Saturday, August 8, 2009
♥ leaving...
each time i picture myself walking thru the airport doors, after that final hug, final goodbye, and then separated by those horrible glass panals...eventually to be separated by thousands of kilometers... i really cant help feeling miserable.
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i think.. jeff chang is still my fav singer. he's the one who i can relate to when im feelin the way im feelin nowadays. n i think that will be the feelin i will feel for the next two years.
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fyp is finally over. it had been a really fun, challenging, tiring, motivating, strengthening, and (unspeakable) experience for me. n i guess, for the other three too. i really have the seniors to thank. but no amt of thanks can make up for it. they've really been indispensable, each and every one of them.
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i love my little ferns. hope they'll continue to grow so prettily, and hope whatever research ive done really made a difference to those living in Bangladesh, really decreased the chances of arsenic toxicity...
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im totally an emo girl these days.
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it was horrible feeling sick for the last week of fyp. writing report at 3-5am with puffy swollen red eyes. for posters, adjusting the silly boxes to align them properly, only to decide to shift them all over again in less than ten minutes. preparing speech and reciting them to seniors, initially a little nervous, but gradually....becoming non-feeling.
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and now, just less than two days away frm hk... little baobao is sick. sigh. really hope he can get well enough to get thru the gate! pls pls pls dun reject us! i think i'll totally cry on the spot if we get stopped. i really need this holiday...
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i find myself thinking what would happen to me if i didnt go to beijing. apparently alot of my classmates thought so too, n they didnt see their future in that direction, and they quit. so...only slightly over 50 pple are still in it. i asked myself why am i still going..and my answer to myself was just: there's nothing else to do if i stay here.
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just go over there, learn to be independent, learn to cook, learn to be a good doc. just come back, take the exam, get married, and then decide what to do, either be a doc, or just..nua? haha~
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i miss mummy too. i hope she stays perfectly the same when i am gone...cant bear it if anything (choy!) happens to her... oh man. thinkin such stuff totally sucks.
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how how how how how can i survive without baobei.
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how how how can our love survive without all the warmth and affection found in day-to-day contact?! i hope nothing sad happens to us... we have to work very hard to keep things the same! neglect will definitely pull us apart... sigh.
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my thoughts r just super messy now, n i keep typing wrongly. pissed. next update...prob after hk? hmmm...
.
.
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^the Queen^
grrrrrrrrrr......
.
i think.. jeff chang is still my fav singer. he's the one who i can relate to when im feelin the way im feelin nowadays. n i think that will be the feelin i will feel for the next two years.
.
fyp is finally over. it had been a really fun, challenging, tiring, motivating, strengthening, and (unspeakable) experience for me. n i guess, for the other three too. i really have the seniors to thank. but no amt of thanks can make up for it. they've really been indispensable, each and every one of them.
.
i love my little ferns. hope they'll continue to grow so prettily, and hope whatever research ive done really made a difference to those living in Bangladesh, really decreased the chances of arsenic toxicity...
.
im totally an emo girl these days.
.
it was horrible feeling sick for the last week of fyp. writing report at 3-5am with puffy swollen red eyes. for posters, adjusting the silly boxes to align them properly, only to decide to shift them all over again in less than ten minutes. preparing speech and reciting them to seniors, initially a little nervous, but gradually....becoming non-feeling.
.
and now, just less than two days away frm hk... little baobao is sick. sigh. really hope he can get well enough to get thru the gate! pls pls pls dun reject us! i think i'll totally cry on the spot if we get stopped. i really need this holiday...
.
i find myself thinking what would happen to me if i didnt go to beijing. apparently alot of my classmates thought so too, n they didnt see their future in that direction, and they quit. so...only slightly over 50 pple are still in it. i asked myself why am i still going..and my answer to myself was just: there's nothing else to do if i stay here.
.
just go over there, learn to be independent, learn to cook, learn to be a good doc. just come back, take the exam, get married, and then decide what to do, either be a doc, or just..nua? haha~
.
i miss mummy too. i hope she stays perfectly the same when i am gone...cant bear it if anything (choy!) happens to her... oh man. thinkin such stuff totally sucks.
.
how how how how how can i survive without baobei.
.
how how how can our love survive without all the warmth and affection found in day-to-day contact?! i hope nothing sad happens to us... we have to work very hard to keep things the same! neglect will definitely pull us apart... sigh.
.
my thoughts r just super messy now, n i keep typing wrongly. pissed. next update...prob after hk? hmmm...
.
.
.
^the Queen^
grrrrrrrrrr......
Saturday, August 08, 2009
