Monday, October 27, 2008
♥ too many things on my mind tonight
i was about to sleep, to maintain my healthy lifestyle, and then so many thoughts rushed into my head. as usual. i think many pple experience this, the feelin of unable to clear ur head b4 u sleep, no matter how hard u try sometimes. so, instead of stayin sleepless for the next hour or so, im gonna blog my thoughts out.
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the usual things are happenin to me these days. tcm, bball, baobei, and exams. haha... all has become such a routine to me. if i were to live without thinkin abt any of these any single day, i would prob feel weird. haha.. esp baobei! okok this is a serious post :X
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im very much surprised (pleasantly so) that i dont feel the same way i did about exams n tests the way i do about two or so years back. in those days, i feel panicky abt exams at least one month before the first paper, n cannot sleep well the night before the first paper (this happened almost 100% of the time, even if i were 110% confident of the paper). nowadays, i feel v calm and relaxed whenever facing a quiz/exam. i told myself i surely can do it, n i take careful plans to make sure i dont fall behind my target. studyin has become part n parcel of my life. i wonder how i would adapt to life after i graduate.. but thats gonna be at least three years later so im not gonna worrie abt it right now :D
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another thing i would like to mention is abt our internship at thongchai hospital (同济医院）. i was attached to this lady 医师 frm china whose name i cant recall. she's quite amazing, and quite afew patients praised her infront of us. i think she is v capable, and was really REALLY amazed at her capability of reciting 方歌s at a super fast speed. i was nvr able to do that even while i was muggin for 方剂学... n she really REALLY made me feel v small when she told us some (she said all) of her students at a different institution were v v hardworkin and could identify many 方s immediately when she asked them. on that day, she asked us to identify quite a few but we were quite a disappointment. we (I) really REALLY have a lot to catch up to reach that standard. and i DO want to reach that standard.
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i took up this course, thinkin it would be interesting. i start to study about it, feelin that it is exhausting. i start to think about it, n i believe that i should excel in it, be responsible for all the future patients i would face, and that, starts from a single word:
-MEMORISE-
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there's no running away from this fact, i totally understand now. n so, i shall start training myself frm this day onwards to be the responsible doctor im going to be in the future.
i really hope i have the endurance.
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remember my 养生计划 i wanted to keep up with some days back? well i aint doing v well at it, but im improvin! at least i feel guilty if i sleep late, and i do wakie early these days (only to fall back to sleep cuz i too lazy to do any hw..), and i do make a conscious effort to watch my diet and eat fruits! so congratulate me! small improvements count!! yay~
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below is my timetable until exams are over.. combining both 养生 and studies to become a 负责任的郑医师! muahaha~
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0815- alarm clock
0845- breakfast
0930- lessons/revision
1230- lunch!
1330- -NAP-
1600- revision
1900- dinner! + fruits
2000- daily dose of revision (3 方歌!)
2100- revision
2245- -SLEEP-
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if i were to succeed in followin the plan for two days, i can use facebook two hours! heh heh im copyin my roomie's psychology project's method. lol... positive reinforcement!! woohoo~
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oh a few warnings to those readin this. dun eat too many panadols hor. in fact, try not to eat any unless absolutely necessary. cuz there was this patient at tongji who suffered frm a stroke which left him hobbling on a stick (he's only 40+!) due to overdose of panadols over a long period of time. he told us the army prescribed panadols for practically EVERY ailment. wtf. really. what the FUCK. n now he filed against them for causing this to him, n what he gets? money for compensation. what's money compared to health? n this army boy (only 19) suffers from lung problem (part of his lungs is turned into useless fibre, probably genetic) and he fainted several times during outfield. when he went to the medical area n told them abt his circumstances, he told us this was wad he heard: "你有什么问题？aiya.. 你可以站在这里跟我讲话，就代表你没有什么事了lor.." and he would be sent away with panadols. PANADOLS! wtf again. the 医师, after the boy left, told us if he were her child, by the second time he fainted she would have talked to the army pple in charge. who would be responsible if the boy dies?!?! junie was saying in the army, nthg is considered hazardous until someone dies. how true.
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in another case, this lady suddenly appeared one day at tongji with her face BLACK, like a mask. it freakin to think abt it (we can see the remnants of her illness) cuz the black part covers the front of her face, a defined line.. really like a mask. the 医师 said its either due to hormone imbalance, or inappropriate usage of cosmetics. eeks! so scary.. so girls out there, pls dun anyhow try new products. stick to safer ones (eh, i also dunno wads safe!) or dun use if possible. natural beauty is the best, really. n baobei hates to kiss me when im with makeup. haha he would have to swallow all the artificial stuff :X lol~
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ok la enough of the medical n emo things. im feelin v hopeful abt h3 bball this yr! heehee another ivp is squattin our hall this yr. heard she not bad. i really hope we can get first/second this yr. its my final year n i hope i can finali achieve something before i leave... at least i prob wont regret the choice i made over so many other ccas 7 years back.. so.. after exams im gonna do some brushin up with my skills n stamina! :D :D
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finally
^the Queen^
has cleared her head of her thoughts and can go to bed! but sadly, its 1130pm alrdy! its past the 2245 sleepin time :(
Monday, October 27, 2008
