Sunday, January 11, 2009
♥ i'll miss my roomie...
its like... 5am in the morning. lol. recently im kinda addicted to watching 射雕英雄传 starred by 张智零 and 朱英. really nice to see real fighting n not juz special effects without any real physical contact.
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anyways. im feelin kinda upset now.
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baobei has successfully finished his first week of intern! from what i heard, its pretty slack, surfing net n sleeping n reading a few texts on generally knowledge he gotta grasp in the next few months. one of his in-charges even advised him "don worry, go for ur break, no need so pia, its v relaxing one" HAHA. n he did come back to hall like...twice a wk? well even thou i dont see him that often nowadays, we still spend alot of time smsing n talkin on phone, so its not too bad i think.
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so... why feeling upset?
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since baobei's intern is at paya lebar, nicely situated since he can go frm home easily, no need wakie so early... tt means he wont come back hall so often. tt means its kinda costly to afford a single room for stayin twice/thrice a wk. tt means... he prob need to 退房.
for some time i thought it over.
if wan save money, only two choices.
- like he said, 退 his 房 lo.
- rent out my room.
sadly, after much thinking, i've decided on the latter. n im so so reluctant. i told jingsian abt my decision over an sms last night, n she immediately called me, "为什么你不要面对面跟我谈这件事?不要啦... 有什么问题我们可以解决嘛..." n i felt so sad... after being roomies for a semester, ive grown to like her immensely, n we had many heart to heart talks. she also said its rare for her to have close singaporeans frens cuz m'sians n singaporeans tend to form diff cliques. i totally agree. even though we dont spend time (not at all, actually... and sadly) outside our room, the time spent inside had been most memorable... the funny pact we had to keep to a healthy lifestyle (which i lost, terribly), the gossips we shared abt our past n present relationships, the interesting debates held regarding our majors (aka tcm n psychology), and so much more. but... the other option... that is, to let baobei 退房 instead... has so much more disadvantages... and im so sorry.. that this involves a choice btw u n him...
i know u said u dont mind him staying over at night sometimes, like i dun mind ur bf stayin over sometimes... but... i know how we behave at times, n to have a private room is definitely more preferable to tt, for ur good as well. i know, bcuz (and im sorry) tt fuichin had to suffer this when we were more ignorant then. i know how miserable she felt, n ive always felt guilty abt it ever since we went our separate ways. i definitely dowan history to repeat itself. besides, if baobei keeps his room, he can still have all his frens (n they're my frens too) arnd at the same level, where he still needs them for next yr... for OC, for takraw, for soccer, for DOTA, for mj, for guitar hero, n for a million other things. sorry jingsian.. im sorry im so selfish... i told u last sem, abt the possibility, but i nvr thought it would bcum a reality. n now tt it has... im sorry for my choice.
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i wont promise we would keep in touch often (but we'll try!), cuz like my past frenships, no matter how good they are, i always fail to keep regular contact. but u'll still be the nicest m'sian i've known, heck, one of the nicest pple i've known... lets hope our dreams* will b realised one day in the near future, n maybe we will get to congratulate each other then! :)
oh man. its juz a block away... i can always go visit you!
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^the Queen^
its a hard choice.
Sunday, January 11, 2009