Monday, October 5, 2009
♥ random thoughts of beijing
ok... finally i got the feeling to blog again. been very busy these days, revising for the upcoming tests. this doesnt mean life is boring. on the contrary, so many things have happened that i really dunno how to start. shall just blog any thing that comes to my head =)
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taichi. i feel that this is something that bonds me and my mummy, as well as me and my classmates, together. after every lesson, i would talk to mummy, tell her the new stances we learnt, complain abt muscle ache, etc etc. sometimes i'll also ask her abt new recipes for some long ago dishes i remembered which she cooked. slowly slowly, i actually talked to her much more than when i was back in singapore. i liked this feeling very much. there wasnt much chances to talk to her then. im glad of this distance bcuz it seemed to bring us much closer together~ as for the bonding btw me n classmates, its cuz so many of us joined taichi tog. twenty or so? to gather at the park at 8+/9... and then practice in peace w laoshi... n then stay back to play chapteh. it was fantastic. chapteh brought back super nice memories of bedok south primary school. those carefree days of chapteh, five stones, hop scotch, and bullying! hahahaha (too bad, yr, wb, tb, ws! etc etc...) as well as after class cycling... and some bball, some catching... hanging out w all the EM3 pple... haha~ how did i manage such gd grades even after hanging arnd w those pple, i have no idea. chu wu ni er bu ran! LOL. even thou bsps is demolished, and there is no such school anymore, it has and always will exist in my heart. the cheap canteen food, the white n brown uniform, the trees w huge roots tt we played catchin on, the area next to the canteen that sells books once in a while, the little patch of concrete which we played hop scotch (and other girls play zero point), the huge car park which was utilized for flag raising, capt ball, hop scotch and a million other things, the foyer which i was scolded by parents when i was a prefect (cuz i tried to stop them from entering, grrr... in the end i quit. hehe), and art classes, where my teacher always give me black and white cuz she think its the best colour combi and i was her fav student, days when i keep comparing grades and hated by those who lost to me once again, days when i had to copy extra things to hang on the wall (compos, poems, both in eng n chi) cuz i scored too high... HAHA... oh man. the list goes on. i just keep smiling as i think about these things.
anyways. i just bought a new bball for 69yuan. haha china brand, but looks sturdy enough! went with yiroe n gang to buy. lookin forward to some good bball sessions w her n huizi n shuling =) i know i dont really Love bball alot these days. those good old days were back in dunman high, and can never be felt anymore. but still, playin with the right pple these days brings back good memories and feels shoik once in a while. ive always had this annoying mentality: winning is not important, as long as we enjoyed the game. this mentality has always been looked down by many, and only a rare few happen to hold this same mentality as me. shinwei, for one. and some of my bms classmates. the most recent example was the ISG against HSS, we played our game and nearly won, but tt was cuz we played w no stress, no will to win, and just the mentality to have fun. it was one of the best games played in a while.
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in these five weeks, ive had alot of interaction with my classmates. good things, mostly. but also a few hitches. for one thing, hanging out w my flatmates, kaka n huiming, has become a routine. but i know for one thing i dont totally click with them, and its good tt we set up rules and stuff. i know im a possessive person. in dhs, when i have a best friend, the friend is Mine, and no one else's. i've learnt, albeit in a painful way, to forget about this stupid way of establishing friendship. jealousy is never the way to do things. nevertheless, thank you maggot. our friendship came a long way, way too many ups, and its fair share of downs.
ever since our friendship, i am kinda afraid of making very close friends. i have this thinking, that if u are not so close to me, u dont "belong" to me, so i am not afraid of losing you. HAHA. actually... this is like a relationship in the bgr sense. you dont commit, then the person is not yours, and you dont have to be scared of losing. but if u take that first step, u make the promise of a friendship, u will be afraid of losing it.
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maybe this is the reason why i choose my friends so carefully. and i dont have many friends, accordin to my strict definition of a friend. err.. so what is the definition of a friend, to me?
--> a special person whom i can relax completely and joke about any thing when im around her/him, whom i can gossip to without being afraid that she/he would spill on me, whom i would feel upset and bad tempered if we end up in a misunderstanding, whom i would worry about if she/he falls sick or is in pain or is unhappy, whom i would feel jealous if she/he gets too close to another friend or into a relationship.<-- . something like this i guess. so far, only maggot fits this description. i know baobei is a very good friend to me, but in his case it is somewhat different. it differs frm the typical "friend" definition. LOL. . what im tryin to say was, i was kinda controlling myself with this natural sense of "jealousy". kaka was sorta considered my "best friend" in uni. when we are now in beijing, stayin w her n huiming, esp when huiming is her roomie, sometimes makes me feel isolated. even thou i act like i dont really care, i admit i do miss those days when only the two of us hang out together. not that huiming is not a nice person, but i havent really opened up to her yet. so its like, i still feel like a stranger to her. she is just not the kind of "friend" that i would open up to. maybe when u, whoever u are, are reading this, u might feel that im narrowminded, that im difficult to go along with, but this is the way i am. i know who i will be happy around, and i tend to hang around w those pple. other pple may be nice, they may be friendly, but they are just "not-my-type". . so... who are "my-type" so far? haha... in my bms class, sad to say, there are only a few pple who i like to hang out with. kaka, yiroe, huangfang, junie, brandon, huizi, roger, huimin. that should be about all?? yiroe, haha if ur reading this, u might think "how abt eileen?!" like what i say, "not-my-type". i dont really know how to elaborate.. partly cuz i also dunno who is reading this post. haiz. blogging is so tiring. i hope u guys dont mind me hanging out w u all. its a nice change once in a while. i always have the left-out feeling when im with my housemates. and that is also partly bcuz im isolating myself frm them sometimes. my weird mentality again. grr... . now tt im in a relatively good mood, i shall briefly mention abt the other day when i nearly Nearly lost my temper at a classmate. again, i dunno who might read this, but i shall say that whatever i say here is purely my own POV, and i do not mean to slander. whether u see my stand or not, i dont care. i just wanna vent my feelings here before it buries itself in a small and forgotten corner. as a class rep, she appeared to me as someone who is unwilling to change for the better. unwilling to make efforts to cooperate and work as a team instead of individually. she always think of things from her own POV, and save trouble for herself. it doesn matter to her if the class fxns suckier or everyone had to go thru more trouble. why is it that she was the only one out of four complaining. why is it that others can see that it was part of their duty to help out, and not her. if she wanna quit, let it be. if she wanna stay, please think more openly. i think i shall say till here. its a happy day n i dun wanna spoil it by thinkin abt that incident again. lets hope i can control my temper more and prevent similar incidents frm happening. thanks brandon, lucky u were there. if not i think i would say/do things i prob would regret right now. . happy things! went shoppin w huiming n kaka the other day, at xi dan. i super like that place! alot alot of things, the pple are more willing to talk abt prices, and we can feel the items (unlike at dong wu yuan!), and its not so crowded. n the stuff there are quite nice! bought so many many things! and only for abt sg$100 i totally feel that i bought sg$300 worth of things. things here are so cheap n so i get to try diff fashions which i was relatively reluctant to try back in sg. in a way its really an eye-opener in many ways for me. n we took neoprints! hehe felt so young again... shld take more often cuz its just SO fun! :D
the building we are staying in! looks posh doesnt it?! hehe its quite cosy, even thou it gave us quite some probs.
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the first meal cooked entirely by me! by then we were sick of outside food and this tasted so homely and healthy! yum! im glad i did my homework before i came beijing!
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one of the nice meals i cooked when some friends came to visit! muahahaha~ i cooked everything except for the liang cai on the extreme left. we bought that frm carrefour =) the herbal chicken (yao cai ji) was yummy! and so was the dong gua soup~ hehe! mummy must be proud of me!
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shoppin trip at xi dan! everything for rmb500+ woohoo~!!! bags, clothes, fluffy shoes, books, neoprints, rings, posters.. u name it!
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my cute little froggie slippers to protect my feet frm the cold! the black dot in the middle is my ring-watch! its a ring and its a watch! (like DUH).
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and i bought this on impulse! haha dont it look CUTE?!?!?! bear paws! haha baobao can wear it nxt time when he come visit =) kaka says it looks super scary... hahahaa~
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from the first shopping trip to dong wu yuan! i TOTALLY love my polka-dotted jacket!!! YAY! the stuff on the floor to the left are all mine... huiming n i totally spread out our things on the floor! so shoik~ i spent rmb600+ that day~
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a random pict of kaka n i eating icecream =) icecream is only 1yuan here, ie sg20cents! wow! eat more eat more!
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house visiting on china's national day! yiroe n gang cooked nice nice food! got bakuteh! hehe~ always feel v happy when im w the gang, hope they dun mind my company too!
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my fav suan nai (yogurt)!!! super cheap, very healthy, and DAMN yummy! its definitely one of the things i would miss when i return to sg.
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me, assembling an ikea chair all on my own. not as easy as it seems =( haha but paopei will grow to be a strong n independent little girl! GO GO GO!
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a cute collage of my little boy eating a piggie mooncake! happy mooncake festival! piggie is cute but my little boy is way cuter than it! muackssss*
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^the Queen^
has never realised the importance of computers, handphones, internet and webcams until she comes to beijing. so thankful for these technology...!
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taichi. i feel that this is something that bonds me and my mummy, as well as me and my classmates, together. after every lesson, i would talk to mummy, tell her the new stances we learnt, complain abt muscle ache, etc etc. sometimes i'll also ask her abt new recipes for some long ago dishes i remembered which she cooked. slowly slowly, i actually talked to her much more than when i was back in singapore. i liked this feeling very much. there wasnt much chances to talk to her then. im glad of this distance bcuz it seemed to bring us much closer together~ as for the bonding btw me n classmates, its cuz so many of us joined taichi tog. twenty or so? to gather at the park at 8+/9... and then practice in peace w laoshi... n then stay back to play chapteh. it was fantastic. chapteh brought back super nice memories of bedok south primary school. those carefree days of chapteh, five stones, hop scotch, and bullying! hahahaha (too bad, yr, wb, tb, ws! etc etc...) as well as after class cycling... and some bball, some catching... hanging out w all the EM3 pple... haha~ how did i manage such gd grades even after hanging arnd w those pple, i have no idea. chu wu ni er bu ran! LOL. even thou bsps is demolished, and there is no such school anymore, it has and always will exist in my heart. the cheap canteen food, the white n brown uniform, the trees w huge roots tt we played catchin on, the area next to the canteen that sells books once in a while, the little patch of concrete which we played hop scotch (and other girls play zero point), the huge car park which was utilized for flag raising, capt ball, hop scotch and a million other things, the foyer which i was scolded by parents when i was a prefect (cuz i tried to stop them from entering, grrr... in the end i quit. hehe), and art classes, where my teacher always give me black and white cuz she think its the best colour combi and i was her fav student, days when i keep comparing grades and hated by those who lost to me once again, days when i had to copy extra things to hang on the wall (compos, poems, both in eng n chi) cuz i scored too high... HAHA... oh man. the list goes on. i just keep smiling as i think about these things.
anyways. i just bought a new bball for 69yuan. haha china brand, but looks sturdy enough! went with yiroe n gang to buy. lookin forward to some good bball sessions w her n huizi n shuling =) i know i dont really Love bball alot these days. those good old days were back in dunman high, and can never be felt anymore. but still, playin with the right pple these days brings back good memories and feels shoik once in a while. ive always had this annoying mentality: winning is not important, as long as we enjoyed the game. this mentality has always been looked down by many, and only a rare few happen to hold this same mentality as me. shinwei, for one. and some of my bms classmates. the most recent example was the ISG against HSS, we played our game and nearly won, but tt was cuz we played w no stress, no will to win, and just the mentality to have fun. it was one of the best games played in a while.
.
in these five weeks, ive had alot of interaction with my classmates. good things, mostly. but also a few hitches. for one thing, hanging out w my flatmates, kaka n huiming, has become a routine. but i know for one thing i dont totally click with them, and its good tt we set up rules and stuff. i know im a possessive person. in dhs, when i have a best friend, the friend is Mine, and no one else's. i've learnt, albeit in a painful way, to forget about this stupid way of establishing friendship. jealousy is never the way to do things. nevertheless, thank you maggot. our friendship came a long way, way too many ups, and its fair share of downs.
ever since our friendship, i am kinda afraid of making very close friends. i have this thinking, that if u are not so close to me, u dont "belong" to me, so i am not afraid of losing you. HAHA. actually... this is like a relationship in the bgr sense. you dont commit, then the person is not yours, and you dont have to be scared of losing. but if u take that first step, u make the promise of a friendship, u will be afraid of losing it.
.
maybe this is the reason why i choose my friends so carefully. and i dont have many friends, accordin to my strict definition of a friend. err.. so what is the definition of a friend, to me?
--> a special person whom i can relax completely and joke about any thing when im around her/him, whom i can gossip to without being afraid that she/he would spill on me, whom i would feel upset and bad tempered if we end up in a misunderstanding, whom i would worry about if she/he falls sick or is in pain or is unhappy, whom i would feel jealous if she/he gets too close to another friend or into a relationship.<-- . something like this i guess. so far, only maggot fits this description. i know baobei is a very good friend to me, but in his case it is somewhat different. it differs frm the typical "friend" definition. LOL. . what im tryin to say was, i was kinda controlling myself with this natural sense of "jealousy". kaka was sorta considered my "best friend" in uni. when we are now in beijing, stayin w her n huiming, esp when huiming is her roomie, sometimes makes me feel isolated. even thou i act like i dont really care, i admit i do miss those days when only the two of us hang out together. not that huiming is not a nice person, but i havent really opened up to her yet. so its like, i still feel like a stranger to her. she is just not the kind of "friend" that i would open up to. maybe when u, whoever u are, are reading this, u might feel that im narrowminded, that im difficult to go along with, but this is the way i am. i know who i will be happy around, and i tend to hang around w those pple. other pple may be nice, they may be friendly, but they are just "not-my-type". . so... who are "my-type" so far? haha... in my bms class, sad to say, there are only a few pple who i like to hang out with. kaka, yiroe, huangfang, junie, brandon, huizi, roger, huimin. that should be about all?? yiroe, haha if ur reading this, u might think "how abt eileen?!" like what i say, "not-my-type". i dont really know how to elaborate.. partly cuz i also dunno who is reading this post. haiz. blogging is so tiring. i hope u guys dont mind me hanging out w u all. its a nice change once in a while. i always have the left-out feeling when im with my housemates. and that is also partly bcuz im isolating myself frm them sometimes. my weird mentality again. grr... . now tt im in a relatively good mood, i shall briefly mention abt the other day when i nearly Nearly lost my temper at a classmate. again, i dunno who might read this, but i shall say that whatever i say here is purely my own POV, and i do not mean to slander. whether u see my stand or not, i dont care. i just wanna vent my feelings here before it buries itself in a small and forgotten corner. as a class rep, she appeared to me as someone who is unwilling to change for the better. unwilling to make efforts to cooperate and work as a team instead of individually. she always think of things from her own POV, and save trouble for herself. it doesn matter to her if the class fxns suckier or everyone had to go thru more trouble. why is it that she was the only one out of four complaining. why is it that others can see that it was part of their duty to help out, and not her. if she wanna quit, let it be. if she wanna stay, please think more openly. i think i shall say till here. its a happy day n i dun wanna spoil it by thinkin abt that incident again. lets hope i can control my temper more and prevent similar incidents frm happening. thanks brandon, lucky u were there. if not i think i would say/do things i prob would regret right now. . happy things! went shoppin w huiming n kaka the other day, at xi dan. i super like that place! alot alot of things, the pple are more willing to talk abt prices, and we can feel the items (unlike at dong wu yuan!), and its not so crowded. n the stuff there are quite nice! bought so many many things! and only for abt sg$100 i totally feel that i bought sg$300 worth of things. things here are so cheap n so i get to try diff fashions which i was relatively reluctant to try back in sg. in a way its really an eye-opener in many ways for me. n we took neoprints! hehe felt so young again... shld take more often cuz its just SO fun! :D
the building we are staying in! looks posh doesnt it?! hehe its quite cosy, even thou it gave us quite some probs..
the first meal cooked entirely by me! by then we were sick of outside food and this tasted so homely and healthy! yum! im glad i did my homework before i came beijing!.
one of the nice meals i cooked when some friends came to visit! muahahaha~ i cooked everything except for the liang cai on the extreme left. we bought that frm carrefour =) the herbal chicken (yao cai ji) was yummy! and so was the dong gua soup~ hehe! mummy must be proud of me!.
shoppin trip at xi dan! everything for rmb500+ woohoo~!!! bags, clothes, fluffy shoes, books, neoprints, rings, posters.. u name it!.
my cute little froggie slippers to protect my feet frm the cold! the black dot in the middle is my ring-watch! its a ring and its a watch! (like DUH)..
and i bought this on impulse! haha dont it look CUTE?!?!?! bear paws! haha baobao can wear it nxt time when he come visit =) kaka says it looks super scary... hahahaa~.
from the first shopping trip to dong wu yuan! i TOTALLY love my polka-dotted jacket!!! YAY! the stuff on the floor to the left are all mine... huiming n i totally spread out our things on the floor! so shoik~ i spent rmb600+ that day~.
a random pict of kaka n i eating icecream =) icecream is only 1yuan here, ie sg20cents! wow! eat more eat more!.
house visiting on china's national day! yiroe n gang cooked nice nice food! got bakuteh! hehe~ always feel v happy when im w the gang, hope they dun mind my company too!.
my fav suan nai (yogurt)!!! super cheap, very healthy, and DAMN yummy! its definitely one of the things i would miss when i return to sg..
me, assembling an ikea chair all on my own. not as easy as it seems =( haha but paopei will grow to be a strong n independent little girl! GO GO GO!.
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a cute collage of my little boy eating a piggie mooncake! happy mooncake festival! piggie is cute but my little boy is way cuter than it! muackssss*.
^the Queen^
has never realised the importance of computers, handphones, internet and webcams until she comes to beijing. so thankful for these technology...!
Monday, October 05, 2009
