot to go gaigai! shall not reveal it here in case he comes across this ltr! muahaha! anyways baobei has been an asshole cuz he doesnt sound v interested in the place yet. hmpf. we'll see once we get there! *prays it doesn rain cuz there's thunder outside right now*
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waiting for him to finish his lab n get back to room! meanwhile, im bored. haha our laoshi for 金贵要略 is super funny! i mean, he really really has a real sense of humour. haha.. kaka was commentin that the funny lookin snowman model he always uses will prob be the only thing we rem abt his lessons after we grad. lol. n our male teachers frm beijing usually have v girlish soundin names! like our current teacher is called 王新佩 while our 伤寒 teacher is called 肖相如! heh heh. okok im mean to laugh at them. but i think i am entitled to laughin at other pple's names cuz im subjected to others laughin at my name for almost as long as i live. PUI!
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haha anyways our dear laoshi was sayin today tt alot of western medicine ppl dun exactly understand the essence of chinese medicine. they try to incorporate it into their treatment, but end up 弄巧反拙, possibly leadin to death. n he also gave examples of lousy experiments.. haha n one tt i laughed especially loud at was the one on 耗子 aka mice. there was this person who tried to make 耗子 models of 脾虚证 by makin them swim n den push them back into the middle of the waters when they reach shore, n keep doing that until they v tired. haha laoshi commented tt :
- other than the fact tt 脾虚证 is attained over a l-o-n-g period of time n not right after a short n tiring exercise (if lidet den all those who run marathon cfm 脾虚 alrdy.. -.-)
- the experimentor did not take into consideration tt the mice were prob super angry at getting thrown back into the waters time after time! haha that would lead to 肝火炽盛，肝阳上亢!! true true. i love to hear him tell stories!
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there was this booth set up near can a today. took one of the brochures regardin violence in relationships. haha~ it says tt if ur prob experiencin violence in a relationship if u:
- your bf/gf slapped, punched (etc) u. [hahah... baobei n i did all that, n does biting count too?]
- your bf/gf called u names like stupid, idiot, bitch.[eh? haha add piece of shit and asshole to the list...]
- your bf/gf constantly calls u n asks u abt your whereabouts n what ur doing. [errr.. we always start off a phone call with: "baobei baobei, 你在哪里？ muack muack muack muack! i miss yooooou!" HAHAHA!]
*food for thought* for the rest of the day...
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^the Queen^
is still prayin it wont rain! *thunder GO AWAY!*
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
ok im blogging at nearly three am n YES i've totally forgotten abt my 养生之道 haha. all baobei's fault cuz the first few days he keep complainin i sleep too early nvr pei him den he whine n whine say wan huggie n kiss kiss. dependent little fat shit. haha. the two or three days tt i was on perfect schedule, i felt something different. like... a different me? like... my every day is short of at least three hours to do stuff, cuz after dinner i barely have time to do anything before i gotta sleep at 1030. den in the mornin i tend to wakie early, but i wake up thinkin of the long day ahead i feel sian of the day alrdy. n breakfast... hmm i think i should make a list of what possibilities of breakfast there can be, cuz thinkin of eating similar things every day just makes me so sian. ok...
I NEED MORE DETERMINATION!
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omg i only did it for 2 days?! n i gave up alrdy. haha. (ok delete the "haha" im supp to be serious now.) i shall try again startin nxt mon. with more determination. ok i shall target one full week. lets see if it will last. (haha! oops. i think it sounds like im tryin to quit smokin or smthg like that :p)
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ok the reason im blogging is becuz baobei is playin DOTA AGAIN. n ive nthg to do. or rather, i chose to do nthg. since tcm test coming up again. but ok la nt that bad, this sem super slack alrdy. anyways baobei n i had a pact. one day at most play one DOTA game. anymore than that, one game $10 will be donated to "PaoPei n BaoBei's holiday fund". this is so tt he can conc on studies n not play whole day. wonderful idea, i should say.
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he is now playin his SECOND game! muahaha! the "fund" is now $10 richer! pui. baobei u suck. u think u win hundred plus bucks at ban3lak4 u can anyhow spend ur money isit. pui. u better save up for the rainy days! hmpf. if u nxt time bank no money when i come back frm beijing im NOT going to marry you. PUI.
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ok the REAL reason why i wanted to blog is abt the drama series "HOT SHOT". oh well its been quite some time since i last pursued after a drama. but this one im keen to watch. partly cuz of the cute guys. mainly cuz its bball? lol. the episode i just watched triggered some intense feelins in me. its episode 11, 球魁 is actually 洁儿!! OH MY GOD. i was like... Freakin Shocked. so was baobei, who was watchin abit abit while dota-ing. even thou we were guessin its a girl cuz 球魁 is short n had girly eyes, we were guessin another admirer, or even mother, or a girlish lookin boy. haha. damn wrong.
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the touchin part is... she actually started playin bball (and got super good at it) not just bcuz all e guys think girls shouldn play bball n she wanted to prove them wrong, but is mainly bcuz she wanted to use bball to get to know 东方翔 , to hang around him in a carefree and unrestricted manner. and in this particular episode, to protect him frm this crazy guy who seemed to going for his life thru bball. i think thats such a sweeeet thing to do, for someone she loves! n there was one part she looked at him and thought
"你不会有事的，因为... 有我在."
and that was it. i think i felt so strongly bcuz i understand that feeling. that at times, a girl will want to protect her boy/(man?) too. im not kiddin, i think alot of girls out there feel the same. but "protect" is in a different sense. not the way a guy will protect her girl physically. its more of emotional protection, not wanting others to hurt him in any little way. girls can be v 用心 in these ways.. in ways tt guys may not even realise them, until mayb one day they are not there anymore...
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sigh. i love love stories. makes me go "awwwww..." haha. ok end of post. shall go back to buggin baobei to hurry up die in dota so tt i can have back my internet connection n post my blog, play elven blood! join my party!! i need more players!! arghh..
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^the Queen^
has given up hope on her boy to EVER blog again.
P.S. i think he didnt even check e blog enough to realise i have blogged TWICE before this post alrdy. he totally sucks. pui.
I NEED MORE DETERMINATION!
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omg i only did it for 2 days?! n i gave up alrdy. haha. (ok delete the "haha" im supp to be serious now.) i shall try again startin nxt mon. with more determination. ok i shall target one full week. lets see if it will last. (haha! oops. i think it sounds like im tryin to quit smokin or smthg like that :p)
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ok the reason im blogging is becuz baobei is playin DOTA AGAIN. n ive nthg to do. or rather, i chose to do nthg. since tcm test coming up again. but ok la nt that bad, this sem super slack alrdy. anyways baobei n i had a pact. one day at most play one DOTA game. anymore than that, one game $10 will be donated to "PaoPei n BaoBei's holiday fund". this is so tt he can conc on studies n not play whole day. wonderful idea, i should say.
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he is now playin his SECOND game! muahaha! the "fund" is now $10 richer! pui. baobei u suck. u think u win hundred plus bucks at ban3lak4 u can anyhow spend ur money isit. pui. u better save up for the rainy days! hmpf. if u nxt time bank no money when i come back frm beijing im NOT going to marry you. PUI.
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ok the REAL reason why i wanted to blog is abt the drama series "HOT SHOT". oh well its been quite some time since i last pursued after a drama. but this one im keen to watch. partly cuz of the cute guys. mainly cuz its bball? lol. the episode i just watched triggered some intense feelins in me. its episode 11, 球魁 is actually 洁儿!! OH MY GOD. i was like... Freakin Shocked. so was baobei, who was watchin abit abit while dota-ing. even thou we were guessin its a girl cuz 球魁 is short n had girly eyes, we were guessin another admirer, or even mother, or a girlish lookin boy. haha. damn wrong.
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the touchin part is... she actually started playin bball (and got super good at it) not just bcuz all e guys think girls shouldn play bball n she wanted to prove them wrong, but is mainly bcuz she wanted to use bball to get to know 东方翔 , to hang around him in a carefree and unrestricted manner. and in this particular episode, to protect him frm this crazy guy who seemed to going for his life thru bball. i think thats such a sweeeet thing to do, for someone she loves! n there was one part she looked at him and thought
"你不会有事的，因为... 有我在."
and that was it. i think i felt so strongly bcuz i understand that feeling. that at times, a girl will want to protect her boy/(man?) too. im not kiddin, i think alot of girls out there feel the same. but "protect" is in a different sense. not the way a guy will protect her girl physically. its more of emotional protection, not wanting others to hurt him in any little way. girls can be v 用心 in these ways.. in ways tt guys may not even realise them, until mayb one day they are not there anymore...
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sigh. i love love stories. makes me go "awwwww..." haha. ok end of post. shall go back to buggin baobei to hurry up die in dota so tt i can have back my internet connection n post my blog, play elven blood! join my party!! i need more players!! arghh..
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^the Queen^
has given up hope on her boy to EVER blog again.
P.S. i think he didnt even check e blog enough to realise i have blogged TWICE before this post alrdy. he totally sucks. pui.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
♥ basketball again?
i'll be joinin this yr's street challenge!
haha final year alrdy must try everything.. kind of a regret tt nvr join for the past two years. sigh. anyways i LOVE our team name!
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Crazy Chicks~
how does that sound?! haha so cute right... anyways im joining w yiroe, shuling n angela. i think we got chance! haha but to win champ not v likely la, we'll prob die of fatigue halfway there. sigh. talkin abt that, recently i have "the" weird feelin again. haha that feelin was gone since like.. sec 2?
the feelin tt i simply love bball~ love it for that feelin of connection w ppl im playin with. love it for the feelin of scoring and playing just for the love of it, n not to just win matches, not to play for someone or some purpose. recently, there's one more feelin. the feelin of achievement when freshies actually start to get the "feel" of the game thru my (ahem!) dedicated coaching! haha... i really feel v happy when i see them improve training by training, or even in only one training alone. hmmm. its like tuition isnt it? i like to pass knowledge/skills/information to those who are interested to find out more. n in turn they make me feel like ive grown, n ive been a much more useful person :) haha its all abt "feelins".
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sometimes i regret takin up basketball. its like when u feel so unaccomplished, so music-idiot (esp when u listen to those ppl singing so beautifully, or dance those impossible steps, or play piano like they know all the keys and whatever 豆芽 aka notes by heart..), i always wondered if it were a right choice to take it up. i know i would have loved it too if i can dance or sing beautifully.. haha.. i love hiphop!! sigh. too late.
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but there are times, thou less often nowadays, i sat at my front door at home, n i think of the wonderful game(s) i played that day, that wonderful sense of bonding w my team players, n those flawless passes, shots, layups, sundays, defence etc etc. (awww... i miss u maggot... i miss those days...) i totally relished those moments. n i still feel it w sbs pple :) less for hall thou, the 默契 not there yet. but this year, i have a good feelin abt it. haha hopefully we can get into the finals!! yay~
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im lookin forward to every thur! thurs bball trainin n this yr plenty of ppl r interested to come down for trng! disappointed in seniors, as usual. why cant they feel the passion for the game at all? i dont understand. but im numb alrdy. i can only put my hopes in my freshies. n i have faith in them. n friday we have no lessons! double-O-yeah! ahaha~ (i learnt that phrase in a book) PLUS PLUS sat no intern at 同济! yes la!
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but. i cannot explain this little empty hole inside me. i feel it since two weeks ago or so. its like, no matter how much i laugh or joke, there's a little bit of sadness hidden within reach. feelin helpless, feelin annoyed, feelin frustrated tt i can do nthg abt it. i dont even know exactly wads wrong man. i hope it goes away soon :(
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either that, or just give me more homework for me to bury myself in so tt i forget all of these. its so easy to take the easier way out.
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^the Queen^
is feelin less like a Queen,
and more of a little girl today, tonight.
why do little girls FEEL so much?! argh.
haha final year alrdy must try everything.. kind of a regret tt nvr join for the past two years. sigh. anyways i LOVE our team name!
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Crazy Chicks~
how does that sound?! haha so cute right... anyways im joining w yiroe, shuling n angela. i think we got chance! haha but to win champ not v likely la, we'll prob die of fatigue halfway there. sigh. talkin abt that, recently i have "the" weird feelin again. haha that feelin was gone since like.. sec 2?
the feelin tt i simply love bball~ love it for that feelin of connection w ppl im playin with. love it for the feelin of scoring and playing just for the love of it, n not to just win matches, not to play for someone or some purpose. recently, there's one more feelin. the feelin of achievement when freshies actually start to get the "feel" of the game thru my (ahem!) dedicated coaching! haha... i really feel v happy when i see them improve training by training, or even in only one training alone. hmmm. its like tuition isnt it? i like to pass knowledge/skills/information to those who are interested to find out more. n in turn they make me feel like ive grown, n ive been a much more useful person :) haha its all abt "feelins".
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sometimes i regret takin up basketball. its like when u feel so unaccomplished, so music-idiot (esp when u listen to those ppl singing so beautifully, or dance those impossible steps, or play piano like they know all the keys and whatever 豆芽 aka notes by heart..), i always wondered if it were a right choice to take it up. i know i would have loved it too if i can dance or sing beautifully.. haha.. i love hiphop!! sigh. too late.
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but there are times, thou less often nowadays, i sat at my front door at home, n i think of the wonderful game(s) i played that day, that wonderful sense of bonding w my team players, n those flawless passes, shots, layups, sundays, defence etc etc. (awww... i miss u maggot... i miss those days...) i totally relished those moments. n i still feel it w sbs pple :) less for hall thou, the 默契 not there yet. but this year, i have a good feelin abt it. haha hopefully we can get into the finals!! yay~
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im lookin forward to every thur! thurs bball trainin n this yr plenty of ppl r interested to come down for trng! disappointed in seniors, as usual. why cant they feel the passion for the game at all? i dont understand. but im numb alrdy. i can only put my hopes in my freshies. n i have faith in them. n friday we have no lessons! double-O-yeah! ahaha~ (i learnt that phrase in a book) PLUS PLUS sat no intern at 同济! yes la!
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but. i cannot explain this little empty hole inside me. i feel it since two weeks ago or so. its like, no matter how much i laugh or joke, there's a little bit of sadness hidden within reach. feelin helpless, feelin annoyed, feelin frustrated tt i can do nthg abt it. i dont even know exactly wads wrong man. i hope it goes away soon :(
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either that, or just give me more homework for me to bury myself in so tt i forget all of these. its so easy to take the easier way out.
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^the Queen^
is feelin less like a Queen,
and more of a little girl today, tonight.
why do little girls FEEL so much?! argh.
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Monday, October 6, 2008
♥ a whole new ME!
ok... today's monday, oct 6th
hopefully this will be a memorable day for me.
why?
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it's probably because im finally feeling sick.
sick of feelin sick.
means ive been feelin unwell for the past, well.. two or so years. how am i suppose to TREAT patients in the future, giving them health tips if I am, myself, unable to follow them??! so ironic.
maybe its my roomie influencing me. haha thanks eh, jingsian~ she has been tryin to make me healthier by pasting some newspaper cutting near my bed, tryin to make me see how far my lifestyle has deviated frm the supposed healthy 养生 im supposed to be all too familiar with. yes, maybe i haven grown old enough to realise what kinda impacts my current lifestyle is gonna give me once im old enough to think abt death and ailments. but then again, im plagued with problems now that are probably brought abt by sleepin mostly in the aftn/evening, and staying awake until 3-6am. horrible ain't it? now my muscles give me a constant ache, my jaw wont open properly, i feel grouchy n PMS nearly half a month each month, as well as certain probs i'd rather keep to myself.
ive had enough.
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if waking at 0800 + eating a proper breakfast + having fruits during lunch and dinner + doing homework btw 7-10 + no suppers at all + sleeping at 1030
can GUARANTEE
most of my probs are gonna fade away by the end of 2008, im f***ing gonna give it a try.
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so if ur seeing this, and for the next few days (or, next few months) u see me online (fb, msn, whatever) at 11pm, just *SLAP ME* on my wall etc, wont you?
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^the Queen^
is serious this time round, she thinks.
and this is posted at 0705AM, on a bright n lovely monday morning. oh dammit. she hasnt slept a wink since she woke up at 1200AM. so so so screwed up.
Monday, October 06, 2008
