Be Here for Good things!! Good things always happen to Happy People!

belated new year resolutions

2012-01-11T14:42:00.002+08:00

sudden feel to blog.

work has started, into the second week now. i should be exhilarated about it. yet i had to zoom into certain little details that made me unhappy. after the happy happy weekend @henderson waves, mount faber, baogong, mad for garlic, stayovers, i found out that not thinking or complaining about them made me extremely "free" and happy! so i chose to ignore everything after i made the call :):) such a good choice! mr baogong laughed at me when i said i had to go kuanyin there n talk about some 小人. hahaha~ being around him makes me feel so at home~

as of now, i feel like i have a need to list down some personal resolutions for the next few years~

多听,少说
give myself three years to decide if i can survive on this job, not less, unless something drastic happens
read as many as possible
acquire the skill to concentrate on whatever i am doing despite disturbances/conversations going on around me
temper control
拥有一颗谦卑好学的心

^the Doc^
time is not the factor, I am.

3 more days to 赵和庆中医诊所!

2011-12-29T04:11:00.001+08:00

It would be nice to record down 我现在的心情.. Three more days to opening of the clinic!! Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y~~~ two months of 无所事事, two months of 忐忑不安, two months of 痴痴等待, two months of 欣喜若狂！

As of now, everything is almost in its rightful place. The beds, the trolleys, the needles, the vacuum 罐s, the 神灯s, the desks, the chairs, the computers, the CCTV, the herbs, the sofas, the certs, the drawings, the printers, the wifi... N the main door is fixed, the "curtains" r up, the adverts r stuck (with much pain n trouble) on the windows facing the road, the computers r linked, the metal bottles r cleaned n filled to the brim w cotton pads, the exposed wires r covered, and......I cannot rem alrdy. Whatever it is, it's part of the fun n part of the suffering.. N it's so much of what I have been expecting for the past two months!

Thinking of how far I've come, actually I haven't gone v far to deserve this. Really count my blessings (considering I've had extremely few blessings back in bj). For the fact tt I met the one special teacher in 东方医院. For the fact tt I met the one fated teacher in NTU. Maybe I'm not the smartest kid around, but I know I have the passion for this. Thanks mr zhao, for recognizing my passion n efforts, for granting me this chance in life, n for letting my dream come true so fast! It's kinda hard to imagine this possible just months back :):) now I gotta keep my dream burning. N also to dream my way to another bigger dream! Of cos, reality is required to fulfill dreams, I know that. I will not lose hold of myself, n will constantly remind myself of the absolute need to improve. "No doc can be the best. Just be the best doc that you could." -Me.

^the Doc^
there'r life skills to be learnt all along the way. take everything in!

梦想、爱情、期待

2011-12-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

2011年12月18日

我想从这一天开始，做个认真、负责任的医生。每一天不管多累，都不能睡超过中午，做好医生的榜样。每一天不管多繁忙，都必须抽出1小时认真看书，活到老就应学到老。这一切是我想做的事，这条路是我想要的人生，我必须严肃的对待把健康交到我手上的每一个病人。

我会成为一个好医生。我，不一定会出名，但至少不会愧疚。而即将成为＂好医生＂的我，现在踏出拿到执照后的第一步！有些慢，但这两个月不是白费的。它是我从学生变医生的一段难忘过程，往后的我将回味这段无忧无虑的时光，没有责任，没有遗憾，没有金钱，没有奢望。

沉醉在梦想、爱情、期待之中，是时间为三者勤奋用心的时候了，不能光靠说话！加油，郑医师！你不再是＂未来的郑医师＂，而是很实在地存在着！发出光芒吧！

^the Doc^
P.S. I'm happy for u, Cliffy! :):)

我的小国，我的监狱。

2011-12-01T02:20:00.001+08:00

＂这是我的小国，有着我的回忆，我的灿烂，我的光芒。
亦是我的监狱，有着我的过去，我的失败，我的黑暗。
既为往事，已成故事，不堪回首，迈向曙光！＂
- my thoughts after washing my bicycle n cycling around bedok, upon the familiar path which I circled umpteen times when I was still a little child.

^the Doc^
I'm going to get my cert v v v soon!
P.S. 我的名片 ready 啦！^-^

心得

2011-11-20T22:03:00.001+08:00

Watching 败犬女王 is making a positive impact on my life! Dramas can make a difference to lives too :)

它让我明白爱在生命中真的很重要，而且除了爱，还要有梦想，要有实际的努力，不断的付出！尤其是卢卡斯还是个有上进心，杰出的医生，我想努力，像他一样用那颗排除万难也要解救病人的心，去造福人群 :):) 我也要努力赚钱，和宝贝向共同目标前进，为理想中的未来而奋斗！加油！加油！加油！

Mummy is coming home tml! I miss mummy :):) (not the nagging) but her presence livens up the hse, everythg feels kinda dead without her arnd.. Hmm..

Had a fantastic slacking weekend w Bb :D didn't do much, nua-ed @his place ydae, ate gigantic 2kg crabs (Jenny ah yee won $$!), played Resident Evil 5 (alot of running arnd, trying to find bullets n Siam-ing monsters but keep getting killed), watched a dc-recommended movie (which sucked n made us sleepy), slept in late @my place, finally ate duck rice, n wandered to ecp (which he kept complaining v hot n tiring -.-"), n then I went home while he's at a friend's wedding, n I changed the arrangement of my room! Sometimes I wish everythg would fall in place on their own! Wahaha den I no nd to 打扫! Woo~

^the Doc^
我真的很幸福！

Mundane life~

2011-11-18T01:26:00.001+08:00

Why do I feel like we were drawn closer together by Vietnam n drawn further apart by our daily lifestyle? When you get off work, we have dinner, go home (maybe alone, maybe tog to ur home or my home), watch a little tv, squabble a little, and then sleep. Ur tired after work, n I would soon be too, when I start working myself. How can we look forward to life after work?? We need more time to ourselves.. To cuddle, chit-chat, understand, relax. 找回热血奔放的感觉！oh yeah! Haha..

Looking forward to having a bikey of our own, thou it will be v long later, n u gotta be extra careful n extra slow! We can earn more personal time tog in that way :):) love u loads!

^the Doc^
或许尴尬的情感也有过去的一天，就或许罢了。

卢卡斯+单无双

2011-11-17T04:21:00.001+08:00

Ok I dunno why but I totally L-O-V-E 败犬女王, watching it for the second time n still crying loads at all the sweet n sad scenes like I did the first round. 卢卡斯 is so damn cute with his small twinkling eyes n cheeky little smile, haha reminds me of my own little darling boy! N 单无双, I'm a little bit like her, strong-headed n dumb, but she's alot more extreme (n prettier, of cos! haha).. Love the way they interact, love how 帅 the 学长 was too! Haha I only think 韩佳佳 sucks to the core. All the other characters rock max!

Fight for happiness! Money n 条件 really don't mean everything. Cars are incomparable to motorbikes wrt to the degree of closeness they confer. Missing the biking in vietnam! So much fun n so much laughter!! Happiness, warmth, love, care, understanding, forgiveness, thoughtfulness.. These are the most crucial for a lasting relationship. Certain factors may matter at one point in time (eg. age, height, race, background), but if everything else seems right, then just go for it. Don't live to regret what you don't dare to fight for.

My simple thoughts at 4:15am in the morning. I paused my show to type this :D

^the Doc^
如果你说爱我没有如果，真的爱我就放手一搏，还想什么还怕什么，快牵起我的手。

补：＂８横过来看也是无限大啊，为什么你只看到我们八岁的差距，而不是我们之间无限大的可能？＂ LOL 太经典了，赞！different perspectives can lead to utterly different outcomes :) look on the bright side of life!!!

Ha-noi-noi-noi~~~

2011-11-15T00:06:00.001+08:00

Over the past six days, we've eaten Pho, gotten splashed with hundreds of drops of oil while eating our best meal of the trip, navigated through the maze of motorbikes on our own, sat n slept on a junk boat, seen hundreds of rocks, climbed through a karst, kayaked n had huge boats honk at us, "sampan"ed though a floating village, seen two sunsets n one sunrise, got conned a few times, sat on the most horrible train ride of my life, had another train crash into our train (omfg!), experienced two blackouts on two different train rides, rode on a motorbike without a license, frozen almost to death with teeth clattering n body shivering, had a tyre puncture halfway up a hill, gotten pillioned by a vietnamese, pee-ed amongst bushes, nearly ran over a stupid rooster, had a leg massage, stumbled among paddy fields, slipped on rocks and rescued by helpful locals, slapped the ass of a buffalo, hugged several foreigners, walked thru the capital at 5am when it was free of people n bikes, laosai-ed w only one pc of tissue (and plenty of water!), and came back to sweet Singapore (sunburnt, body ached, bad breath) but with memories of the most awesome trip w my handsome little boy out of our five long years :):) last but not least... HAPPY 61st FIFTEEN!!!

P.S. I passed!!!

^the Doc^
Filled with tiredness n happiness!

First morning in ha-noi-noi-noi~

2011-11-10T08:27:00.001+08:00

It's 7:15am in hanoi, Vietnam, and 8:15am Singapore time.. Time to wakie wakie!! I set the alarm wrongly and I woke up at 5am instead -.-" had a pretty good sleep, weather has been kind so far, the food was awesome! Had some Pho (pronounced as fur) in the late aftn, hovered arnd, watched the water puppet show (nearly didn't have enough tix for us!), walked along a supposed shopping area but was kinda disappointed by the shopping items, walked back to centralized parts n ate the sizzling DIY hotplate of beef n several veggies.. The beef was quite the highlight of the day, super yummy, super oily, super painful! Haha painful when the sizzling oil splashes onto body parts, n it was unbelievable --- the layer of oil on our exposed body parts, bags, specs... Sigh.

Struck by the messiness of roads n overflow of motorbikes. Haha Bb is fascinated by their helmets, which resemble caps :D kinda tempted to buy a pair back for fun :):) the honking here was worse, much much worse than in bj, but maybe I was kinda trained, so was a little immune to it. Traffic was extremely dangerous though. Weave in weave out.. Plenty of excitement!

Oh ya, we had fun trying to pronounce all the Vietnam words! Wahaha~

Fat boy! Time to wakie n go for our Halong bay trip!! *smacks the fat ass*

^the Doc^
hopes the breakie is GOOD! yums*

Photoshoot, housewarming, interns, Malaysia!

2011-10-31T00:44:00.001+08:00

Finally I've got time to sit down n blog! Kinda busy n lazy recently.. Haha n lotsa eventful days too~ today was the long awaited photoshoot for my grad! Think I really looked pretty! Had some temporary curls n they looked fantastic, but wasn't used to them initially. Thanks to everyone who took time out to take these special shots w me. Mummy, Korkor, Dasao, Dajie, Jiefu, Erjie, Julian, Justin, Jiawei, Jiawen, n not forgetting Baobei darling! Happy tt we took one shot on our own, just the two of us!! Lalala~ it's like a prelude to wedding photos! Hehehe.. Muack*

Ydae was v fun too! It was cliffininny's housewarming @yishun, n I totally lost my way twice to get there -.-""" haha but it was well worth the effort, for it was long since I last had such a heartwarming session with them :) citadel was the highlight, n we had so much fun taking turns to be the assassin, thief, magician, king, merchant, bishop, architect (weekim!), warlord, queen! Hahaha the queen is totally "kio-sai" one :):) n I happily earned extra 5 gold qt a few times thanks to weekim! Haha serene is qt gd at the game, followed by weekim :) happy tt I won the last round! Woo~ oh, n cliffy, jr, van asked me to prescribe med for them! Happy that they trust me enough to let me help them out, whether or not they eat the med is another issue le lo~ haha :D reached home at 4:30am, I actually made small conversation w winghang! Another improvement ba~ really a special night out.

Interns were pretty good, love to hang arnd baogong, he actually let me crack his neck (other than doing a back massage) for him! Omg. N bcos of him, I've gain confidence tt I haven't been able to gain over this small part of tuina. Thank you! I really appreciated this. n after this, I've cracked Bb, jr, van's necks! Cool!!! Really speechless over this improvement of mine! Zhq was alright too, shocked when he told me he printed Twenty Boxes (ie. 2000 pcs) of name cards for me!! Wtf... Hahaha.. N with slight eng error wrt directions! Haha nvm abt that :) he's a great guy too! No matter what his underlying reason/motive may be for hiring me, I'm still immensely grateful to him for taking me in :):) let me enjoy these last few wks, n I'll really start proper reading up. I know u have great expectations in me, I have them in myself too. I'll buck up once my mood sets in! Yeah!

Tml...... I'll be taking a coach (via Groupon) to KL..... Alone! Hahaha I also dunno y I have the courage to do this, but im quite thrilled over this! :):) day 1 KL, day 2 malacca, day 3 KL, day 4 Genting, day 5 back home! Sounds hurried, but I know it will be a fun trip, irregardless of the activities. Muhtyng is a good n reliable friend, I absolutely trust her n this trip will rock! Woo~~~ tik tor tik tor! I'm coming to distrb u!! Hehe~

Looking forward to Hanoi, Sapa, Halong bay @ Vietnam after I come back frm Malaysia!

^the Doc^
happiness!

Dont lie.

2011-10-22T22:08:00.001+08:00

I know I've disappeared for many days.. Haha.. (okay. A few days. Lol.) so tired!! Just been to jb w sw! Super fun!! Good buys, good food, happy day out :):) besties forever!! Nobody but you!! Hug*

Went to baogong aka qdx's clinic @marsiling ydae.. Regretted on the way there (cuz damn far) but not one bit of regret remained once I got there! He's such a wonderful mentor tt I have to be honest w him. Thanks for being so open n outright! :):) n thanks for appreciating me too! Wish I could split into two n follow u as well :(

I'm glad I found it hard to lie to ppl. As always. Maybe my lack of lying skills made friends arnd me pissed, but I dun see the point of lying to get into ppl's gd books. Lame. 要做自己，补药为别人而活。

^the Doc^
Desperately in nd of a good slp :(

fb depression n fb humour :D

2011-10-20T02:04:00.001+08:00

I wish I could lay down beside you, when the day is done. And wake up to your face, against the morning sun. But like everything I've ever known you'll disappear one day, so I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away.
- Adele.

A friend posted it on fb n I copied it down. What a depressing point of view! Strong feelings surged through me.. Why has people learnt to be so pessimistic? I feel sorry for those who hid their hearts in fear of losing their loved ones, for if u never hold out your hand, whatever you want can NEVER be yours.

On the other hand, another photo I found on fb had me LOL-ing to myself! Posted on my blog, n dedicated to my poor little fat boy who usually gets 1/3 of the bed n none of the blankies at night! Muack* thanks for the sacrifice!!

^the Doc^
first day tml @zhq bedok clinic! *takes in a deep breathe n eats more M&Ms*

Squishy Squashy Fun!

2011-10-19T03:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to DaTou! We really had SO much fun today I don't think I can slp w.o blogging abt it :):) here it goes!

I walked a great deal before meeting up w her, to tamp to get the cake n lunch n a small lighter (I debated calling her up to bring a lighter for her own cake but decided against it! haha!), frm marymount mrt to find the 852 bus stop, only to decide tt I might as well walk one more stop to Mac ritchie itself (climbing three overhead bridges on the way -.-") n then I finally met DaTou!

Happily walked to the area where I had happy memories during a few of the focs.. Sat dwn, took out the cake, only to realize the person frigging forgot to give me the candle!!! Damn A.T.! In the end she blew the flame frm the lighter! Wahaha! First epic scene, super cute :)

Chatted non-stop, nvr look where we our going, insisted tt we 随缘! End up walk extra dunno how many km before we found a sign tt wrote "Tree-top walk" n finally had a destination in mind. Saw grey monkeys, cute mushrooms, n many greenery, sweated n got sticky sticky, but mostly we talked abt tcm n our futures! It's been long since we last chatted like this! (the last one shld b the trip frm power Nasi!) Drizzled a little, n finally we got there! Den DaTou decided she had Nvr been there before -.-""" two Malays walked in front of us, n then they saw us n yelled at us to hurry! Cuz they gg to close the trail!! :(:( haha so difficult finally got there n we had to hurry thru the road :(:( glad she loved e scenery n breeze there!

Once we got off, weather started getting ugly, took out my pathetic little umbrella, n squeezed the two fat us under it. Shoulder started getting wet, avoided the little puddles of water, got amazed at those ppl running past us in the rain, n then started to wonder if we're going the wrong way, back got wet, puddles turned into pools tt are unavoidable, vision got blurred by the rain, everything was brown/green, HAHA! at our sorry plight, had to hook arms to try nt getting our faces slapped by the rain, trudged on, pools became rivers, shoes were entirely soaked thru, bras got wet, water started dripping dwn ass-cracks, got worried if we could get out before nightfall, stopped some runner to ask if we're nearing the exit but he said not really (!!!) but we got out somehow! Asked a car for directions n the uncle offered to give us a lift out! So touched but no, we didn't wanna wet his car (he said NVM!!!, but still.). Another one honked at us n asked us the same thg. SUPER NICE singaporeans!! Hug!!! N then EPIC really started.

No more tree shelter, rain got bigger, along the concrete pathway we laughed at how dumb we would seem to passers-by, n how futile my little umbrella seemed to be. Some emo runner walked a little away frm us n we decided to overtake him! Ran abit n overtook him, n then my umbrella overturned!! We screamed n he stared at us!!! Omg omg omg. I was damn stun n DaTou couldn't stop laughing!! Jibei I couldn't flip it back on my own!! Haha den I made her stop laughing n help me!! Hehehe.. Den I started singing the Birthday Song for her n momentarily removed e umbrella! So funny!!! Should have taken a shot of tt look! SO EPIC!!! :D :D she did tt again at the end of the song, n then I did a third time (by making her look up at the sky for dark clouds!! wahaha~ 好好骗哦!!) tasted salty rain as we laughed our hearts out :) hahaha I wondered if my umbrella did make a difference to our degree of wetness?!!

Finally, rain stopped, felt sucky n wetty n wanna go home, but we ate prata somewhere nearby first (thanks DaTou, u managed to make us stop one bus stop early n we had to walk summore! *smack!). Sat dwn like FINALLY, den started laughing again.. Took a look at ourselves n I found tt I had One dry spot, where I hugged my bag to my front! Rest of me was wet max, down to the core! DaTou's turn, n she had NO dry spot! Super hilarious :):)

On the way home it was cold n I shivered plenty but I guess it was well worth it. The last time I had sucha crazy trip was w e dhs bballers at pasir ris park! We purposely cycled in the rain n even slid down slides to fall into the puddle of mud below, n then bathe in the mud water! Hahaha that was also epic! :):) 人生怎能没疯过?!

Bathed, n then proceeded to bb's hse, n I did acup for papa! Haha the papa who nvr asked me for opinions before, had leg pain! Upon checking, 水肿! He was real scared, haha n I convinced him tt needles once in a while can definitely help out :D n then mummy's routine dosage for her 正中神经受压, n bb's little 酸 knee (he yelled plenty! unlike brave papa n mama! pui!) 落网之鱼: baobei's korkor! who also got a sprained ankle weeks back, now nt pain but only abit 肿, refused to let me poke. Hehehe u shld haf seen his face when he came home to find all his family members immobilized by my needles :D

Had a superb day :) thanks DaTou for being such a special friend of mine :) paiseh for the cui card, u know I'm always tt lazy :X hehe~ love u loads!

*looking fwd to jb trip w maggot!*

^the Doc^
lemony legs!!!

新起点！

2011-10-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

我的人生的正规学习生涯告了一个段落，是另一个旅程的新起点。梦想，它真的成真了！难以形容心中的喜悦。真的即将有一个大诊室（3-8个小的针灸室），有写着我名子的门牌与名片，穿着潇洒的白大褂，正坐在医师的位子上，做我期待了许久的工作，而且还有欣赏我的老师支持、撑腰。

我第一个想告诉的人：张继胜老师。张老师，我的梦想终于实现了，比我想相中还快！真的好想你，好想亲自和你说谢谢，好想像从前那样聊天 :(

这条路，我的这条路，真的好辛苦。无数的挫折，让我在两年余之内流过太多太多的泪水。有些东西，太容易得到，不懂得珍惜，但这次绝对珍惜！这是我努力而得的收成，虽然月薪不高，但我满足了。这样也就够了。

今天，庆祝宝宝和我的五周年@虎豹别墅！谢谢你陪我走过风风雨雨，从没放手过。我们独一无二的爱情，是我毕生的骄傲。你，是我的骄傲。I LOVE U!!!!! <3 <3 <3

^the Doc^
confirmed.

To-do-list for post-STRE

2011-10-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

After I finish exams n hopefully get the job.. Here are the following things I wanna do!

• make new frameless specs
• go holiday with Bb
• get an eyebrow job
• do my hair w e groupon
• do face mask once a wk
• study really hard for both tcm n western med side
• read-up on 骨伤 n all the anatomy stuff
• do as many 义诊 as I can
• treat myself n my family so tt we become healthier
• appreciate life as it is and dun ask for too much :)

Please, just pass me for all the papers!! :(:(

^the Doc^
ZHQ agreed to consider giving off-days during wkend :):) don't let me disappoint him!!

Squashed papaya :(

2011-10-12T18:39:00.001+08:00

No more yaya papaya.. Squashed papaya now :(

Y does the rain feel so sorrowful today when I walked back in it? More than half the STREss gone, replaced by a wholesome feeling of Dread :(

All I hope is kuanyin's prediction is true n I can safely pass. If not I can say bye-bye to my little clinic dream alrdy T.T

^the Doc^
being doc no easy :(

Paper One, circle line cui.

2011-10-12T01:12:00.001+08:00

Day two of the battle, n I alrdy feel exhausted. Haha I think I'm really getting abit old :( I used to b able to b fine w weird body clock cycles switching to exam clock in 1-2 days, but I couldn't slp till 430am ydae (the usual time I slp these days). Plus circle line freaked me out by stopping at taiseng for >10min cuz of train fault. How suay can? I got out at 8:10 n took cab dwn, just nice 8:30 haha~ not gonna take circle line for exam anymore. Pui. EW n NS line safer.. :D

Exam was "cool" n "easily" (yaya papaya!) hehehe! can't believe some of the older ppl taking w us said "还好，勉强过得去", paper one easiest alrdy say this, cfm cui for 3 n 5. they prob dun really 重视 this exam, or studied v hard for it. Lol. Still, it was a real funny sight seeing so many 老一辈的人 taking exams w little young boys n girls like us! Haha shld take a photo if possible :)

I'm gonna miss my coursemates.. Tml will b the very last time I'm gonna sit in an exam hall like tt w them le. Five long yrs. No more joking arnd, Aish-ing, smacking butt, complaining, gossiping.. Even thou I haf not grown extreme extremely close to any one of them, I know I'll still treasure their friendship :) hope we haf more meet-ups after we all start work, lets not forget each other yea?

^the Doc^
Paper One dwn. By end of tml, it's > half the STREss gone!! Woo~!!!

Sharing my thanks~

2011-10-11T01:51:00.001+08:00

At the end of this phase of my life, I have a few pple to thank.

Firstly, to my beloved boyfriend Jeffrey, for showing me undying love n support, for sharing with me all the big n little surprises tt life had in stock for me these five yrs, whether good or bad. And for waiting patiently for me to be back by his side for good :) I <3 u many many!

Secondly, to 张继胜老师, for he was the one who truly inspired me to walk down this path, to look beyond the textbook n 学以致用, n also put his unfaltering faith in me. His 碎碎念 rings through my head almost every day, even after we parted a few mths back. I'm immensely thankful tt I met him. 一日为师，终生为徒, whenever there is a chance I will be back to visit him, n hopefully tell him tt his effort on me has not gone down the drain, tt his 口水不是白费的!

Thirdly to mummy, for investing all her love n money on me, for enduring my mood swings n weird habits, n now, for daring to be my guinea pig n promoting me to ur friends! I know I wont disappoint u :) u'll enjoy first class treatment any day, any time!

And then to my coursemates who endured the days with me, to Huang Fang (aka bighead), to Yi-Roe (aka gf), n the rest of the pigs (Jamie, Anna, Kailing, Jo), for all the happy foods n happy outings, on top of happy/boring intern sessions. N even to my ex-hsemates, for at least we had enough fate to share one splendid yr of extreme happenings tog, besides all the other shit u guys put me through in the following yr. At least I can say I've properly grown up now.

To Niki for sharing all the ups n downs in our traumatic little house (haha!), n for imparting me priceless skills to make myself prettier! (despite having to wake up several times to help u open door) hehehe~

To Daryl, for making the very last bit of Beijing life the way it should have been for the entire two yrs, if nt for the fact tt I was broke, homesick, n.....reluctant. U made me leave bj with no regrets! 10Q~

As for now, I shld just slp cuz today (it's past midnight) is my first exam paper n I just couldn't slp -.-" which happens qt often so I'm not surprised. Lol~ I've got a gd feeling for the nxt one wk! So happy!

^the Doc^
11th Oct 2011

A real Clinic!

2011-10-09T23:53:00.001+08:00

Okay this is exclusive firsthand news!! I am REALLY going to be a doc!!! Omg omg omg *hyperventilates* hahaha...

Earlier today, 赵和庆 laoshi called up, he asked if I would b free for dinner on the very last day of stre, ie. coming sun after our papers... He n his wife, a friend of his, Candice n I.. Apparently he is gonna open a clinic in Chinatown n his friend in Ang Mo Kio, n they're gonna choose one each. Is not even a "maybe" thing, it's a "for-sure" thing!! *gasp* even thou I haven't heard ^the terms yet, the offer made my heart thump faster! I'm so happy!! :D :D

Downside --- he said the person following him would hafta work on wkends........
Me: Ok ma, morn till 11am only.
Him: Nope, full days for wkends, rest on Monday.
Me: *speechless*
Him: How? Interested?
Me: I thought ur own clinic open half days on wkends?
Him: Ya mine does. Chinatown busy ma, would expect more crowd on wkends.
Me: Err, the Ang Mo Kio also full days on wkends??
Him: That one I dunno, not my clinic! Haha will be tough, how?
Me: Err, Aiya! Exam over den say! Lol~

Haiz, wkends are my precious moments w Bb! I can't survive w both wkends taken away! No matter how much I may love or hate my job :( I will try to ask for both wkends half day, or one full day one off. The very minimum I can accept is one full day n the other half, rest on other days. I won't gif up my bf for a job, never. Besides, haven discussed terms yet. Salary, commission, off days, cpf, public holidays.. Haha.. Hopefully got 2.3k! The more the better :D :D We'll just see first beh. But but...... Heart very itchy! Really hope the terms r gd enough for me to take it up!

One last day to the start of stre! Just feel v excited :):) I know I'll do well! Go! Go! Go! Woohoo~~~

^the Doc^
may have a Real clinic soon!!!

The third apple that changed the world.

2011-10-09T04:57:00.001+08:00

I know this may seem silly, but at near 5am in the morning, suddenly I feel extra sad for the loss of steve jobs. He was in no way directly linked to me; yet he was the reason why I'm still blogging away after my blog became stagnant for 1+yr, he was also the reason why I can stay connected to many of my friends thru fb cuz I dislike using my comp, he was also the man whose inventions brought convenience n happiness to many lives cuz of all the apps tt arose because of iPhone. N that was just the iPhone part (cuz I have one, n I'm gonna buy iPhone 4S once I get my first salary), iPad iPod etc made many of my friends exhilarated too.

It's mean of ppl to say "why mourn the death of a businessman? it's none of ur business" cuz he changed our lifestyle in such an extraordinary way. Ppl alrdy forgot what it used to be like without an iPhone. It was only......nokia? Haha... Feels ridiculously far away, those days :)

4S looks really cool to me, nevermind what all the critics may say, n even thou not many improvements were made to iPhone 4, I alrdy loved it as it is, any additions would just be a bonus :) sleek, fast, lovely photos, cool apps! Can't wait to earn my first pay! Yeah!

^the Doc^
Behold the half-eaten apple of steve jobs~

Subconscious STREss

2011-10-09T01:26:00.001+08:00

I cannot describe how much I love it when it rains!! <3 <3 <3 haha feel so cleansed n happy :D esp when it rains at night.. Yums!

Temper has been extremely short for the past three or so days.. I dun really feel the stress, but maybe subconsciously I am? I keep realizing what I said n did after I've said n done them.. Although I still find myself justified for feeling tt way, but I shld haf been less harsh. "Exam only wat, big fuck ar?" would b the exact words someone shld tell me in my face. Hahaha.. But I feel tt I cfm can pass alrdy, just trying to increase confidence level now, tts all :)

Poor little baobao kena called up for army thgie, it's now raining n he's stuck in some multi-storey carpark dunno for what.. Haha.. Hope he stays warm n dun fall sick! No fifa for u la! Keep fifa-ing.. U supp to be suffering frm paopei deficiency!! Hmpf*

^the Doc^
going to b a real Doc in...less than one wk's time! woohoo~!!!

Im not useless.

2011-10-07T07:01:00.001+08:00

My day is screwed up n now I've no mood to study anymore. Why must u always say this kinda thgs n make me feel so useless. Why must I appear like I'm begging u when u could have made it easier? It's not as if it's within my means to do whatever u want at this point in time. Stop looking down on me n up on others, ur attitude fucking pisses me off.

Just leave me alone.

Whatever.

Some bummer who can't make big money in the future anyway --- in your POV.

Hungry-Gian-What?

2011-10-07T02:44:00.001+08:00

Suddenly just feel like blogging down the top ten sg food tt comes to me in the middle of the night (like Now) n makes me drool~ sob sob.. Hungries!

Tonight, in order of gian-ness:
1. 58 mee rebus
2. tiantian chicken rice
3. opp tj fishball noodles
4. xo beehoon
5. ecp wanton mee
6. E.A.T bachormee
7. nie bachormee
8. Lailai wanton mee
9. Power Nasi
10. opp tj duck rice

Okay. I just woke up n feeling happy but hungry :( sianzzz.. 2:40 now, nd to wait 5+ hrs more to mee rebus/ fishball noodles!! Grrr...

^the (hungry) Doc^
Counting down Five Days~

The one "plain" guy I have :)

2011-10-06T02:19:00.001+08:00

I saw this photo on fb earlier today, n it struck a chord in my heart. (shit, been fb-ing so much these days, like avrg 1.5hrs a day! zzz...) ok back to the photo.. It's like recently, cuz of boredom, I've kinda been youtubing mtvs on leehom n other cute guys, n of cos will drool abit, wondering how lucky it would be to haf such a drool-able bf.. Hahaha..

But in reality, will their gfs say the same? With all the paparazzi, his busy schedules, with a million other girls screaming I Love You to him every day, with many of those girls possibly a hundred times prettier than her, all out to steal his heart..... Of course I'm just staging an example, other seemingly attractive men have their own flaws as well.

But thru fate, u meet that one guy who bothers to text/call u everyday, who tells u I Miss You, I Love You, who thinks about u and wonders what u r doing at some point of time each day, who shares w u the little bits n pcs of life tt may seem so mundane, who holds ur hand when ur having cramps or feeling feverish, who helps u out w smartphones when ur not smart enough to handle them, who let u bite/smack them when ur PMS-ing, who plans surprises n presies for u even if they nd not b extremely surprising or expensive, who draws little/big cards with their boyish handwriting n knows u will laugh at his grammatical/spelling errors (ok I'm making this too personal, LOL!).... U get what I mean. Would u really give up this guy? I wouldn't, for the world, simply because, he has become my world :)

No one is perfect, definitely not me. N he chose me, above all other girls, for similar reasons y I chose him. N I'm thankful for tt, n I love life as it is now :D just hope for a gd job, gd health, happy family :):) 人生中最单纯的幸福，这样就好！

^the Doc^
what matters most in life is ur perspective, live to love, n love to live!

太美的回忆像副手铐

2011-10-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

＂散场的拥抱混乱的心跳
我宁愿只是争吵还能道歉就好
我知道太美的回忆像副手铐
越是挣脱越缠绕我比你明了＂
﹣倪安东

Omg he is like so Freaking 帅. I'm sure every girl who watches the MTV totally *shakes head* at y she wanna 散场的拥抱 w him over that guy!! Totally jealous!! Hehe.. But he acts really well....esp all the sad n crying scenes....alot of effort :):)

太美的回忆像副手铐..... My fav line out of the whole song :) 或许很多人不敢放胆去爱，不但是因为怕分手时太心碎，而也是怕创造太美的回忆，散场后还经常回味，放不开，走不了人生的下一步，回忆像副手铐，紧紧，紧紧地缠绕.......

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Mock exam 3 for me today! Happy.. First time paper three got >80! it's like a boost of confidence for me :) frm mock 1 (fail) -> mock 2 (71), it's like the only right thg tt happened today. Cuz nthg else went right :( shall nt blog abt all the sian stuff... Just hope this day ends nicely!

^the Doc^
C'mon stre, I'm ready to tackle u!

P.S.
Ain't hotdog cute?? :D :D

First step in our life together!

2011-10-04T03:15:00.001+08:00

:) today, as we walked by jewellery shops in tm, Bb n I actually went in n asked abt proposal rings n wedding rings! Bleh. I also dunno y I suddenly okay w looking w him, y suddenly got mood n even took up some of the pretty ones n tried them on... !!!!!!!!!

It's gonna b a reality soon! Omg. Haha.. Getting married....the first out of many many steps in our life together! Really excited abt this, I'm sure we'll be able to create a happy n comfortable family in years to come, totally looking forward to that! Haha I cannot understand y some of my frens would put relationships aside for issues like study n work; this is about ur life n happiness! There's nthg more impt than this! Miss the chance, n u can have all the wealth n fame u want, but have them just to urself, with no one to share the joy with. What kinda joy is that?

As days to stre are counting down, I find myself all relaxed n happy; it's all gonna b over soon! The finale to these five life-changing years! N I'm prepared to take it, the sooner the better! Sure hope I pick good qns! Nd not b v easy, but shld b qns I've studied for :):)

^the Doc^
a fortnight to freedom!

Rain n Shine~

2011-10-02T03:59:00.001+08:00

Simply love it when it rains... Calms my senses down, brings fresh cold air to me, no matter sleep or study will be much enhanced n productive! Love it when the thunder rumbles, the lightning flashes, the pitter patter of raindrops, sometimes on my face too if I leave^the window ajar, the lovely cool breeze, n the cleansed air n surroundings afterward! One of the many reasons I won't leave sg for any other place for good :):)

Celebrated the OLD children's day today w Bb! Flied our sotong n new eagie at pasir ris park! Plus the wooden aeroplane he bought frm san deigo! Haha stpd aeroplane, likes to somersault n attack the person who threw it! The harder u throw the harder it whacks u! Super funny! Caught it on video :):) stay tuned! Oh oh! N we shot koi's bubbles at each other! Hahaha.. Damn funny, scream n run arnd in the park :):) really felt like happy young kids once again! Yeah! N walked in the mangrove for a while when it drizzled (I remembered names for the mangroves! got brugeria, avicennia, rhizophora n one more! cheers to my geog knowledge!) but most of the day it was hot n sunny! Great weather! But no wind.....stpd wind came only after we packed our kites to leave! Pui Pui. Oh oh! N we slid down a green slope! Haha Bb hum, hold on to the side n use leg to stop!! Hehehe I went all the way! Zoooooom!!!

Glad I left hse for a fun aftn! Makes me happier n more refreshed when studying too! Yeah!

^the Doc^
it's gonna rain soon again!!

Our 5th 儿童节!

2011-10-01T03:20:00.001+08:00

Happy children's day to all! To me, 1st Oct will always be children's day, a day when we put down all the "adults' troubles" n laugh like a kid once again :):) therefore, I've decided to put stre aside for half a day n go have some fun w Bb! I've a fun plan in mind! Hopefully won't rain tml >.< for once I'm wishing it's sunny, haha cuz studying at home I rather it rains day n night! Yeah!

Ah-choo ah-choo! Dammit. I nd to turn my body clock back to near normal soon. My body cmi liao T.T either tt, or I nd to get more herbs. Zzz.....

^the Doc^
~mug.mug.mug~

Master n Slave

2011-09-30T04:00:00.001+08:00

Earlier today...

Bb: (hands credit card to cashier)
Cashier: Master?
Bb: Ya.
Me: No! (points to Bb) SLAVE!
Bb: Wtf.........
Us: (walk out of Ajisen n 狂笑!!)

Haha wonder what would happen if a cashier says "Master?" n Bb replied smirkingly "Yes, SLAVE?" :D :D

^the Doc^
new shoes new shoes!

Pre-STRE life~

2011-09-29T01:14:00.001+08:00

Been having dreams almost every night lately. Prob due to the fact tt my body clock is screwed up all over again :(:( but not tt I'm not enjoying the whole process...... Haha miss these kinda days when i can slp till sun shines on my pigu n I still can cover eyes n cont on.. Muahaha~~~ haven't been like this since A levels! Den wakie abit, eat abit study abit, den fall back to slp n dream abit, wakie again feeling even hotter, den study abit more n dinner time! While after dinner it's more serious rev (can't really fxn w the sun in the sky) n then all the way till after midnight, abt 3am. Meanwhile, fb abit, blog abit, youtube abit, eat tidbit abit, sms abit, look into mirror abit, n all I'm left w is v little time to get words into my brain T.T haha...

Dreams dreams. Dreamt of doing a small good deed to an ahpek, n he whispered smthg in my ear, n I woke up smiling n feeling happy! Good start to my day today! The other day I dreamt abt running up n dwn my hdb flat.. Mostly weird n not v fun dreams. Y no more cute guy dreams?!?! Pui.

鉴别 n 症状 qns r killing me. I'm investing most of my time on them so better come out those I studied! Haha.. Maybe go baibai again soon :D so far so good :):) shall go for nxt wk's final mock n build up more confidence! Yeah! Feeling happy n fat~

^the Doc^
wans a huggie frm fat baobao!

Teochew Pengyou n I

2011-09-28T03:42:00.001+08:00

Today got back mock two results, crapped w Teochew Pengyou on my way home.. This was a funny extract out of it, n it strikes me how differently we think! LOL.

When we score low for our papers, Teochew Pengyou says "Aiya I stupid ma.." while I say "Aiya I study so much, come out ulu ulu qns, not my fault, final exam 不会那么 suay de".

When we score high for our papers, Teochew Pengyou says "I alot of things haven study, heng heng come out qns I know, final exam cfm damn suay de" while I (rolling my eyes at her n feeling very YaYa), say "Aiya stre only! Cfm pass one la!" n then 狂笑 :D

Haha okay put aside the Bhb factor, what a funny convo, Pessimistic vs Optimistic. Oh well, nd to put in effort also lah. Not just say say only -.-" but dear friends out there, don't just have the words inside you, show the Confidence frm within too! Let's make Ntu proud of us once again! Let the examiners say ＂肯定是南大的学生＂ n say that with pride n envy! Woo~~~

Haha dammit. Almost 4am n I still can't slp.. Night owl inside me refuses to rest. Haiz...

^the Doc^
the last stretch.

Fat boy is back!

2011-09-26T16:31:00.001+08:00

Ten days didn't feel like much... Although it matters much for my revision :) managed to get qt abit covered, thou not v impressive, I know I'm focusing on my weak areas, ie symptoms n differentiating qns. the rest i cfm pass de, so relax more.

Glad to see the little fat boy back! Feels safe n happy n loved w him arnd. 不能太习惯一个人。it's gonna b our 5yrs anniv once stre ends. So cool~~~ oh oh! N I got plenty of presies frm him n his mummy.. Haha.. Clothes n food n a big flat ugly new eagie for flying flying! Haha.. My old eagie prettier! Even has a 3D beak (that eats dirt when it hits the ground) Wahaha~

Kk back to mugging.. Dun like ceiling fans! Hmpf.

^the Doc^
Mood mood, pls stay with me!

愚公移山

2011-09-25T23:19:00.001+08:00

Ok here goes: I was eating dinner, mummy is with Justin (my older nephew) in kitchen with me, peeling pomelo to eat, Korkor n dasao went downstairs walk walk for a while, n Julian (my younger nephew) tried to use the red chair as depicted below, to reach the door lock area n try his best to escape (he didn't have the keys with him -.-") n I screamed at Erjie (sitting like a rock in front of the tv n ignoring the earth's happenings) to keep an eye on Julian in case he falls.

A while later, this was what happened (refer to pict)... N it lasted till Korkor n dasao came back! Julian spent the entire half hr trying to pull the chair frm under Erjie/ push Erjie away frm the chair/ run to kitchen for help n get ignored/ run back n try harder. Meanwhile, Erjie happily continued watching tv.........kept me laughing non-stop! 愚公移山啊!!!

Haha.. Kids are so much fun. Well, besides all the other shit tt happens. LOL!

^the Doc^
two kids? or three?? Wahaha~

When I get bored n I have long hair.

2011-09-24T18:44:00.001+08:00

Okay don't laugh too loud, whoever saw this out there :) there's always a child in us, no matter how old we grow. Let the child shout out loud once in a while! Food for thought for the upcoming children's day!

^the Doc^

Dont work too hard.

2011-09-24T18:40:00.001+08:00

Kop-ed the photo frm fb.. Haha so sad but how true ya? So many ppl slog their lives away at work, eventually perhaps even die at wrk. So sad not even to be noticed -.-" moral: don't work too hard, n try harder to get noticed beh.

Need a break frm STRE! :) Bb coming back v soon~~~ Lalala~ fresh round of presies!! n children's day is coming. Woo! Love children day :):)

^the Doc^

Forever honeymoon period

2011-09-24T09:45:00.001+08:00

Over fb, when both bb n i commented tt we dont hate our lives, a friend of ours commented:

cos u 2 are the most lovable couple that i've ever seen. Forever honeymoon period :)

I guess this made my day ^^

^the Doc^

多的是你不知道的事

2011-09-23T22:44:00.001+08:00

＂你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨碎了满地在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是你不知道的事＂

爱情中有很多事让人不明白，原因就在另一方说＂为了你好＂而做的事，但却就少了一份解释。若你真的爱他，了解他，你不会对他存有怀疑、杂念，等时间到了谜底自然会揭晓。但彼此之间应该尽量不要有秘密；秘密的积累会渐渐让两者之间不信任，终究不会长久的。

王力宏!!! I like!!! Haha~ Anna! Can't wait for nxt k session to sing his songs n 花痴 tog again :):) love it when he looks sad n emo~ awww his pretty eyes! Hehehe..

^the Doc^
flower-eating mood~

Will you marry me?

2011-09-23T13:45:00.001+08:00

More hdb flats coming up but none in east side T.T haix.. Looks like we've gotta wait a long while more! On the other hand, got leftover bldgs at kallang, maybe will try for tt. If kena, can get keys immediately! Wow~ "This is a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do, oh baby~ I think I wanna marry you!" where is my engagement ring?! I wan go shop for wedding bands w u liao u stpd pc of shit!

*cramp cramp* today... Haix, lasted for 1+ hrs.. Determined to treat myself for this! Going to add some 活血化瘀 herbs in my nxt prescription for myself :D rocks being a doc :):)

Time to study :(
^the Doc^

Some recent photos~

2011-09-22T00:20:00.001+08:00

Totally miss blogging!

^the Doc^

Im back....maybe?

2011-09-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

Maybe everyone has forgotten about this blog, but I'm back.. After one plus year of living in bj w bighead, life wasn't easy but it wasn't that bad. Doesn't mean I've forgotten the deeds my dearest friends bestowed upon me, but in a sense I've more or less accepted everything. I know I've grown for the better bcuz of it. The hard hard way thou. I don't have to blog them out to rem them for life. Once again, thanks.

Anyways enough of the sad stuff, I only recalled them cuz I came back to this blog. Haha I wanted so much to blog abt the happy ones instead! I think I've impressed ZHQ enough to get me a jobbie!! N it rocks just to think about it :D my own little clinic. It's like a big dream coming through. Maybe after all I've suffered this is the sweetest fruit in return. I nvr fully understood the love I would put in into this course would be so immense, but I'm not regretting any second of it! A smile, a word of thanks, positive effects of my words n treatment. They alone r sufficient to make my day. N I think the best part of t? I grew so much closer to my mom. Another part? I treated myself such tt I have a better temper, no more running nose, healthier looking tongue, less painful cramps, countless little issues :):) so happy!!

A room that has my name on it. Omg so cool! Haha Okok enough. I also dunno who the hell reads this so I better be careful. I know I'll be a gd doc. So dear future patients, pls put ur faith in me, I promise not to disappoint, to the best of my ability. I'll study even harder, not for stre, but for all u pple out there, in need of me. Just give me the chance to show u! :D

P.s. Bb is happily in San Diego now.. Miss u loads n thanks for being there all these while. Couldn't have survived so well without u. Hugs* be safe okay?
(instead of The Queen, it's now...)

^the Doc^
hahaha~

the beautiful truth.

2010-07-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

i juz wanna say thank you.
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for letting me see who you are. for letting me understand that ive wrongly understood your friendships all these while. u could have screamed at me when anything wrong first happened. now every thing happens, n i still dun get the crucial problem? but guess what. right now i dun fucking care what u think anymore. juz get me the hell outta here. it would have been the best if we could tolerate each other juz a few more months but ta-da, u decided to play with me. sure. i'll play w u guys too. its juz that its so fucking sudden and u dont fucking discuss things w me so i can juz wish u good luck, have fun, and dont miss me yea?
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i have a bunch of lovely friends n i dont lack any of u at all. haha. i guess this was obvious since ages ago. but its not juz u tolerating me, its totally vice versa. n i juz dont wanna talk abt it anymore since its totally meaningless now.
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all i wanna say is, i'll prob thank u still. for letting me see the true side of you. and for making me stronger, which i definitely will, at the end of all these.
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^The Queen^
is glad to have her pigs, her gf, n por por! :) true friends stay together in need. i love u guys~

world cup fever

2010-07-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

been long since i last blogged. really too busy with alot of things. but today, and the past few days, alot of thots ran thru my head. and not necessary tcm things. its the usual emo days b4 a major exam i guess. hmmm...
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watched world cup~ haha finali learnt how to appreciate it this round. but maybe im better off not watchin it. for the past 7 or so matches i watched, ALL the teams i supported were out. let me list them, but not in order. argentina, usa, ghana, portugal, italy, brazil, england... walao. really very sad over some of the matches. not tt im especially interested in a particular team but sometimes u see the team tt more deserved to win, lose instead. well. that feeling sucks. like the ghana vs uraguay one. hand ball, red card, den g.yan miss the penalty! n then eventually ghana lost thru penalty. so suay. feel so ke xi for africa. im actually beginning to like the way they play. wells... and ronaldo. so sad tt match he was so marked down tt he nvr really get to touch the ball at all. n messi... 4-0. what had him been doing?! haiz. dunno la. juz v depressed each time i watch a losing match. i nearly cried for the matches italy, england, and usa got kicked out. haha. emo.
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i better not support the teams anymore.. haha so jinx!! pui. ronaldo really v cute hor? hehe.. his smile really v sunshine. but i agree tt he's kinda living in the past. he's prob not as good as before le, but he still wanna show off... kinda sad. but his teammates also not gd one leh. haiz. nvr support him... its no wonder he try to do everything himself instead. hmmm. n torres! hehe i wan torres jersey! *hint hint to gf!!*
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ok la. back to copying the stpd xi nei bing li. abt the very nice inner mongolia guy. LOL.
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is all the effort gg to pay off? when im furiously copying and revising on sats n suns and every evening after i get home. does it make a difference to my future at all? or maybe im gg to grow a tumour someday and die v soon. if tt really happens to me.... pui. ok i shall stop reading P.S. I love you. haha its contributing to my emo-ness. stpd baobei. u better stay healthy n dun burden me! hehehe... huggg...
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^the Queen^
is a little tired.

the Low... after the high.

2010-05-14T01:21:00.003+08:00

i felt a little upset today.
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cooking for many pple always makes me happy. but why does the money part make me sian? i noe it wasnt a cheap meal, but its still not v ex also wat. 8 yuan a person n u say i stingy. pui. haiz... dont u understand im not obliged to cook for so many pple?? i dont have to do it but i do it for the fun. but there's so much behind each meal that surpasses juz the money value, which is priceless. when u invite pple over, u consider the likings/dislikes (aka ji4 kou3) of each n every person, to think of non-commonplace dishes tt everyone will like, and then consider the staggering of time, the price of the food, the compatibility of dishes, etc etc. and then u need to go buy the food from diff places, coke n cheese only in carrefour/wu mart, the veggies u gotta go fangzhuang cuz its abit cheaper, n bcuz i was alrdy burdened with all the foodie, i din go to my house tt marketplace which sells even cheaper veggies. and then u gotta dedicate the 2 hours to cook the dishes while others go gym/sleep/slack/surf net. makes u feel like a maid sometimes. the feeling worsens if the dish turned out bad, but tue's meal was still not bad la. hmmm..
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maybe i brought all these upon myself. i think once i got over the food craze, i shall cease mass invitations. or if i do invite others over while expecting them to chip in, i shall buy all the cheapest food, instead of stuff like chicken wings, coke, cheese, veggie frm fz. in that sense, my household will prob "save" on costs. note that every dollar our guests saved frm the meal, my housemates n i would have to make up for it. its not like we're earning anything from that.
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maybe im being abit over in this discussion, but i juz wanna spill it out of me. i noe i always stay over at ur place n "leech" on u all. but i do chip in for most of the meals and sometimes i brought fruits/biscuits (even thou i finished most of the biscuits myself..), and once i got u guys a new knife, and u cant deny the effort i made to go all the way to ur place (rem u guys always complain how far u had to walk to come my place?) and help cook once or twice, and i believe i brought some degree of happiness too. i assure u that if at any point in time i felt like i was intruding upon ur household, i wont turn up again. if one day i am too dense/insensitive to observe that, pls tell me that.
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after that little discussion when i was asked to break down the prices of the meal, i really felt kinda hurt. its like u think im really cheating ur money. so much so tt i couldn pay any more attention to lesson after break ended. yea. it accounted for my lousy mood the whole day. and i even contemplated cancelling nxt tues' potential pig gathering. but nvm, think u guys dun really mean it also, its juz i think too much.
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baobei sucks. hurry come over n make paopao happy! i hope i wont fall behind on my studies/fang ges when u come! u little fat leech! hehe~ miss ya...
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^the Queen^
after the High u get to feel the Low~

the lazy baobei's blogpost email

2010-05-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

from the LAZY LAZY baobei (im helpin him to post this):
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i also lazy to log out of my gmail and i shld blog to paopei alone!!! lalallaaa
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hmmmm..ttttttttttooooooooo long nvr blog le..dunno hz to start..hehe pui pui . tink i shld start off by saying..ITS OVER!! althot still not offical yet. but i have finish my 4 yr mae course at ntu!! yeah!! feel gd nw dat there is no more studying, no more waking in the morning for lecture, no more endless project and ppt, no more rushing for quiz and trying v hard to catch out wif the tuts and lecture...hehebut i will definitely miss the time at NTU.. it haf realli been the most exciting time in my life so far..alot of memories, especially in HALL 3.. nvr regretted staying thru all 4 yrs..it is realli and experience dat i dun tink i can find it anyway else...

the drinking session, soccer, takraw, hall event, IHG, the shouting across room/out of room, gossiping abt everyone else in hall, spreading rumors and news, irritating neighbours and getting irritated, looking at occasional chiobu in hall and ang mo..hahahaa.. i am really gg to miss all of things..hai..one part of me feel shiok to finally graduate but a bigger part of me misses the hall life and the stay up late in the nite den supper n slp until shiok days...work life doesnt sound so fun..other den the payday at the end of the mth..

pui pui

anyway, FYP was done as well..presentation was superb i tink..lucky tat i got lennie as my moderator..farking heng..he was also my IA supervisor and the moment i saw him walk into the room...the nervousness in me suddenly disappear..sorry guys..cant help it tat im always get the gd prof..haha..act i tink i quite heng..FYP didnt realli get started until the 2nd sem..den start to panick..rush here rush dere..n finish a yr work in 1 sem..n the effort was paid off after the presentation and i hope shearwood will gif me a good grade like A for my effort..hehehe..

next goal in life..to secure a gd work..maybe not the best job..but hopefully one tat have a gd pay n gif me the chance to gain some experience...worse come to worse..maybe can consider air force..haha..heard tat their pay is quite gd..n seem i pass my ippt not like jiajun..haha..i tink i might be able to it get..but.

9 more days!!! =)

a very nice day with most part of the pig!

2010-05-12T22:57:00.002+08:00

this was what i typed on 5th may (in a letter to baobei but was kinda meant for a blog post) but was too lazy to sign in vpn to post until now. haha~ cuz exams are OVER! n we're free for at least 7weeks!! woohoo! here goes the post:

paopei is bored. hehe. wanted to blog but lazy to sign in to vpn! so i shall blog to baobei alone!!
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kaka just told me its SUMMER once 1st may passed. wow. thats quite fast isn't it? spring was barely felt, and ta-da! summer here alrdy. i had kinda just decided i kinda like spring, n i told her abt it, when she say its summer alrdy. oh... so maybe i like summer more. this spring is not a gd indication of how spring normally is in beijing, i think. cuz the winter was so draggy. zzz... its amazing seeing little green (or red or white or some other funny colour, but mostly green) buds popping out from barren trees and shrubs, or anything tt looked dead. HAHA. the wonders of life. (ok i sound like im blogging. maybe i'll post this another day when i sign in to vpn. or u can help me post! hehe)
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kaka also said it rained flowers on sunday. she say v pretty. haha i was sleepin at home so i nvr notice anything until tues when on the way to school i realised all the flowers were gone from the trees :( haha~ i missed out on another rare scene again! sian. just tt i was sleepin when the sky turned a v bright orange that time during one of beijing's worst sandstorms. maybe i shld consider sleeping less. oh. talkin abt sleeping. i slept so much again ydae. hehe~ lala~ the weather is SO nice to sleep can! even thou today got exam, last night i slept at 10plus, n i set alarm at 8am. this morning i convinced myself tt i can get nthg else into my head, so i keep setting hourly alarms at 9, 10, 11, until 1130 i finally wakied n went to sch early. haha thats to prevent me frm gg back to bed again (and risk missing my exam at 1.30pm).
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challenges w hf are gg strong! hehe. even thou i lost to her quite abit last wk... im sure this wk will be better cuz im alrdy prepared!! yay!! hehe. its not abt the money. its the pride! haha pride can make pple learn more. im glad i found her to challenge cuz kaka n huiming not consistent one. n she also cant find anyone to challenge. so exciting!! (anyways, this is abit lame, but to those who know i recorded my voice on mp3/comp to keep repeating till i get the fang ge correct, u will be amazed to find out i went up one level. HAHA. i recorded on my hp n put as alarm!! hehehe~ every half an hr ring, and i must stop whatever im doing to follow the recital for one min. so cool can!!! muahahah~)
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ok i shall go back to my notes! cya baobei! *deng deng deng! deng deng deng!*
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back to today (12th may) haha~ had a REALLY superb day. in short, ydae we invited gf's gang and anna n sockling over for dinner! quite proud of myself haha cuz the chicken was nice (thanks to huiming's recipe) but the other two dishes were quite a surprise too! yummy cheese/onion/egg omelette and a refreshing salted egg/veggie dish. slurp. there was an excess of rice but every single person finished their share (except the one with the nong2 tou1 aka the authentic "uhu" HAHA). she tried to pour her left over rice on my plate n make me look like im the one who couldn finish my rice. pui!!
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then we played One game of citadel. think the explaining the game part too longer than the actual game. haha its a difficult but quite intellectual game. the POR POR won by chance! zzz... me n anna were so close! arghhhh! nvm.
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gf stayed over for the night~ hehe she told me abt her lousy art skills (HAHA to the tree!) and she nvr shi1 mian2 again! MUST be me lah... cfm. hehe~ everytime i sleep over or she sleep over den she wont shi1 mian2. counting sheep is lame. hehe juz come sleep over ba! im ur antidote :D
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had a nice time w zhang laoshi at the lao3 ya1 tang1 place~ but the food wasnt v fantastic. laoshi keep tryin to bluff us tt she eat alot. -________-n machiam we cannot see for ourselves tt she eat so little can. haha~ nvm la. at least she enjoy our company. my outfit was so "sunshine" today. haha i even felt kinda OLD wearing it. haha but better now than 20 yrs later. the pigs dared me to wear the same outfit 20yrs later. i think pple will throw rotten eggies at me. pui.
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the kbox session tt followed was Honestly one of the BEST ive ever had. not a moment of peace, not a moment of boring-ness. hahaha~ superbly fun! it was a pig-out session w/o the pig ass (who went shopping) and the pig 3-layer-meat (is that wat its named in english?! lol). had super many songs tt required us to stand up n scream like shit. haha n we trapped huizi n candice n "their house's" joanna in our room to perform for us. haha... so cute. yay some one said i won huizi today in singing the si3 le4 dou1 yao4 ai4~ lalala~ hahahaha... had alot of v funny videos, including joaMA dancing our secret new "PIG" dance, and aMA (aka kAMAk) with her crazy shen ah jiu jiu wo ba (said to have originated from a kbox session w her bro some time ago). well... look out for the videos on fb!! lol. alot of random funny crazy stuff like "you cANT" song, the "liu bu zhu ni de wen rou" song, and the usual dose of loud jumping songs..., and the WEIRD pronounciation with everyone counting how many number of "chins" u have (btw candice won with 6, kailing n i followed closely behind with 5, while joAMA and kaMAk had only two each... note the direct link btw degree of skinnyness of face and the number of "chins" MUAhahahah~), and the nobody nobody butt-chew (aka "eyes" in dialect) ok i think alot of ppl wont get the joke. hahahaha~ all in all, its a superb day. yup~
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ended the day with a happy Mac meal... and a promise for some pig action again nxt tues!! prob dinner and stayin over! (n prob my place again!) hehe i love love LOVE cooking for many pple.. haha~ and when baobei is here i'll cook for him! hope he gets to mix around w my frens too! he'll love them n they'll love him! hugzzz to all of them! hehehe n esp to gf~ hahaha so many lame songs today i had total fun! muack!!
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its a damn long day n a damn long post n i wanna bathe n sleep liao. gd night to everyone! :)
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^the Queen^
is very very happy now~
(so happy tt she nvr listen to her fang ge today.. its a relac day! heh heh~!!!)

random things tt i've been wanting to blog abt

2010-04-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

i think i've just slept for over 19hrs in the past 24hrs...
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weekends are just so nice to sleep in. and cooking does make pple tired. haha~ thurs i've had 7ppl invited over for dinner, so that added up to 10 for dinner! its definitely the first time i've cooked for so many pple! n its quite exciting =) cooked fried rice n yam paste. i would say i like the fried rice quite alot, n its better than the other time i cooked at gf's place. the yam paste is not bad too, but no amount of sugar added can make it sweet (i think huiming had added half a pack of sugar alrdy... haha but it refused to taste sweet. so imagine how much sugar the orh ni outside contained...), and the gingko nuts are bitter. hmmm...
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huiming cooked this fantastic chicken wing dish w coke. its definitely one of the nicest dishes ive tasted in beijing, n it reminded me of mummy's cooking! hehe shall go kop the recipe frm her n surprise my mummy nxt time! the two yrs in beijing, in kaka's words, are more like housewife training sessions than actual learning of tcm. hahaha~ but its really quite fun to cook. i swear my yam peelin skills are improving tremendously!
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love changing arrangement of rooms. i think since i've moved in, ive changed at least 7 times. lucky i have two beds and relatively enough space to play with!
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i scotchtaped up my windows... when winter is gone n spring has come (meaning the heater is gone too... sob...) couldn take the cold n finally mustered up enough energy to scotchtape up my windows. shld have done it ages ages AGES ago! haha~ but it was done! n my room's temp rised by a few degrees (or maybe its purely in my mind. haha).
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witnessed one of the worst sandstorms in beijing. (actually, i slept thru it. zzzz!!!) but the nxt day also got abit, haha. the whole sky was orange (according to kaka n online photos) and its horrible pollution to the lungs. haha~ but still, its quite pretty, not the sunset kind of orange, but bright bright orange. so cute. endured one of the worst winters of beijing too. 40 yrs coldest. its not a v nice thing to endure, and many a time i wondered why am i suffering here in the cold and not back in sg with a risk of skin cancer. zzz... but here's good news. when u suffered the worst in 40yrs, u can kinda expect the following yr's winter to be less harsh, and more tolerable! yay~
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anyways, this yr's last snowfall was v late too, in april! really april's snow sia. haha. i couldn mask my disappointment when i landed on beijing on 28th feb n still see snow covered grounds. but i got over it. finally now many flowers bloomed and are a pretty sight. but im not very much moved by them, unless i have baobei around to take picts for me! haha~ emo again.
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glad that baobei enjoyed his bdae surprise! i shall expect a blog entry frm him regarding the surprise when his annoying fyp n exams finish! jiayou baobei~!!! btw, u still sucked! hehehe~
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the book Dear John is nice. esp for us cuz of the two yrs separation n all that. yea. separation from my darlin as well as mummy. lucky mummy is forever so healthy. hehe~ i miss mummy!!! n her food!! yum yum!
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haiz. i wan a huggie frm baobao! pui.
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^the Queen^
what's the point of everything? when everything might accumulate to nothing?

happy 25th bdae! to baobei baobei~

2010-04-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Dear baobei~

And you are a Quarter Century old~!!! not to say tt we've been together for near 3.5years alrdy!! hehe~ so happy that i noe you, even thou ur sucha stingie mingie lazy stupid sick asshole! but u can be such a sweet darling too! (for 1% of the time) but thats ok! i can live with that ONE%. heh heh~

really lookin forward to the one month in beijing soon! but after that, i seriously dunno how to live on. eight months w/o u leh... sob sob. but its ok... the two years will really be over soon. even thou its really not short, i know of others who have survived longer, and i'm sure our future will be bright and happy! yay~!!! i love u! even thou right now i still have almost zero idea what job i'll be workin as once i get back, i know i will still have you n that's kinda enough for me alrdy :) :) leech on YOU! muahahaha! u better earn enough to make paopei full full! and the upcoming 3 babies!!! lalala~

baobei sucks! this yr paopei not with u, see what difference it makes to ur life! u need paopei to be with u!! paopei deficiency! hehe.. hug the cute smelly blue pillow n think of me kissing u a very "Happy Birthday!!"

paopei paopei~

why sg is so Naise~

2010-03-22T13:48:00.004+08:00

class ended early today and nthg to do... so shall mention some random things which i've always wanted to mention but too lazy to. HAHA. well.. for those who dun keep in contact w me, i've alrdy survived 5mths of beijing, been back to sg for jan-feb, and then back in beijing till now. singapore has been, and will always be a wonderful place, and no one can fully appreciate the beauty of singapore until u are away from it for long. pple like me n my classmates. shall list down a list of things why we shld feel blessed cuz we're singaporeans!

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no winter! trust me, snow is fun when u've nvr seen it before, but the consquences of Living thru it is comparable to hell sometimes, when even writing in ur room u have to rub ur hands constantly to prevent them from freezing. n u need to spend 10min just wearing clothes (and 10min undressing them). makes u dun wanna go downstairs to dabao food. haha i dunno why i still grew fat. since most of the wkends i ended up eating one meal simply cuz im too lazy... zzzz!
no constant spitting on the floor. argh. u have to be alert! whenever some ah tiong "karrrh" you must Siam first before they "puuuuuI" somewhere near u. if not u might just kena it. n a good thing to do everyday is to look at the ground when u walk, cuz its very highly likely that u step on spit n bring the remnants home. (actually u most prob will bring some home, its just the amount.)
no annoying honking everywhere u go. to china pple, honking is like, so freaking common, that initially u are very sensitive to the honks n siam the cars, but eventually u realise most of them honk to make u walk faster (even when ur on the right lane at the right time) and they can continuously honk for many many times. it just doesnt irritate them. but oh, how soothing singapore is, in comparison.
no pollution! the air in beijing here is not very good. even thou u dun feel it (u may feel it if ur quite sensitive to dust), u can SEE it. haha leave a book around for one day, n u'll feel the presence of the dust. sometimes i see no point in cleaning up. zzzz... magic clean does help alot alot. cuz the dust is so plenty n fine tt the broom cannot sweep up most (u need to use tissue paper to pick them up.) part of china still enjoy v clean air thou, those rural areas, like zhang jia jie!
no dry air. seriously, the nxt day i return to beijing, a layer of thin flakey skin covered my hands n legs -__________- its so dry here!! n then ta-da... all my dandruff returned. sian. it takes two weeks for my skin to adapt. and when i first came beijing, i nvr buy humidifier. so what happens? traces of blood when i dig my nose. zzzzz.. my little froggie humidifier is my best friend! haha~
no need to waste time n energy bargaining. almost everything (except those in departmental stores) can be bargained. and i think its very annoying cuz the shop keepers quote diff prices to diff pple, and while u may think u chop alot of the prices alrdy, ur STILL paying alot. eg. in Xiu Shui Jie, if they quote 300 and u cut to 150, u think u saved half and may smirk over the bargain, but the fact is u prob can get it for 50. HA. its quite time-consuming and taxing, cuz sometimes it might end up in the seller and buyer (us) feeling 肝郁. 为何要这样子呢???
no need to worry that one day ur heater might burst and flood ur house (happened to one of my classmate's apartment), that a mushroom would grow in between the planks of ur house (happened to another of my classmate's apartment), that ur window might fall off and crash to the bottom of the building (yet another classmate's apartment), that ur heater is actually not providing sufficient heat to let u survive the winter (happened to Many of my classmates' apartments), etc etc. sounds horribly aint it? im glad my apartment has so few problems except for a few small problems when we first moved in. lalala~
no need to separately throw toilet paper into a dustbin (cuz it cant be flushed down the toilet. if u forcefully throw it down the toilet, it will just come back to u, and it brings alot of other stuff with it. HaHa.)
a large variety of food in sg! chinese, western, jap, korean, malay, indian. u name it. food in china is nice, but its just too narrow a spectrum for me to live here for good.

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but of course, got good things in beijing too lah. just tt to me, its just not worth it. haha~ things like:

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having four seasons and experience the fun of a snow fight!
being able to buy very very very cheap stuff (wow i just bought 6 english story books online for less than $10sg!!! books like A Beautiful Mind, Dear John, Sex and the City, etc etc. haha of course they are not the real ones lah..)
Really Really cheap and good chinese food. (well the extremely good point of china is that things are really freaking cheap. not just the food, but the food is a very impt point to me. lol)
(i cannot think of any other good point at the moment liao. zzzz...)

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ok la enough of comparing. i've decided to put my old toothbrush at gf's place! hehe the lousy hotel toothbrush she's been providing me with is cui.. hehe. shall go n leech on them again. cooked yam rice for them last week n they quite like it. hopefully my fried rice this thurs will be good too!! i still find their place kinda cold for me. n i wanna get a bicycle soon! too laaaazy to walk to their place. hahaha~

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bball last friday has been great! me, yiroe, huizi, xiaohui, sally~ played on our own n them challenged some ah tiongs. haha i totally openly gossip abt them in eng, until on the way back home, gf told me alot of them can understand eng. n kaka told me at church alot of them actually have ang mo's type of eng... haha. dun care. bleh. where got pple play bball so act seh one?! (one of them keep giving excuses for not shooting in 3-pointers. but seriously, he attempted no less than 10 times and not One went it. cui.) has been a good work out! been long since i last sweated so happily.. muscle ached for two days thou. bleh.

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ok la... nua for 2.5hrs liao... shld go n do something productive. till then!

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^the Queen^

loves half days!!!

Baobei is coming to China!

2010-03-14T21:19:00.003+08:00

oh alright... its ages since the last post. haha Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all! and i've been back to Singapore for a month, traveled around China before I went back. the trip was not bad, thou not exactly fantastic mostly becuz it was still freakin cold, and also cuz baobei wasn't around to travel w me. Pui.
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anyways, singapore was F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C. after spending a cold winter in beijing and then back to a super sunny singapore, i am 100% certain i wont wanna live in anywhere except singapore. haha. was ghostly white and kinda flabby after i got back sg, n baobao kept laughin at me. pui. but after 3 hot hot days at The Bins!!! and one day of day-cycling... haha i was nicely tanned (horribly sunburnt thou). haha~ it was a superbly nice month for baosi and paosi~!!! check out my photo album if u happen to visit my home in china! (oh yea we developed 100 photos n put them into a photo album! how old-fashioned. HAHA)
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im here to announce that my little darling will be coming over to beijing for an entire month from 21st May 2010 to 21 June 2010!! Cheers!! *i can sense other girlfriends feeling jealous cuz their working boyfriends can only afford to take leave for at most a week! hehe* its gonna be the last one month b4 BOTH of us start working, so i guess, yea, i will be kinda ponning lessons to pei my little boy! hahaha... and the plans are alrdy out! subjected to changes thou. haha~ feeling so happy. cant wait cant wait!
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fri 21---Arrival of the KING!!
 sat 22---theme park 欢乐谷
sun 23---紫禁城
 
mon 24---(till1630)
tues 25---(till1630)
wed 26---(till 1130) hang around + 西单  (Arsenal shop and lots of shopping!)
 thur 27---(till1630)
fri 28---(pon3hrs)
 sat 29
sun 30
*28-30 go 青岛

mon 31---(till1630)
  tues 1---(till1545)
 wed 2---(till1130) hang around + maybe 动物园
 thur 3---(till1545) 
fri 4---(till1630)
 sat 5---长城
 sun 6--- 颐和园

mon 7---(till1545)
 tues 8---(till1630)
 wed 9---(till1045) 香山
 thur 10---(till1630)
 fri 11---(till1545)
 sat 12---(till1545) yes i have a class on sat
 sun 13---(till1630) and yes i ALSO have a class on sun. PUI.

mon 14
 tues 15
 wed 16
 thur 17---(pon3hrs if necessary)
 *14-17 go 内蒙古
内蒙古 details:
Hopefully can spend 2days at grassland, 1day at desert, 1day free and easy. Junie and gang going for 3 days, but i think we shld go for 4 days! dun care them. ourselves more impt! hehe... apparently alot of ppl eyeing mongolia during this holiday. so will have alot of classmates coming!! lalala~

     fri 18---(till1630)
 sat 19---天坛
 sun 20---stay at home at pack/nua with baobei

mon 21---  Baobei leaving!! eight months!! pui!
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yea... so much for today. shall go back to being a good girl and reading up before lessons! yay yay~ baobei sucks!!
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^the Queen^
is sick of all the cold n snow! c'mon!! Let it be Spring!!

paopei deficiency

2009-11-02T19:25:00.004+08:00

银月 [ 未来的郑医师！] snowflakes ON MY HEAD! woohoo~!!! pretty!!! says:
dun streess baobao!
paopao is here
n will always be!
hug my blue pillow
hehe its ME!
muack muack

_____ j'Eff.™ Love ya, PaoPei! says:
Haha
I tink Realli
I put ur pillow on top of mine after the email
Den I slp le
Miss ur smell!!!
Faster come b !!

银月 [ 未来的郑医师！] snowflakes ON MY HEAD! woohoo~!!! pretty!!! says:
hhehe
dun wash the pillow lo

_____ j'Eff.™ Love ya, PaoPei! says:
Ur smell gg to no more le!!!
Haha

here are signs of paopei deficiency! hehe cannot study cannot sleep cannot do project, thinkin of paopei all the time! ^^ dont worrie baobei! paopei will be back in less than 3 months!! time flies~ i love u and be strong for me too! study hard and enjoy ur last yr in ntu! =)
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^the Queen^
is glad tt my condo is testing heater today! no more cold cold!!

snowy morning! and class halloween celebration!

2009-11-01T14:50:00.003+08:00

compare the above with the prev post! haha so white! this is taken at abt 3pm, when all the snow stopped le. but its still white in general. pretty!
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and LOOK AT THIS! WOOOOOO-HOOOOOO~

the pretty view from 19th level (where i stay!) everything is covered in white~ pretty! i immediately woke huiming up n we wore our winter gear down to take pictures! those r in another phone. maybe upload nxt time =)
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my stock from baobei! muack muack! and many thanks to wx! yay~~~
hehe my new arsie shirt! (i think baobei likes it more than me...but..OH well.) hehe here's the pict for u baobei! i flipped it left-right! n my arsie (fake) track pants! no wonder ur arsie won 3-0 to tottenham last night. must be paopei! =)
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^the Queen^
is wearing 5 layers at home... grrr..
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below: my group leader dressed up for halloween in class.. looks freaky right?? she can act damn well lar. n all the screams n laughter by my grpmates! well done! we deserved the FIRST prize! good job!!

First Snow!

2009-11-01T01:55:00.003+08:00

right now im witnessing the first snow in BeiJing!
woohoo!
next few days also will have snow i think! lucky wx, can see snow! haha too bad for kaka's bro. he came last wk n was complainin beijing v hot! haha~ he left le den jiu snow. suay. =)
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just now, at 1.33am huiming sent me an sms (she was still outside w friends celebrating halloween!) tellin me that its snowing! i was so excited n i was web caming w baobei! i immediately donned my autumn clothes (after a futile attempt to wakie kaka n wx to see the snow) and i rushed downstairs! it was REALLY snowing! haha didnt attempt to take any picts cuz i think my fingers will fall off if i take off my gloves n try. it was superbly cold! it was the first time i really saw mist forming in front of me when i breathed out! n the snow was mixed with rain, not v heavy thou. just see flakes floating, some falling straight (raindrops) the rest just floating around. hehe~ hope i get to see prettier flakes tml morning! . been shoppin alot these days! just went bairong on thurs cuz our nei ke laoshi was sick! unexpected holiday! (oops! we were like celebrating someone being sick..) alot of pple r sick these days. tsk tsk. anyways, FINALLY me n kaka bought our yu rong fu! YAY! super pretty! we bought the SAME one summore -_________- why her taste n mine so similar. we have diff colours for the same design, n there'r quite a few diff ways to wear it, so i hope not many pple will realise its the same one (like Real.) haha~ . today weixiong (kaka's bf) reached in the morning. brought all my bdae presie, 3 yr presie, n other random things!! yay! so happy! . 3 yr presie - an S size Arsenal jersey! (wtf right?! hehe..stpd shit always try to force his love for ARSIE on me!) anyways its a little tight ^^ shall try to squeeze in to make him happy. bdae presie - a SHAVER (with batteries)! hehe (our own little secret). once in a while u still have to DO IT! pui. other impt things: baobei's first bdae presie for me (a pretty purple heart shaped pendant!) and our valentine day prize (a super small but diamond-studded pendant!) and baobei's LG VIEWTY! hehe stpd boy win iPhone den throw his old (less than half a yr old actually) phone to me! pui. anyways, china cannot use iPhone. BLEAH. other random things: one blue normal fbt which i like, one UGLY red one (cuz its the WRONG cutting! pui pui!), one pink and one green highlighter, two plastic rulers, one blu-tack, one pack of LA MIAN! (yum!!), a big pack of xia sang ju from mummy, and three packs of herbal chicken ingredients! that should be about all ba~ thanks thanks! esp to wx for bringin everything over! yay~ i bought a ton of things for baobei too! maybe he would be nice enough to bring them back to him too! *hoping!* . might be sleepin soon! tml might have more flakes! daylight shld b able to take more picts ba. maybe mon get to wear yu rong fu alrdy! woohoo!! cold! . ^the Queen^ is freaking cold. and freaking excited
paopei loves baobei for all the presiesss!! muack muack muack muack! dun worrie, we will have chance to throw snowballs at each other! jio u go Harbin during winter! hehe! =)

food updates~

2009-10-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

this is funny!
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"hi paopao
 ur corn soup is still untouch 
 but ur pasta no more le 
 but the sauce still here
 maggie mee also untouch 
 tink ur bailey's rot le 
 no choco in the room
 shelves looks empty"
--- baobei's food update!
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dun b deceived in thinkin tt baobei is Starving w/o me around! he is getting fatter n fatter! pui pui pui!!
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ok im bored. going clubbing tml with classmates! haha first time clubbin in china, hopefully wont be too cui. i was late for class today!!! what the. kena recorded also =( 5min late but teacher start class le, so cfm counted late. sianzzz! now the system is like sec sch, late must record one. den 3 late = one truancy. HAHA. funny. n the stpd thing is... it was AFTERNOON class at 1.20pm. n i woke up at ONE PM. zzzzzz.....
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shall be less lazy n wakie 1230 nxt time when got afternoon lesson. i totally missed my lunch too :( sad sad!!
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^the Queen^
is growing FAT... face fat thigh fat tummy fat..
baobei CANNOT copy paopei n grow fat! *slap*

shopping in beijing!

2009-10-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

haha dont my little nephews look FAT?! haha fat fat justin. i think jeffrey must be like him when he was young. so fat. bleh. anyways... today we went to XIU SHUI JIE! hahaha super fun! (they even had a Xiu Shui Jie ending song when they closing at 9pm.. haha they blast it over the speakers) at first when walkin there, its quite intimidating cuz the pple there will scold u if u ask for price n are not genuinely interested in buyin. the first time huiming asked and didnt buy, the person kinda scolded her -_______-
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for the first half an hour we were kinda sad cuz v scared of askin for prices. HAHA. den slowly slow i bought the first item! BOOTS! for 230yuan i think. haha i super love it! high cut with lace, something i've always wanted years back but didnt have the money/courage to buy. now that it is a neccessity, its So Fun! hehe~ den went another shop where kaka n huiming were buyin boots. i saw one tt i like, same as the one huiming like (hers is pink! mine is grey!). she got hers for 175 but i keep wanting to lower it. really really liked it but think its too ex. so i din buy, n walked a little further while they still tryin. MUAHAHA! i found the Same one two shops down and the nice guy sold to me for 140yuan! (oops! haha sorry huiming, if u read this =X next time be more patient! lets save more $$ together!) n i also bought a super super nice jacket! those can repel wind one. i also super like it. the two best buys of the day! shall post picts when blogger is functionin properly... hehe~ i bought the pretty jacket for 250 when the price was like 600+... even thou 200+ is still kinda ex but its very nicely designed, got lines n stuff. think its worth it! n while chattin w one of the salesgirls i told her we frm guangzhou, on a holiday. she was like: "not bad, first time to beijing can cut price till so low." haha she sounds kinda sincere. i totally felt praised. alot alot of ang mos there. some of them can totally cut prices more lihai than us! haha kaka eavesdropped on them bargaining. LOL.
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oh, one smart thing kaka did. when buyin one pair of shoes, the owner actually asked her "is the size ok?" in ENGLISH. and she kept quiet! ahahhahah she wanted to reply, but that would reveal tt we know english! hehehehe so smart of her right?! for once! =X
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other buys include a scarf made frm rabbit fur (and is Damn soft to touch, super duper smooth!) and also a inner shirt thingie which i think i overpaid for. siansssss =(
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another thing is, the weather is turning! my goodness. this is the main reason why we went shoppin today. cannot tahan le. the path to hosipital is turnin to the Path to Hell. haha or rather, Heaven. cuz the road itself is torturously cold, while our destination (hospital) is so much warmer! haha its funny how the "aircon" is outside. everytime we step outside a building its like steppin Into a building when in sg. LOL. its cold until i can wear max 5 layers of tops and 3 layers of bottoms. n my ascis sport shoes is so "GOOD" (cuz its meant to air ur feet when running) haha so end up our feet were very air-ed to the "aircon" here =( no protection at all. my poor little toes look frozen n shrunken =( =( lucky i got my heater bed! YAY. lucky i got my boots! YAY. some of my classmates have cracked hands alrdy.. bleed.. n v painful! poor things! i only not used to the dryness here, thighs always v itchy, no matter how much moisturizer i put! zzzzzz. less than a wk i finish 1/3 of a big container le. haha lucky things here r cheap.

still need to shop for yu rong fu! Damn. keep spending on random things. grrr! (ydae after exams i totally Splurged at carrefour n fangzhuang. cant believe i managed to spend 300+ at these two places! hahahaha~ i bought real phillips headset for 99 at carrefour, n thats one third the total amt i spent le!)..
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oh, and this post is also dedicated to baobei!
for sharing a happy memory on 20th Oct 2009! hugs! love u loads~~~
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^the Queen^
mummy must be horrified at the amount of things i bought... HOW TO BRING BACK SINGAPORE?!!?!?!? ZZZZZ~

justin + julian!

2009-10-19T19:39:00.001+08:00

Justin!! ( 1+yr)

Julian!! FAT!!! haha(4+mths = 8kg)

3 yrs!!!! =) =)

2009-10-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

hello baobei baobei!!

its our THREE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!

woohoo~ we've come a looooooooooooooong way together! even thou we're currently apart at this very moment, i truly believe that our hearts are still linked as One! (mushie mushie!) hehe~ i think these two years apart will do us alot of good, for us to think more about whats going on btw us, for us to grow independent of each other (since workin life we might experience days/weeks of seperation anyways), for me to train my cookin skills, for you to get used to workin life, etc etc. and i think it is also a last phase of "freedom" of somewhat "singlehood" before we stick together permanently. so enjoy it while u can! hehe~

life here is somewhat settled down and im tryin hard not to miss home. i think its horrible to miss home terribly (i've witnessed bouts of emo-ness frm fuifui last time while stayin w her) so i'll try to be happy! i know u miss me loads too, doing all our fav activities tog... u can jio ur buddies out to do similar things la, esp those singles like jiajing n zai. haha~ im sure this can improve ur frenships too! muack*

three years is not short, yet it is not too long. our relationship is more or less settled down too, and i hope we will find ways to improve it constantly. i believe spending time together to learn new things is one good way of healthy interaction so nxt time we can register for classes (dance, yoga, taichi, whatever)! i can foresee alot more happy moments in life with you around me! yay~~ n travelling! u must must come find me! i will bring u all around china (or u bring me, in case i get lost). PLEASE brush up on ur chinese, dun come here n reveal ur singapore identity everywhere u go by stammering. hahahaha! cui.

ok la, i just wanna wish us happiness and health for the upcoming years to come, n that we (i, especially) will make use of these two years apart to learn skills tt can allow us to take better care of each other and our families! YOU, earn more money! hehe~ hug*

miss u loads!
Paopei Paopei~

Dinnner!!!

2009-10-11T02:51:00.002+08:00

juz had a wonderful seafood dinner wif PAOPEI's family!! yeah!! even thou paopao is not ard singapore...her family still invited me to their dinner!! Happy!! but was abit weird at 1st...croz is usually tag along wif ur bf/gf to their family dinner..den tiz time i go alone..so was kinda weird..

got a call from her brother the nite b4 to join them for dinner..croz auntie juz won 1st prize wif paopao number..so heng..dulan lo..i nvr go buy..instead i went to buy Edmund's car plate number..pui.

but everything turn out great..the company, auntie and her siblings..+ the irritating justin..hehehe..except tat i was kinda of late..due to all the shopping for paopao's stuff..apparently they tried to call me alot of time and all the calls were directed to my voiemail instead..in the end i restart my phone den alot of missed call..like ard 8..feel damn paiseh..haha..1st sign of my iphone gg to cui soon....(muz be the cursing from shaun n leng)

took a few foto during the dinner..it was dman freaking shiok..got 8 dishes..from vege to seafood to meat..S-H-I-O-K! somemore paopao not ard..den i can eat her share..hehee...hopefully an get to eat more often!! oh..my mummy juz came back..at 3:11am..appparentlly, she have been gg to sing ktv every sat..haha..used to go CC one..den in the end change to Kbox, partyworld, chinatown 10-dollar ktv....and nw..my relative ktv lounge..i tink soon she will join the Huang Jin Nian Hua ktv on ch 8 soon to showcase her talent..hehe..tink she might win..croz my mum is quite entertaining when she is singing..=D

got paopei's 3 yr present!!! i love it!!! and i tink she will love it too!! she cfm will and MUZ LOVE it!! croz is gg to be or ordy a part of her life!!! heheheeee....due to FYP (which i haven even started, and is ordy half a sem gone!!!!) n her timetable..wun be gg over to find her tiz dec..=( =( =( sad. gotta to ask weixiong to help me bring over to her..but i promise to spent my holiday at beijing wif her b4 i start work!! wait for me!!!

BaoBei*

money money

2009-10-07T22:29:00.003+08:00

studyin studying... while studying i looked at my new sweater, which i loved very much, bought at xi dan, and costs only 50yuan. i recall the shop owner giving me the price of 50yuan, and i tried very hard to lower it. when i didnt manage to succeed, i walked away. after which, i walked back again, n tried again. hahaha... he niam-ed alot, say the quality is good, say the price is worth it, say we have to understand how much effort was put into knitting the sweater, and that this price was alrdy the minimum. eventually, i bought it at 50yuan.
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to think of it, its only sg10 dollars. to think of it, how much do those pple really Really earn from one sweater like that? sometimes i feel guilty for tryin so hard to cut down the price. the few dollars to us may mean nothing; we would have paid for much more for the same item back in sg. but here, to those pple who are sellin us the items, it may mean a meal to them. or a new toy for their children. or maybe even more.
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we see those beggars on the street. usually we see the same few. some of them are even young and healthy. i nvr ever gave them a single cent. but u do see some others giving them money. what is the proper reaction to them? sometimes u ignored them... and then minutes later, u spent dollars on ur favorite food, or on an item u dont really need. would it be better spent on them? cuz a few dollars may as well make their day? i dunno. sometimes i just think evry one is so suspicious of everything. such a typical singaporean. but i do hear that some of them are under societies, ie. all their earnings actually go somewhere else. and i also hear that some of the beggars, if they look jialat enough, actually earn alot more than those who put in effort to maintain a shop or sell items by the roadside. are these true? if so, how sad.
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haha enough of philosophical things. i just shifted my bedroom arrangement! now my table is by the window, with loads of space to put my books. previously i threw all my stuff onto one bed, so i have one less bed to nua in. NOW....hahaha i have the luxury of TWO enticing beds! hehehe revamped the outlook and bought a new quilt, with a super smooth quilt cover... now... one bed is purple-blue outlook and the other is yellow-grey. super pretty and Darn comfortable! i couldn decide which is my favorite! HAHA doesnt really matter. ive set aside the yellow one for sleepin at night, and the purple one for napping! heheheheheh~ shoik! ever since i shifted the arrangement...i have been sleepin late and taking more naps than usual. DIE.
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as a side note, kaka n huiming split rooms le. haha apparently they kinda distrbed each other when studyin in the same room. kaka took the bigger room. hopefully they can study better this way! just dun involve me, i still like to remain isolated in my little paradizzzze! =) =)
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^the Queen^
is lookin yearningly at her two beds...

random thoughts of beijing

2009-10-05T00:44:00.007+08:00

ok... finally i got the feeling to blog again. been very busy these days, revising for the upcoming tests. this doesnt mean life is boring. on the contrary, so many things have happened that i really dunno how to start. shall just blog any thing that comes to my head =)
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taichi. i feel that this is something that bonds me and my mummy, as well as me and my classmates, together. after every lesson, i would talk to mummy, tell her the new stances we learnt, complain abt muscle ache, etc etc. sometimes i'll also ask her abt new recipes for some long ago dishes i remembered which she cooked. slowly slowly, i actually talked to her much more than when i was back in singapore. i liked this feeling very much. there wasnt much chances to talk to her then. im glad of this distance bcuz it seemed to bring us much closer together~ as for the bonding btw me n classmates, its cuz so many of us joined taichi tog. twenty or so? to gather at the park at 8+/9... and then practice in peace w laoshi... n then stay back to play chapteh. it was fantastic. chapteh brought back super nice memories of bedok south primary school. those carefree days of chapteh, five stones, hop scotch, and bullying! hahahaha (too bad, yr, wb, tb, ws! etc etc...) as well as after class cycling... and some bball, some catching... hanging out w all the EM3 pple... haha~ how did i manage such gd grades even after hanging arnd w those pple, i have no idea. chu wu ni er bu ran! LOL. even thou bsps is demolished, and there is no such school anymore, it has and always will exist in my heart. the cheap canteen food, the white n brown uniform, the trees w huge roots tt we played catchin on, the area next to the canteen that sells books once in a while, the little patch of concrete which we played hop scotch (and other girls play zero point), the huge car park which was utilized for flag raising, capt ball, hop scotch and a million other things, the foyer which i was scolded by parents when i was a prefect (cuz i tried to stop them from entering, grrr... in the end i quit. hehe), and art classes, where my teacher always give me black and white cuz she think its the best colour combi and i was her fav student, days when i keep comparing grades and hated by those who lost to me once again, days when i had to copy extra things to hang on the wall (compos, poems, both in eng n chi) cuz i scored too high... HAHA... oh man. the list goes on. i just keep smiling as i think about these things.
anyways. i just bought a new bball for 69yuan. haha china brand, but looks sturdy enough! went with yiroe n gang to buy. lookin forward to some good bball sessions w her n huizi n shuling =) i know i dont really Love bball alot these days. those good old days were back in dunman high, and can never be felt anymore. but still, playin with the right pple these days brings back good memories and feels shoik once in a while. ive always had this annoying mentality: winning is not important, as long as we enjoyed the game. this mentality has always been looked down by many, and only a rare few happen to hold this same mentality as me. shinwei, for one. and some of my bms classmates. the most recent example was the ISG against HSS, we played our game and nearly won, but tt was cuz we played w no stress, no will to win, and just the mentality to have fun. it was one of the best games played in a while.
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in these five weeks, ive had alot of interaction with my classmates. good things, mostly. but also a few hitches. for one thing, hanging out w my flatmates, kaka n huiming, has become a routine. but i know for one thing i dont totally click with them, and its good tt we set up rules and stuff. i know im a possessive person. in dhs, when i have a best friend, the friend is Mine, and no one else's. i've learnt, albeit in a painful way, to forget about this stupid way of establishing friendship. jealousy is never the way to do things. nevertheless, thank you maggot. our friendship came a long way, way too many ups, and its fair share of downs.
ever since our friendship, i am kinda afraid of making very close friends. i have this thinking, that if u are not so close to me, u dont "belong" to me, so i am not afraid of losing you. HAHA. actually... this is like a relationship in the bgr sense. you dont commit, then the person is not yours, and you dont have to be scared of losing. but if u take that first step, u make the promise of a friendship, u will be afraid of losing it.
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maybe this is the reason why i choose my friends so carefully. and i dont have many friends, accordin to my strict definition of a friend. err.. so what is the definition of a friend, to me?
--> a special person whom i can relax completely and joke about any thing when im around her/him, whom i can gossip to without being afraid that she/he would spill on me, whom i would feel upset and bad tempered if we end up in a misunderstanding, whom i would worry about if she/he falls sick or is in pain or is unhappy, whom i would feel jealous if she/he gets too close to another friend or into a relationship.<-- . something like this i guess. so far, only maggot fits this description. i know baobei is a very good friend to me, but in his case it is somewhat different. it differs frm the typical "friend" definition. LOL. . what im tryin to say was, i was kinda controlling myself with this natural sense of "jealousy". kaka was sorta considered my "best friend" in uni. when we are now in beijing, stayin w her n huiming, esp when huiming is her roomie, sometimes makes me feel isolated. even thou i act like i dont really care, i admit i do miss those days when only the two of us hang out together. not that huiming is not a nice person, but i havent really opened up to her yet. so its like, i still feel like a stranger to her. she is just not the kind of "friend" that i would open up to. maybe when u, whoever u are, are reading this, u might feel that im narrowminded, that im difficult to go along with, but this is the way i am. i know who i will be happy around, and i tend to hang around w those pple. other pple may be nice, they may be friendly, but they are just "not-my-type". . so... who are "my-type" so far? haha... in my bms class, sad to say, there are only a few pple who i like to hang out with. kaka, yiroe, huangfang, junie, brandon, huizi, roger, huimin. that should be about all?? yiroe, haha if ur reading this, u might think "how abt eileen?!" like what i say, "not-my-type". i dont really know how to elaborate.. partly cuz i also dunno who is reading this post. haiz. blogging is so tiring. i hope u guys dont mind me hanging out w u all. its a nice change once in a while. i always have the left-out feeling when im with my housemates. and that is also partly bcuz im isolating myself frm them sometimes. my weird mentality again. grr... . now tt im in a relatively good mood, i shall briefly mention abt the other day when i nearly Nearly lost my temper at a classmate. again, i dunno who might read this, but i shall say that whatever i say here is purely my own POV, and i do not mean to slander. whether u see my stand or not, i dont care. i just wanna vent my feelings here before it buries itself in a small and forgotten corner. as a class rep, she appeared to me as someone who is unwilling to change for the better. unwilling to make efforts to cooperate and work as a team instead of individually. she always think of things from her own POV, and save trouble for herself. it doesn matter to her if the class fxns suckier or everyone had to go thru more trouble. why is it that she was the only one out of four complaining. why is it that others can see that it was part of their duty to help out, and not her. if she wanna quit, let it be. if she wanna stay, please think more openly. i think i shall say till here. its a happy day n i dun wanna spoil it by thinkin abt that incident again. lets hope i can control my temper more and prevent similar incidents frm happening. thanks brandon, lucky u were there. if not i think i would say/do things i prob would regret right now. . happy things! went shoppin w huiming n kaka the other day, at xi dan. i super like that place! alot alot of things, the pple are more willing to talk abt prices, and we can feel the items (unlike at dong wu yuan!), and its not so crowded. n the stuff there are quite nice! bought so many many things! and only for abt sg$100 i totally feel that i bought sg$300 worth of things. things here are so cheap n so i get to try diff fashions which i was relatively reluctant to try back in sg. in a way its really an eye-opener in many ways for me. n we took neoprints! hehe felt so young again... shld take more often cuz its just SO fun! :D  the building we are staying in! looks posh doesnt it?! hehe its quite cosy, even thou it gave us quite some probs.
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the first meal cooked entirely by me! by then we were sick of outside food and this tasted so homely and healthy! yum! im glad i did my homework before i came beijing!
.one of the nice meals i cooked when some friends came to visit! muahahaha~ i cooked everything except for the liang cai on the extreme left. we bought that frm carrefour =) the herbal chicken (yao cai ji) was yummy! and so was the dong gua soup~ hehe! mummy must be proud of me!
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shoppin trip at xi dan! everything for rmb500+ woohoo~!!! bags, clothes, fluffy shoes, books, neoprints, rings, posters.. u name it!
.my cute little froggie slippers to protect my feet frm the cold! the black dot in the middle is my ring-watch! its a ring and its a watch! (like DUH).
.and i bought this on impulse! haha dont it look CUTE?!?!?! bear paws! haha baobao can wear it nxt time when he come visit =) kaka says it looks super scary... hahahaa~
.from the first shopping trip to dong wu yuan! i TOTALLY love my polka-dotted jacket!!! YAY! the stuff on the floor to the left are all mine... huiming n i totally spread out our things on the floor! so shoik~ i spent rmb600+ that day~
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a random pict of kaka n i eating icecream =) icecream is only 1yuan here, ie sg20cents! wow! eat more eat more!
.house visiting on china's national day! yiroe n gang cooked nice nice food! got bakuteh! hehe~ always feel v happy when im w the gang, hope they dun mind my company too!
.my fav suan nai (yogurt)!!! super cheap, very healthy, and DAMN yummy! its definitely one of the things i would miss when i return to sg.
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me, assembling an ikea chair all on my own. not as easy as it seems =( haha but paopei will grow to be a strong n independent little girl! GO GO GO!
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a cute collage of my little boy eating a piggie mooncake! happy mooncake festival! piggie is cute but my little boy is way cuter than it! muackssss*
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^the Queen^
has never realised the importance of computers, handphones, internet and webcams until she comes to beijing. so thankful for these technology...!

enlightened.

2009-09-25T02:10:00.002+08:00

医生，最重要的就是一颗心。
一颗排除万难，也要救活病人的心。
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i found my inspiration. the inspiration that made me think again about my choice of study. my choice of career. all the memory stuff. it doesnt really matter, even thou it does, to a certain extent. eventually, it should be the love that matters. the love that pushes a doctor to study, practice, rethink, and relearn, in order to save more lives.
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now, i know.
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and i hope i'll never forget, this love.
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^the Queen^
enlightened.

败犬女王cont

2009-09-21T01:17:00.002+08:00

从前从前，有一只鳖。它老是把头抬得高高的，好像在等什么东西一样。
别人就问它：“你是在等什么呢？”它就说：“没有啊。我只是在晒太阳而已。”
其实啊，这只鳖在等一只北极熊。痴痴的等。一直等。
终于等到有一天，北极熊从非洲回来了。那现在鳖不是要回到北极熊身边了？
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单无双，你这个鳖女。就为了一个差8岁这个屁理由，就把我甩得远远的。
你小时候数学一定没学好，8横过来看也可以是无限大啊。
(he meant infinite, the symbol of a horizontal 8)
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为什么你这么肯定我们之间一定只能有8岁的差距，而不是无限大的可能？
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我，颅卡斯(Lucas)，万能的打工达人，什么都卖。只有真心No Sale.
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the above was taken frm the thoughts of the the younger guy frm the show. totally touching. i totally cried lor. the way he told her the truth despite knowing that she would probably go back to him. and also, the way he saw 8 years not as 8 years, but infinite possibilities. awwwww....
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if i were her, i would come back to him. afterall, he was the one who stuck thru with her when she was the loneliest, and not when times were good.
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but still, Leslie (the older guy) had totally valid reasons for not able to attend their wedding. haiz. such a hard decision... shall stay up to watch finish the show since tml no morning classes! exciting exciting.
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^the Queen^
wonders what the ending will be? either choice is a happy ending to me!

败犬女王

2009-09-20T03:20:00.003+08:00

right now im feeling very confused.
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dont worry there's no prob in my life now. haha. its cuz i just watched finish the second last episode of 败犬女王 and there are a million thoughts running thru my head currently. for those who have nvr watched it b4 and are intending to watch it, pls dont read the following.
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this beautiful and fairytale-like story is about this woman who was engaged to her senior, but was abandoned eventually on the day they were supposed to announce their wedding to their friends. he left without a word and could not be contacted at all. while they were together, they shared memories, dreams, and just about every romantic think you can imagine. why then, you would ask, did he leave?
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the woman did not know. she could not understand. for six years, she lived in her past. for six years, she became thirty-three years old. for six years, she lost faith in people, and lost trust in love.
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one day, another man appeared. a "boy". their age gap was eight years. he also had a story. the woman he loved died because of an accident, an accident which he blamed himself upon. he also lived in the past, suffered, and struggled to walk out of it. when he did, he realized the one person was the one who helped him walk out of it --- the first woman i've mentioned. when he finally decided to tell her his true feelings, the first man returned.
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apparently, at this point in time (i have yet to view the last episode), what would u choose? to give the older man a chance at explaining, and maybe accept him and forgive him? or to go on with the romance with the younger man, and to experience a whole new experience together?
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it might be pointless to discuss it. i hope this tragedy would nvr fall upon me, and the choice nvr be made. even thou the two guys in the show were terrific, the situation is totally unbearable. to fall in love, then horribly out of love, endure tauntings, and then slowly fall in love again (with the gap of 8yrs), and then to realize your old love is back, vying for ur love. haha~ i keep thinkin, if it were me, who would i choose?
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i still havent really decided.
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probably...if the older guy had a sufficient reason, i would forgive him and be w him. but of course, that would totally destroy the younger one...(who i secretly like more, out of the show! hehe..) BUT, if the reason the older guy gave was (like what was given in the show) for greater good, ie. to take photographs of the third world and present it to the world to increase awareness....bullshit! i would nvr forgive him. for one thing, he left after proposing to her (yea, what the hell), secondly, he placed "third world" above ME. so....NO NO NO. im not those 宽宏大量 type.
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haha~ its 3.40am on a sat night. i shall continue watching it tml and decide if her choice was like mine (i choose the younger guy, since i think i alrdy noe the reason as to why the older guy left...)
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^the Queen^
also a very 花痴 paopei!

happily THIRTY FIVE months!

2009-09-15T21:34:00.004+08:00

NOTE! OUR LONG AWAITED BIRDPARK POST IS UP (THE LAST POST ON THIS PAGE!) haha finally finally... but w/o any narration, just picts. too lazy.... haha but the picts themselves tell a story! =)
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yay~~ today is our thirty five months!! muack muack to baobei~!!!
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this is my first blog post in china, beijing. and this is also the 100th post on our blog!!! been v lazy to blog these days even thou i've got tons to say. alright... so here's s summary of what happened, the photos... maybe another day =X
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staying in a three room apartment w keeka n huiming now, me in a single room w the two of them sharing room (err.. kaka kena fever today, poor huiming need to sleep in living room sofa cuz meng yan wan us to quarantine her. btw, kaka is banned frm going sch for the next three days... diaoz...) ok back to the house. its kinda old, here n there falling apart, esp the toilet. the toilet has been giving us several probs, but aside frm all those little nitty gritty thing....i love this place! my own little cosy room has been described "cosy" and "hall-like" by others, which r prob synonyms for "messy" and "very messy" HAHA. dun care. i like. my room came w a huge cupboard n two (YES, two) beds and a cui table. one of the beds is converted into a table, where i throw everything on. haha literally. let me list the things currently on it now:
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laptop, speaker, tissue paper x 3, sweets, hair clip, scarve, shirt x 3, ftb, shorts, plastic bag x 3, hello kitty soft toy (present frm kk n hm), story book (kite runner), tcm textbooks x 5, tcm exercise books x 5, headset, yu ping feng san, sour plums, baobei's timetable, calculator, hong mei su yan gao x 2 (for my nose), xue li gao (for curbing the dryness), a random magazine, box of paper clips, black pen, blue pen, a box of 8 china black pens, cd of seniors' houses, self-made "sweet" to practice accupuncture on, lab coat x 2, clock, a xiao ren w all the accupunture points on, comb, multi-coloured umbrella, yellow poncho, moisturizer, staple, scissors, cute note pad x 3, post-it pad,  a file, plenty plenty PLENTY of loose paper...
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that should be about all.
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so u can imagine how COSY my little room is! =D without moving much, i can get almost anything ANYTHING i want! ahahhaha~ shoik.
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food is not a prob here too! our place is really surrounded by alot of food! some bad (salty, oily) but many are not bad, n some really fantastic! so far i haven missed sg food alot (actually, not at all, cuz im not a western food fanatic, and the food here r quite similar to those back home, some even nicer, and most are MUCH CHEAPER!) hehe~ the FIRST food-related item i miss... guess what? bubble tea. im serious. i really really miss sg bubble tea. i alrdy missed it when i went hong kong for one wk w baobei. the bubble tea in hk not v nice. in beijing, TOTALLY CMI.
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but i miss eating w baobei... even thou he will steal my food n make me skinnier... i wish baobao is here to share all the super cheap food w me! super nice baos, three for 2.7yuan = sg<60cents! meaning one is less than 20cents -__________- but of course, there'r relatively expensive food too lah.
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shopping... haven really went shopping except at dong wu yuan aka "zoo". this actually collectively refers to the massive shopping areas near the zoo. real massive! i shall not attempt to describe how massive is massive. LOL. anyways i spent over 600yuan last sat there, bought a ton of things back. haha shoik, holiday mood! huiming went w me n she spent 400plus. considering i only spent like sg$120... i bought 3 track pants, 4 pantyhose, 1 long socks, 1 jacket, 1 long sleeve shirt, 1 scarf, 1 spagetti, 1 shirt, 1 bag and food. wow. haha~ the polka dotted jacket is my fav, the highlight of the day, costly 150yuan. hahaha check out my fb display pict to see it. LOL.
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other than dong wu yuan, nvr go anywhere much. got go yong he gong (just alot of buddhas n statues n artefacts, went w roger, brandon, kt n xuhua, after which i went to their place for dinner...YUM YUM. yen can cook! lol.) as well as some "men" cant rem at the moment. haiz. my bdae here was passed in a blur... i was very upset and emo-ed the night before i turned 22. lonely without my little boy around to celebrate w me. nothing interesting can come close to celebrating birthdays with my darling...
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school was fine so far. in fact, i believed i paid more attention here than back in sg. no constant smsing, no being late for class (v strict here, plus im part of class committee, plus meng yan lao shi can directly see who's late...). well, its good in a sense lar. haiz. n speakin of class comm... its actually quite fun n really efficient! glad tt they made up come up w it, if not no one will volunteer to do all the shitty jobs. ntu shld have forced us to do it too... hmm...
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anyways, as a side note, baobei won first prize for hall 3 dnd! lucky shit. he got himself an iPhone. bleah. i also wan new phone!!! baobei sucks.
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my first exam next next wk. haha not gan jeong yet! its actually kinda relaxing here! quite like the life. joined gym membership w a grp of frens 1200yuan for two years, so we actually go tog to free (included in the whole membership) pilates, hip hop, board aerobic lessons! haha super fun n i feel v healthy! n brandon actually found a place to teach us taichi too! at the park near our school. 30yuan for 8 lessons...meaning less than sg$1 per lesson! ha! shall learn abit den go back qiu cuo qie cuo w mummy!!! LOL. so fun :) lessons here r so cheap tt alot of my frens r joining professional dance classes (eg. latin dance, modern dance, exotic dance), singing, er hu, etc etc. HAHA. roger's household even bought a PIANO. diaoz.
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baobei not coming over this dec to visit =( actually, i told him not to. he got fyp which involves wet lab, so might not make it. den again this dec alot of exams to study for, so i wont be able to pei him full time...so....sob sob...so.... he's not coming. n thats final =(
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next yr after he grad he'll come over! for abt a month i hope! hahahah~ but not more than a month cuz if so he need to make visa, go gui di fang no. 1, 2, 3 many many times, n blah blah. so. yea. less than 30 days. which is more than enough! =D i cant wait to go gai gai w u baobei!!! muack!!
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ok la... post too long le. hopefully i feel more likely to post picts nxt time round. hehe. going to bathe den go study lo!!
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a happy n strong little PaoPao
^the Queen^

Hong Kong Trip!!

2009-09-09T18:21:00.015+08:00

hahahaha...finally!! i decide to take the time off for my study (4 project + FYP!!) to upload some foto from our hongkong trip!! not gg to say much..mainly foto ba..

finally after FOC n paopei'fyp we went of to a much deserved trip to HK..but everything wasnt v smooth as we wished..1st thing, i fell sick 2 day b4 the trip!! fever n cough n flu! v worried cant get thru the custom..but lucky, we did go ahead wif the trip even thu my temperature was still quite high but i got well once a reach HK!! =)

2nd thing, for the 5 days we were dere...it rained for 4 days!! !@#@#$#$! hz suay..den..i got sick again the last nite..croz caught in the rain when playing the theme park ride..haha..SUAY!

3rd thing, paopei vise cock up when we came back..as she mention in her post below..but lucky.. we survived thru all things suay-ness and she is safely in Beijing nw..leaving me alone in Singapore.....bleh.

Life's abit different when someone so close to u suddenly leave u for 2 yrs..still coping well nw..but realli realli miss her some times when i see nice stuff and got happy moment wan to share wif her, found gd and cheap offer for food!! haha..so sad.. faster come back!!!

ok for the emo stuff...foto from the HK trip!! =) =) =) =)
waiting to board the plane at Changi..
1st look of hong kong street!! v messy..alot of ppl n v smelly at times..
1st meal..maggie mee!! haha..n is super big bowl
tat's paopao n me.
looking in the mirror. =)

drop some coins..looking for them..=X
at a seafood resturant in the morning for dim sum..
DISNEY LAND!!

it happened to be summer in HK n disneyland is having Stitch summer party..they having a parade and spray water all over the ppl..haha..v fun!my 1st item i bought in HK..7-11 umbrella!! haha..our best fren for 4 day! -_-"
wet wet!where got ppl dare to sit theme park ride and scare to sit cable car one...wuuusssss...
desert is everywhere!
favourite roadside food!curry yu dan!Happy! =)

-e King-

depressed

2009-08-18T15:35:00.002+08:00

if there's any thing above that resembles a God, then he/He must be tryin to stop me from going Beijing.
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Months ago, when we wanted to book air tickets, i "lost" my newly made passport. hence i had to make a new one when i nvr even used that one b4. wasted $50 + $80. in the end, i found the stupid passport after i made the new one.
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during poster day week, i was horribly sick. Mon briefing w zhao yan n janessa, found out that the visa might come back only on mon 10/08, ie i will miss my HongKong trip. i was torn btw sacrificing precious time to make my poster, and being risky to make the visa after my trip. i made the decision to make it after hk.
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hk trip, raining 4.5 out of 5 days.
plus baobei sick 3 out of 5 days.
trip was still very fun thou. need to deal w all the shit once i got back to sg.
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back frm hk. wanted to do visa on mon. left hall in time, wanted to double check passport. realized i forgot to bring it back hall. sian-ed x 1000. called home to ask mummy if its at home. no one pick up home phone. called mummy's hp, she nvr on. went back hall feeling scared, n fell asleep.
mummy called at noon (after the embassy alrdy closed) and asked me whats the prob. i asked her to find my passport, she said cannot find n started to scold me. i looked into my bag again, n found it in a ulu compartment. told her its ok, will make on tues in time for wed's flight.
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wed i woke up early to go embassy make visa. upon reaching, the rude person told me no more one day visa service. #%^!&^@^&%$&*!!!
n she was EXTREMELY rude. shall not repeat what that asshole told me.
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if possible i would have drawn on her face with a pen knife.
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anyways, i was freaked out, n called mummy, baobei, keeka, and even zhao yan. but the decision was fixed. the fastest i could get my visa was thurs morning (my flight was thurs 0015, means i will miss it). and cuz the flight was booked during promotion, i cannot change the date. IE. must CANCEL flight with loss of US$100 ie SGD140, and need to book new ticket.
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what the fuck.
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thanks to baobei, almost everything is settled.
i need more luck there. i have a feeling im not gonna fit in there at all, what with my stupid temper and my lousy luck and the fucked up china pple there.
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^the Queen^
is damn angry and very sad.

leaving...

2009-08-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

each time i picture myself walking thru the airport doors, after that final hug, final goodbye, and then separated by those horrible glass panals...eventually to be separated by thousands of kilometers... i really cant help feeling miserable.
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i think.. jeff chang is still my fav singer. he's the one who i can relate to when im feelin the way im feelin nowadays. n i think that will be the feelin i will feel for the next two years.
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fyp is finally over. it had been a really fun, challenging, tiring, motivating, strengthening, and (unspeakable) experience for me. n i guess, for the other three too. i really have the seniors to thank. but no amt of thanks can make up for it. they've really been indispensable, each and every one of them.
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i love my little ferns. hope they'll continue to grow so prettily, and hope whatever research ive done really made a difference to those living in Bangladesh, really decreased the chances of arsenic toxicity...
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im totally an emo girl these days.
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it was horrible feeling sick for the last week of fyp. writing report at 3-5am with puffy swollen red eyes. for posters, adjusting the silly boxes to align them properly, only to decide to shift them all over again in less than ten minutes. preparing speech and reciting them to seniors, initially a little nervous, but gradually....becoming non-feeling.
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and now, just less than two days away frm hk... little baobao is sick. sigh. really hope he can get well enough to get thru the gate! pls pls pls dun reject us! i think i'll totally cry on the spot if we get stopped. i really need this holiday...
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i find myself thinking what would happen to me if i didnt go to beijing. apparently alot of my classmates thought so too, n they didnt see their future in that direction, and they quit. so...only slightly over 50 pple are still in it. i asked myself why am i still going..and my answer to myself was just: there's nothing else to do if i stay here.
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just go over there, learn to be independent, learn to cook, learn to be a good doc. just come back, take the exam, get married, and then decide what to do, either be a doc, or just..nua? haha~
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i miss mummy too. i hope she stays perfectly the same when i am gone...cant bear it if anything (choy!) happens to her... oh man. thinkin such stuff totally sucks.
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how how how how how can i survive without baobei.
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how how how can our love survive without all the warmth and affection found in day-to-day contact?! i hope nothing sad happens to us... we have to work very hard to keep things the same! neglect will definitely pull us apart... sigh.
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my thoughts r just super messy now, n i keep typing wrongly. pissed. next update...prob after hk? hmmm...
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^the Queen^
grrrrrrrrrr......

2009-07-16T22:32:00.028+08:00

shall just post this picts without any narration... haha~ i love baobei n the trip to birdpark was superb! waiting to have more trips with u!! - written on 15/09/09 by paopei~

999 celebration part ONE

2009-07-16T21:25:00.015+08:00

ok.. this post has been so belated that i feel SUPER guilty. (cuz today... is 060809, almost a month after!)
HAPPY DAY 999, 1000 AND 1001 to US!!!
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DAY 999
10th July 2009
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we went..... PRAWNING! this time, its at lake side~ more fun here, cuz got lucky draw when u catch the few lucky prawns with a "tag" on them! hehe... n light not so glaring, place nearer to ntu, blah blah blah...
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Here's the LARGEST prawn of the night! of Course, this is caught by 本小姐! *ahem ahem* and as usual, 本小姐 caught the FIRST prawn too! in fact, i caught the first FOUR prawns before baobao caught anything! hehe u SUCK baobei~ muack!

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abit cruel... but... hehe oh well they're destined to die under our hands, so... does it really matter if i plucked off the pincers to have some fun?? =X anyways, baobei was the one who did most of the dirty job. muahahah~.
when i brought out my surprise cherry cheesecake for baobei about 1+ hour into the three hours (hidden perfectly in my little bag, unsuspected by the little boy...) Guess What? (he hasnt caught Any prawns yet!) and Guess What again?! (while we were eating the cake, my fish hook moved! ahhahaha i caught another prawnieeee!!!)
u shld have seen his face. hehe he was pouting n saying: NO!! that rod is MINE! (like real.).
haha look at the happy little fat thing holding his first prawnie... but he's lucky too lar, out of the three or four prawnies he caught, TWO had the lucky draw tag!!! the first spin won us a free prawning hour worth $14~ the second spin (oh well, no one can keep being lucky...) we got $1 in cash. lol~ i din manage to get any lucky draw prawnies....
the sadist side of us revealed! dont u think this pict v artistic?! haha... the last prawn was really HUGE..
this time (compared to bottletree prawns) they tasted SO much better! cuz i had the sense to peel them, garnish them w salt before frying them~ hehe... look at the 幸福 look on baobei's face! (of course 幸福 lah, i let him eat my largest prawnie @!%#$^*!&#^%*&!$).
slept 2plus that night, cuz after the prawnies.... we stayed up to complete our....
999 TIME CAPSULE!
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each of us had to write a letter, using own paper/card, and choose 3 items that had special meaning to us, wrap everything up in aluminium foil, and place inside this yellow little box. this is only to be opened another 999/1000 days later :)aint "it" adorable?! (baobei or the little box??)
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the following day...
Day 1000!!!
11th July 2009~
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off we go to....
yup! i wore a little dress! haha haven been wearing dresses... since kor kor's wedding i think. n since he alrdy has two boys..... that must be a real Long time.baobei acting like the eagle! for once he looked slightly skinnier than the bird nxt to him... haha this post so messy... stpd baobao upload picts until lidet. more bird park stuff in the next post~
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a few random pictures...

random indian in the background... while waiting for the monorail. monorail quite useless, so if ur going for birdpark n have plenty of time, just go on foot~ wont miss anything impt :)

Muack! *sucker fish!*

the half done puzzle on day 1000... (which was proudly completed about 2wks after day 999! shall upload nxt time!) dont u think the two botaks resemble us in 50-80yrs time?! hehe~

the weird yo-yo craze which died down within two weekss... heheheh but during the craze...  Pro-Yo!!! u shld have seen us swing it around everywhere, endangering everyone arnd us and acting like ginnas... haha "walk-the-dog" and "around-the-world" and "see-saw"... sound familiar??? nearly contemplated buying another more expensive yoyo.. lol~

lab outing to Sungei Buloh! shld have taken a few more picts! i wish i had time to go for more outdoor trips like huiping... sighs... really had nthg to tell the Quantum Physics european students (we were the "tour guides" u see....)... abit paiseh :(
haha but like what hafiz said, even if i told them that spider we saw (which someone asked me what species it was) was Pityrogramma Calomelanos (err... the name of one of my FERNs) they wont realize it. MUAHAHAHHAA... evil.outing at huimin's place afterwards... haha huiping's sense of co-ordination super bad (ok la.. maybe only in the music sense... hehe) look at her using her hands to press the "pedal" meant for legs... -______-

hehe.. yummy yam paste n sucky sesame paste! baobei looks like he's poisoned...

our fav dessert for the time being~ banana crumble at swensen's!
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-post to be continued-
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^the Queen^
two more days to the end of FYP...
and four more days to the start of HK!

2009-07-12T22:34:00.003+08:00

after tat emo emo entries, she pop up of my window at 3am..-_-" thot she was kidding when she call n say she outside my window nw..den i finally climb out of bed and saw her stand dere. stupid dodo bird. muack HUGZ! =) sorry to make u have the slightest idea tat im not interested. hopefully i've made it up to u. thankx for coming to support us on our 1st league game in woodland, even thou we lost..sian..haha..but i'm happy u came. =)

Happy belated day 999th, 1000th and 1001st!! =) enjoy our short 2 days celebration with alot of fun and unexpected happenings. Hope tiz is the memorable day for you paopei, croz is one of my favourite times wif u..haha..RMB to post and upload all the birdys and prawnys pic!! =)

-e King-

*stuck in the lab wif the dodo bird..grind grind grind...bleh.

angry

2009-07-05T00:27:00.002+08:00

i dont want all these to be happening.

i'm currently feeling disappointed in YOU.

its such a special day to us, why cant u appear slightly more interested?

at least if you couldnt come up w an idea urself, you could have be more enthusiastic in mine.

i dont want to talk to you right now.

maybe not even tomorrow.

if you're feeling tired about all these, let me know, i'll let it drop. forget abt all these childish gestures, all these lame events. dont try to appear interested and then get bored abt it. if you cant be bothered, tell me. i dont know what my reaction will be, probably "you've changed! u suck!" but at least i wont expect you to try so hard next time. at least when expectations are low, i wont feel so disappointed when the time comes. you should know what i mean.

i know you DO try alot of times. but... this is one of the few events left before i leave. i had hoped it would be really memorable.

leave me alone for now. i need to think.

^the Queen^

will our 999 be memorable... in a different way?

feeling happy~

2009-06-28T17:33:00.003+08:00

at home now, after tuition n before a delicious dinner :D really think i like tuition, even thou it makes me really tired sometimes. happy to see my tuitees happy after they understood an especially difficult concept, happy to see them score better at exams n tests. happy when i can solve qns on topics tt i had not touched in a very very long time. lol. its just indescribable.

met up with my psch frens last fri. really super long nvr see a large proportion of them. oh man, ten years just passed like that, n we're all so grown up now le. so.... haiz. a little sad tt the most of the usual gang nvr come. weesiang, yuanrong, weeboon, jasmine, thiam boon... from our usual gang, only me, mingwei n connie turned up. PANG SEH KIAS lor all of them. i also miss kangwen! hahaha saw his picts on facebook, he really seems so much happier and hair so much curlier! a different him. glad that he's having a great time at Imperial College on a scholarship... proud of him too! he's the only one to be on a prestigious scholarship. considering we're frm the best class of Bedok South Primary School 1999 class~ hehe~ was in a very pleasant mood during the gathering.

jingjie - like OH MY GOD. haha he's like freakin tall now?! the last time i saw him was seriously in primary sch, haha den he was half a head shorter, chubbier, n much cuter =X haha... now he's huge. but he still talks the same way! haha n he remembered how i tortured him back in those days...forced him to listen to ah zhe's songs! hehehhehehe!

menghwee - haha he's still a little weird, as usual (ok, corrected, alot!) althou he changed frm tengnang pai (chinese type) to angmoh pai (english type), i feel that he's still a little shy, a little scared of expression, and abit hard to understand. but its great to remember he was the reason for my superb hanyupinyin! thanks menghwee!!!

fadilah - still as pretty as ever! lol she has very nice curls~ i really like that. n she also appears very happy, now studying history at NUS. hmmm, to think we used to compete alot in class! haha i always thought she was relatively jealous of my grades (oh man she better not see this!) but yea, it was healthy competition n i guess all of us benefitted from it in some way or another.

the two shahidas - not so close to them but it was still great to see them~ a little sian cuz must be aware tt must speak in channel 5... haha. i always think many things cannot be properly expressed in english alone (or chinese alone.) i love being a typical singaporean!

sharon - LOL she's still as.......err......searchin for the right word, hmmm......"sharon?" haha she's just so sharon. someone with a distinct character, talks alot, very opinionated, even more so now that she is more confident now as compared to the past. a little not used to her speakin in mainly eng now thou... :)

guofeng - haha still appears blur! nthg much to say since it wasnt very long since i last saw him. hehe... he's a very funny person to have around~

mingwei - too bad our common gang not arnd! if not can end our gatherin w a long-missed mj session! i like the part u rem jasmine's bdae cuz she used her mechanical pencil n kept poking u with it while muttering the date for days! hahaha SO SO typical of her!! hilarious. n u said thiamboon become body builder?! i cant wait to see him sia. hmmm...

connie - our camcorder for the transient six yrs in BSPS. lol u can even rem Asysik sat in front of me n we used to bully him tog!! n all the little details that would be so dear to all of us years n years later... n HEY what the hell, wang lao shi super double-standard lor! now that i find out he used to buy assessment books for you?!?! KAOS... hahha i recall feelin REALLY jealous he pays so much attention to ya n not me. haha remember? im a super big attention seeker. lol. n cheers to my specs. i cannot forget how he pointed out how i wrongly wore my first pair of specs! until today i still cannot forget. NEVER!!! haha.

ying ning - still as skinny, if nt skinnier. haha ur little bro prob wont recog any of us nowadays.. but would like to see him in person, see if he really as goodlooking as u said! the part abt our building an airport at ur place is really nostalgic. haha with toilet rolls as body and clay top, no wonder it wouldnt stand up properly! ahaha n i rem ur mom made me face away frm ur shen tai whenever i sat down, as a form of respect to the god). i used to think it was rubbish! (n i still think so! bleah~) n ur mom also said ah zhe's canto suck. hahaha i used to defend him, i rem! so cute...

sylvia - hehe no offence but u definitely 发福-ed! hahaha i still recall how peipei, u n i used to rave over ah zhe's songs! so cute tt the two cute girls (i mean u n peipei) n the noisy ME were so crazy over him. hahaha i suddenly recall that time i had two pens, one green, one pink, the green one represented 马景涛, aka 小马哥, while the pink one represented ah zhe, den yuanrong once accidentally bumped into/dropped one of them, n i made him apologize to the pen! ahhahaha SIAO-ed.

? anyone i missed out during the gathering? hope not! haha hafiz daud, i wish we would get chance to meet up w him! i rem he was not bad looking, but connie said he was the heartthrob of our sch, n sharon revealed she had a crush on him b4! wahahahZ~ dunno if he's still as shuai as last time? or better? hahaha i cannot imagining me ever having a crush on malay boys, but some of them are admittingly real cute! wonder how is big bully mahmud too? lol. used to hate him intensely at times in the past! n yanting, she has broken out of herself n can speak up so much more now, so i heard. good for her! so many more things to say but im kinda speechless now. the awesome feelin of time that passed...ticked by...

readin The Life of Pi now. a very unusual book, that stirred up some deep thinkin on my part. the stark reality of life is all about survival in the simplest sense. i wonder if i have the courage to face up to life if i were placed in such situations as him...

will update on my FYP soon! loads to say~ i love my little fernies! grow grow grow!

thanks to baobei baobei for the wonderful swenson's meal! haha love love love the wonderful banana crumble! *slurps* happy that our Day 999 is coming! hehehe so happy happy~ we're happily growing old together :D :D

^the Queen^

currently in a very happy mood.

but sighs, i know the happy feelin is usually very fleeting. ltr must go back hall stare at my fyp report again -____________-

durian durians! free durians!

2009-06-24T00:45:00.010+08:00

OUR DURIAN STORY

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it all started with this little half rotten durian.
jitchern told us NIE got durian trees, we dun believe... haha so i pestered him to show me, n he brought me to see see! ta-da! i picked my first, but inedible durian back hall to show baobei! amazingly, i din see the Maggots in the hole... haha i still forced baobei to open it see the other side can eat anot.. unsurprisingly.. CANNOT. and he scratched his fat palm while openin it... hehe dumb dumb!
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then we decided to just buy one cuz we very gian... but we din wanna just eat them, we wan open the durian ourselves.... so.... we smuggled one onto 199 bus... hehee! uncle smelt something wrong n keep turnin to look at us! haha since there were only US n one other person (which alighted soon after), it was quite obvious who caused the strong smell in the bus... plus we were giggling away n lookin super suspicious -______-
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undeterred by the rotten durian... i went up the slope with baobei one fine evening when it was still bright... and within 15 minutes, i heard PLARK, followed by rustling of leaves, then a super loud POMP, and we turned around to see the durian fall to the ground, roll n roll until near the nie pond! i gave chase immediately, with baobei cheering me on! hahaha so EXCITING can?! it was huge, n rolled very close to the edge of the slope which leads to the pond, but luckily it stopped there! imagine my happiness when i picked up my first durian of my life! *couldnt stop smiling!*

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after which, in my utmost eagerness to open the durian... i took up my fruits knife (while baobei told me he go level 6 pantry to look for tools to open durian), foolishness overcame me n i treated the fruits knife like a durian knife, n chopped down on the durian, the way u chop it using a durian knife (EXCEPT that it WASNT a durian knife in the first place...)
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end up... i was too embarrassed to tell baobei what happened when he appeared n saw me holdin my fat thumb which was bleeding non-stop. muahaha.. this must be one of the most retarded things ive done in my life...
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nonetheless! i was still super enthu over durians, n that very SAME night, i pestered baobei to go with me to pick durians again!
ta-da! a baby one! hehe... cuz it was alrdy dark, n we got no torchlight, so it was kinda hard to use handphone light to find the durian after hearing the POMP... but I DID IT! haha n was covered in sweat after finding it... climb up n down in the dark hor!
because huiping's dad passed me three durians, on top of the fat one we picked that afternoon, we decided not to eat this small one... so i brought it home! over the mrt! hahaha~ im GOOD. i wrapped it in three plastic bags!
mummy is a durian expert! she got it opened in less than a min! chop, chop, open le... amazed... anyways this small one tasted extremely nice! but..... that very same night (after going cycling n intense arcade w shinwei/maggot) i felt sick/fell sick... fever. grrrr...
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i still wan pick! haha right after i recovered, the following day i picked this! just walked arnd there after my FYP finish... den i saw this lying on the floor!
funny shape one! haha... cant even detect the pigu which is supp to open up the lines after u poke a knife in. -__-"""
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end up...
we dig our way thru!
and through the small holes we dug, we used our fingers to dig the flesh out! haha it was altogether a very very messy affair.
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Pick Of The Season!
this humongous durian was picked on 22nd June (Mon), yellow in colour n prob more than 1kg in weight! i couldn sleep that night, so, near midnight, i went for a walk there alone w my torchlight (i koped frm my FYP lab!)... walk walk walk, then reachin end of the stretch, a very loud n characteristic PLARK, rustling of leaves, and POMP! hahaha super lucky lah! not even 5 min den got one drop le! in my eagerness, i nearly sprained my ankle running after it in the dark. haha i tried to linger around in hope of another one droppin, but at midnight everything seemed somewhat scarier and eerier... so i left after ten min or so...
xiang xiang! n WOW! look at all the meat! haha over 20 seeds inside, but wasnt as nice or as fleshy compared to the small little one i brought home, or the one we bought at boonlay mrt... hmmm...
haha this big one was opened today, together with the small one i picked today... i brought picnic mat up! i sat there for approx 2 hrs but only picked this. cuz got one annoying uncle sat under two of the trees... den during these two hrs his side drop 2 small ones! if he weren't arnd i would have gone back with THREE small durians instead of only one!!! ANGRYYYY!!!!
baobao was nice enough to dabao for me n eat with me at the durian area! haha both of us served as food for the mosquitoes/red ants there... i had NINE bites in total on my two thighs =X but it was quite worth it! hehe~
small little one! so cute~ haha but the meat was very hard n inedible... lol~
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haha end of durian story for now! prob will go pick more over the nxt few days but...the durians getting less le. season almost over le...sianz. plus after the super big one, both of us got sore throat. haha! pls pls dun let me fall sick again!!!
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something funny~
baobei is off to reservist this wk n next, but i go out to meet him for dinner ydae, n today he gets to book out to stay in hall~ haha last wk i drew some funny faces on his tummy! dun be amazed at how his belly button can portray such vivid expressions!!!
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"i feel sleepy"
."i'm happy and contented!"
."huh?! why u lidet....."
."dun disturb me, i playing DOTA"
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LOLS.
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Sushi Making Session TWO!mummy said our skills improved! ahha thanks to the wonderful mayonaise! everything add mayo will taste nice! hehehee~
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just a random pict of baobei which is currently my wallpaper on my phone!
haha he trying to act like the Blob in Monsters Vs Aliens... those who watched it... u know that part! "i got my jell-O~" hahaha....
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muacks to baobei! i love doing stpd things with ya!
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^the Queen^
its been long since i posted!!! haha~

2009-06-15T21:56:00.005+08:00

been a long time since either of us blog..being lazy and alot of game to play..haha..

aniwae,

abit late but Happy Birthday Isa!! =) had fun at the chalet..seldom get to see the lvls 5 gang gathering at another place other den blk B lvl 5..haha..lots of laughter playing card game n drinking... paopei masterpiece.. machiam got chicken pox lidat..basket..the paint v hard to remove..rub until my skin damn pain..

went to west coast park to fly kite..paopei bought a spiderman balloon for me from the carpark carnival..V cute! haha..tie it ard my hand and immediately got alot of attention from all the kids we walk past.
"Spiderman Spiderman!!"
bleh. so old liao still tie one spiderman balloon. haha..still got ppl ask we we got it when we went jurong point in the evening.hehe.

once again, we didnt manage to get our new kite to stay in the air for 1 mins..juz like all the pervious kite, we couldnt get it to fly..damn sian..in the end.. the stupid paopei came up with a STUPID-ER idea....
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FLY THE SPIDERMAN BALLOON. nice.
haha..damn paiseh..the rest fly the kite so high..deere we only attached the string to the balloon n jzu let it fly up..haha..got a few times still disturb the fly-kite ppl..hehe..damn irritating..but the stupid paopei is DAMN happy abt it..keep lett it fly and walk ard wif it..ACT.

Our new 'cheeky' kite which cant fly and the spiderman flowing at the back. -_-"

Relaxing at West Coast Park. =)

went to kbox jurong safra for its opening promotion. only 10 dollars nett per pax! shiok. 1st time since dunno hz long ago sing at kbox..v impress with the system..touchscreen wif alot of new function..sing for more den 6 hrs! wooo!! shld go again b4 the promotion end!

OOur new found pastime.............PICKING durian at NIE!! tat's right! NIE! haha..alot of ppl don believe when we told them but is true.. if u happened to go past NIE..take note at the slope above the pond..u will seee uncles n aunties hanging ard dere..n u will also see me n paopao waiting wif them..haha..damn fun..the moment u hear the sound..everyone will rush the find the fallen prize..hehe..we manage to got a large one on our 1st day n a small on the sme nite..the taste is not bad..but i personally feel tat smaller one are nicer den the bigger ones..=)

happy little girl! =)
texting everyone from her FYP abt her durian..ha

as usual..the stupid shit..in a moment or eager-ness, she try to chop the durian wif a kitchen knife the way u chop a piece of meat..hand on the durian and chop the shell..-_-""
in the end, a bleeding thumb. dumb ass.. haha..lucky she not very accurate..if not her whole thumb might juz be gone..

not only that, her fren also gave us afew durian..in the end, i tink we ate up ago 6 durian in the past 4 days...shiok n shag.. nw throat abit sore and paopei is down wif fever too..bleh.

Happy 32nd months! =) muack!

-e King-

PS: finally the Lakers is the Champion! Woooo!! but sian..nw no more nba or soccer o watch...

Finally!!

2009-05-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

yes la!! finally after waiting for ard 2 mths...my patience has pay off....my BLUEY can play ISO games le!! yeah! so happy!! after trying n trying so many time..i finally got it.. and the things is..i get to save $$ to bring it to mod. hehe..thx paopei for Bluey again! time to play lots of games!! yipee!!

-e King-

Pom Pom + dot dot

2009-05-28T22:34:00.003+08:00

IN MEMORY OF
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Pom Pom + Dot Dot
10th May 2009 - 25th May 2009

we will miss ya...

fishies

2009-05-28T22:01:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. feeling v emo for the last post. my two poor goldfishes died, both together, peacefully thou. n i cried like hell. this is the second time i cried over fishes, althou i had my fair share of fishes. the first fishie i cried over was over my very first fish, a guppy i named "Jenny". it stayed with me for a few years i think. haha tell ya a secret! (i used to give myself a christian name --- Jenny!) so the fishie was actually named after myself... n it actually gave birth to a baby guppy! (which i named Jenny baby, HAHA i know, super no creativity...) well anyways i cried like shit when Jenny died. for the entire day my eyes were swollen, n my mum was super upset too when she saw my reaction. she was like "不要养鱼了啦，看你哭成这样子..." same for my little Pom Pom n Dot Dot three days ago. i grew to adore them so much alrdy.......the way they'r forever greedy n looking hungry! i love their fat bodies n how they grew even fatter under our love. so that day, this mon, when they lost interest in the food (the first time there were leftovers in the tank!) and they looked very moody n stayed near the surface of the water, i knew something was super wrong. but i couldn figure out whats the prob... n they both died shortly after. i kept blaming baobei for that, but i guess we were both too inexperienced to be in charge of little lives... and for that, im so sorry for the fishes which ended up in our care...
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anyways~ this is a little random but..........
i love baobei n i hope we can have our little home of five as well as our happy little business in years to come! lalala~ muack!
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^the Queen^
PS. my hair is now purple n pink n very pretty! haha zilian-ing again...

im sorry, my little ones...那

2009-05-25T22:41:00.003+08:00

不会再对我嘟嘟嘴，
不会再对我摇摇头，
早晨不会再对我说声“早安！主人”，
fyp 过后不会再对我说声“你回来啦！辛苦了”，然后对我摇摇头，晃晃大肚子找吃的，
晚上不会再对我说“晚安，睡觉时我会守护着你，别担心！”
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对不起。
明知道有什么地方出了问题，知道你们不快乐，不再贪食，不再摇摇头，但却摸不透问题出在哪里。就这样的，你们悄悄离开了我们，离开了 3B-05-01S.
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希望你们到的地方，不会再有笨笨的主人。
希望你们，曾经开心过。
希望你们，是毫无痛苦的离去。
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我，我们，是不会把你们遗忘的。

in a satisfied mood

2009-05-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

a few things tt makes me feel im relatively happy at the moment~

i have 300g of famous amos cookies sitting in my room now!
i just had a superb dinner thanks to jitchern's bdae! i nvr ate such a feast at sakae before, yum yum! n we (the students on fyp) only had to pay $10 each! hehehehe! huiping ah huiping, so sad u missed out on it :(
my little fishies are growing very well! they greet me every morning when i wake up, before i leave for fyp, when i get back frm fyp, with the super adorable "i am HUNGRY" look! hahaha~ n i seriously think they're getting impossibly fat. pls dun go "POOM!" one day...
im enjoying a certain degree of independence regarding both fyp projects im carrying out... the fernies n my iron oxide. i can say i've put in quite some effort over them, and the only thing that is lacking is the determination to read up on more papers! my god, the papers passed down since generations ago... i have at least 4 inches thick of them!!! GRRRR... ok on the brighter side, at least my proj is going fine. im thinking of just using my beautiful brake ferns n ignoring my ugly/slow-growing/dying silver ferns! hehe shall hint that to dr yong some day...
going to sentosa this sat! w my pink hair! hehe haven dye back yet. very reluctant to let go of them after all the hours put in to dye/cut. maybe...maybe...end of may go dye back...see how first!
after sentose, shall be eating froggie at kallang again! yum yum! always look forward to goooooood meals :D

ok... back to reading my papers... happy birthday to jitchern! sorry for all the "you are OLD" jokes! haha in reality u look really young for ur age~ must be all the greenery n hard labor every day! haha...must thank dr yong for that...
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^the Queen^
is wishing for some unexpected holiday!

boy crazy

2009-05-12T21:25:00.003+08:00

我喜欢执着的人。
这几天在看一部几年前推出的戏，发现自己不年轻了。
因为思想变了。
但越不年轻（我不喜欢“老”这个字），就会悄悄发觉一些平日觉得不重要、不起眼的事／人，其实自己是多么的在乎。尤其是一些藏在心中深深的感触，真正感动、触动时，一发不可收拾。
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你有想过以下这句话吗？
“年轻人真好，想做什么就做什么。”
但，是真的吗？
年轻时，真的想做什么就做什么吗？能做得到吗？
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有人对已说过这句话吗？
“你还年轻，未来还有很多时间让你去实现梦想呢。”
哦，那到底是要等到长大之后才做想做的事？还是乘年轻时做呢？
梦想？究竟是什么？为什么现在的年轻人（尤其是日本连续剧中的叛逆青年！）一直在“追寻梦想”？
是不是绝大部分的人，年轻时有着梦想，成长过后，因为身边的各个因素，而逐渐无法实现，逐渐逐渐把梦想已忘了呢？还是说，绝大部分的人，其实从小到大就没有什么梦想，不知道什么是梦想，就这样平平淡淡度过一生。
你，又会是哪一类的人呢？
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i miss those days. miss those days when i just do whatever i want. it was a happy feeling. yet there was always consequences to bear after doing whatever i wanted.
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like skipping classes when i cant wake up, like missing trainings on rainy days, like running out of school with the security guard yelling at me, like spending a full fifteen minutes gelling my hair even though im running late for lessons, like falling fast asleep on my bed right after a training, like dyeing my hair any colour i wanted and keeping it until all the colour faded away, like sleeping until i felt sick of sleeping, like singing at the top of my voice in the middle of the night, like chatting over the phone w my best friend till the sun came up, like crying as loud as i want until my throat is sore n i couldnt cry anymore...
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anyways, the very last one was when i was very young. i remembered i had a crazy wish to cry so that the whole block can hear my voice, so i was actually very proud that i could cry so loud. Muahaha! don't you pity my mom?!
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okays. at least i did alot of things i wanted before. i just hope i am able to keep up with this attitude n not let society erode me... not let the real me become jaded and turn into "one of the rest"! i shall be the one and unique ME!
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^the Queen^
有些人，“只能越来越爱”。

Bring Back The HIGHBURY's Day!!

2009-05-10T23:52:00.003+08:00

sorry paopao..i long time nvr blog..den i long tonite is because of my 2nd love in life....hehe..

juz wan to get something of my chest...my Arsenal is so DISAPPOINTING tis season!! ARSENE WENGER...U r killing my beloved GUNNERS wif ur proven-wun-win-any-trophy-n-big-games youth policy!! argh!!! is been realli heartache to see us losing to all e other rivals and important games.. the way we lose is v disappointing..the team is so weak and soft..and they doesnt hz to fight like a man sometime...sometime i feel that a team like maybe everton or boltan play betta den us..at least they FIGHT! we juz go down n sink w/o an answers..argh...pls rmb how u lead us to the 2 double's and the 'invinciable' season...i am quite sure the team that achieve those wonderful seasons were not consisting of 22 yrs olds....come on..add more steels to our team..look at Arshavin..wat a impact he had been.. a quality player is betta den 'very talented' youngster...we dun always have the next 2 season to wait for them to grown up...pls spent the $$...or better..sell some player away...like number 17,2,26 and 25...or even juz change the manager..get tony adam=p

and at the time of this entry...wif nth to play for anymore but pride..we r losing to chelsea 2-0..where is e pride............someone tell me...wat is wrong...

oh ya..on a happier side..we got ourselves 2 new goldfish!!! is my favourite kind..i called them ping pong fish..those tat haf a big n round body..v funny one..anyway, paopei named them pom pom and dot dot..hopefully they wun die so fast like e 2 b4..=X we r nw more perpare to 'yang' them..consulted abit from my lao pa..hopefully it helps...

IA gotta end!! yeah!! finsih wif my report too!! yeah!! no more waking up early in the morning at 6!! yeah!!! =) holiday holiday holiday!!! slp slp slp!! eat eat eat!!

-e King-

on my Freaking shit...is 3-0 nw.....at home!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~

2009-05-10T04:31:00.002+08:00

Personality: Choleric Sanguine

Melancholy 13%
Strength:3 Weakness:2

Phlegmatic 8%
Strength:3 Weakness:0

Sanguine 20%
Strength:3 Weakness:5

Choleric 60%
Strength:11 Weakness:13

(Strengths of a Choleric)

The Choleric's Emotions

Born leader
Dynamic and active
Compulsive need for change
Must correct wrongs
Strong-willed and decisive
Unemotional
Not easily discouraged
Independent and self sufficient
Exudes confidence
Can run anything

The Choleric As A Parent

Exerts sound leadership
Establishes Goals
Motivates family to action
Knows the right answer
Organizes household

The Choleric As a Friend

Has little need for friends
Will work for group activity
Will lead and organize
Is usually right
Excels in emergencies

The Choleric At Work

Goal oriented
Sees the whole picture
Organizes well
Seeks practical solutions
Moves quickly to action
Delegates work
Insists on production
Makes the goal
Stimulates activity
Thrives on opposition

(Weaknesses of a Choleric)

The Choleric's Emotions

Bossy
Impatient
Quick-tempered
Can't Relax
Too impetuous
Enjoys controversy and arguments
Won't give up when losing
Comes on too strong
Inflexible
Is not complimentary
Dislikes tears and emotions
Is unsympathetic

The Choleric As A Parent

Tends to over dominate
Too busy for family
Gives answers too quickly
Impatient with poor performance
Won't let children relax
May send them into depression

The Choleric As a Friend

Tends to use people
Dominates others
Knows everything
Decides for others
Can do everything better
Is too independent
Possessive of friends and mate
Can't say, "I'm Sorry"
May be right, but unpopular

The Choleric At Work

Little tolerance for mistakes
Doesn't analyze details
Bored by trivia
May make rash decisions
May be rude or tactless
Manipulates people
Demanding of others
End justifies the means
Work may become his god
Demands loyalty in the ranks

well... this test i saw sinhui's results n, being bored, i took it myself. guess the terms i chose alrdy revealed who i am. but OUCH, some of the descriptions REALLY ring true, n i can see myself in the light many people see me in, but seriously, i usually dont care, unless im dealing w pple who dun like me for long periods of time.

phrases like "Decides for others", "Possessive of friends and mate", "Can't say, "I'm Sorry"", "Is Unsympathetic", "Work may become his god", and especially "May be right, but unpopular" probably hurt the most... i think im not a nice person to handle, but im a loyal friend to have, so if ur even considered to be my good friend, consider yourself "rare"... haha but it might not necessary be a good thing. awwwws.

anyways, feelin abit emo 5am in the morning lar.. haha~ going to sleep le... tml 1130 still got tuition...

^the Queen^

is wondering what a mixed person she can be. and if she could, would, become a nicer n "bigger" person.

so sinful...

2009-05-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

been eating ALOT recently. sighz. was tellin my fyp frens/seniors tt i can one day eat one meal during exams, n they thought i might be anorexic. HAHA. how much further frm the truth can they dwell? i love food! just tt sometimes i can get too lazy to even eat =X lalala~ but recently im feeling hardworking...to EAT! hehe~ nearly finished off an entire strawberry roll on my own just now, after a cheesy yummy long john meal not many hrs ago... n still thinking of maggie mee as supper ltr! muahahaz! n poor baobei recently looked into the mirror n realized the truth regarding how FAT he has become, n so, he made a point to run every night... at 10pm. haha... we'll see how long he can last :P

(baobei wans to say bye bye to the 20 loco rocco life!!)
(now u understand why we adore the game so much! sooooo cute!)
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fyp has truly gotten rolling! n i think i quite like the people there~ haha roger, huiping n huimin tog w me at the place, i think they're all fine pple, dun have any probs w them, happy tt im not stuck there w pple like nicolas, or any workaholics... haha~ jitchern (my main in-charge) is a serious, dedicated, yet hilarious person (only when he couldn stop laughing, usually at funny memories of past students' behavior, or at fantasy stories of torturing doc yong etc etc). yanfei is nice~~~ haha she would always stop whatever she is doing to answer to my queries, n thats really nice of her... i really wonder how can doc yong get pissed w such an amiable person. hope i dun get a chance to get into similar troubles... hafiz is nice too, kinda talkative n loves to tell stories. haha quite fun to have him around, esp when he's frm sbs too, got some 亲切感. arthur appears to be abit blur to me, n abit of a slacko... haha he always encourages pple not to be too serious, must get a life, be good n "bless" pple... hahaha... like what jitchern demo today, he grows a "halo" on his head when he starts elaborating on not expecting anything for return for a treat saumei gave the other day... ^haha^ saumei is the 神 of the whole lot... frm wad i heard, she's been tolerating doc yong since years back. haha n she's really good at tissue culture~ haha looks v fun but i guess to her is boring until cannot tahan, cuz its so repetitive! oh, n karen, my sbs senior who juz finished her poster day... hmmm think she's just suay tt so many things nvr worked out for her la, she has been really nice to me too, teaching me many many things n sparing time to come down even though she is not obliged to do so. yeah, with so many nice seniors, HOW CAN I DUN DO WELL FOR FYP?! haha~ as im typing this, im kinda guilty, havent been reading up on papers =X n been obsessed w ff10 these days. after one long day at nie, plus a few intensive hrs of ff10, i usually get KO-ed as early as 12am. haha~ there goes the day...
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happy mother's day to all 伟大的妈妈们!
this sunday is dedicated to ya all~!
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^the Queen^
is feeling quite bloated. happily bloated.
PS, i'll be dyeing back my hair v soon le! hurry jio me out! if not no chance to see it lo~ *winks*

life is getting unhealthy! :[

2009-05-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

okays so its two weeks or so into "holidays"... cant say im not enjoying it, but its really getting v unhealthy for me! what with many meals of fastfood a wk, hours in front of tv playing ff10 (i noe i noe, i v v v LAG, haha but its still fun after all these years! n ive nvr played it b4!) and hours playing psp... too many games in our room le. dun really spend time w baobei at all. feeling guilty... sianz. shall draw up a daily timetable ltr to limit myself! n to spend time on my ferns too...
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i think my fyp proj is fine. went for poster day today, think many of our seniors really did a good job :) i think whats most impt for poster day is clarity, a good summary, and confidence. ultimately no one really wanna hear all the teeny weeny details, so i think a broad overview, highlighting the most interesting discoveries as well as the analysis of statistics were the most appealing to me. hehe just my own POV~ had some fun today "examining" pple like zheng wei, zi xian, denis, zhihui etc, out of which i think denis did a very good and thorough job! :D
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met up w maggot the other day, played some bball at her place... haha one ah beng made my day by tellin me my hair v cool. anyways her bro grew super tall le... frm ~160 (abt ten yrs ago!) to the current 181cm. haha~ n frm last time we had to promise not to jump when he shoot, till now he can hang damn long and jump damn high and 3-pters super accurate. -_______- life can be so unfair. hahah~
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which also reminds me of a sad fact actually. i dont have many close friends. i dunno why, but maybe im afraid of being disappointed, or im afraid i would become too sticky, so i close myself off frm people in general. i cant say im v happy with the current situation im in, but at least, i know there can be worse situations to be in, n im glad ive found a best friend in my baobei, who would stick w me thru thick or thin. w/o him i prob would have better grades (MUAHAHA) but definitely much less happiness.
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really hope the pigs would behave themselves and let us go for our long-awaited hongkong trip!! really dunwanna kena quarantine, cuz my flight to beijing would definitely be affected if kena quarantine :( :( such an unlucky year for me... getting my hk trip cancelled would be the last straw. SERIOUSLY.
i think i would go crazy.
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^the Queen^
hopes the suayness would not spread to hk trip, my little ferns, my baobei, n tuition. n many many other things. sometimes everything just sucks.

Be Here for Good things!! Good things always happen to Happy People!

belated new year resolutions

3 more days to 赵和庆中医诊所!

梦想、爱情、期待

我的小国，我的监狱。

心得

Mundane life~

卢卡斯+单无双

Ha-noi-noi-noi~~~

First morning in ha-noi-noi-noi~

Photoshoot, housewarming, interns, Malaysia!

Dont lie.

fb depression n fb humour :D

Squishy Squashy Fun!

新起点！

To-do-list for post-STRE

Squashed papaya :(

Paper One, circle line cui.

Sharing my thanks~

A *real* Clinic!

The third apple that changed the world.

Subconscious STREss

Im not useless.

Hungry-Gian-What?

The one "plain" guy I have :)

太美的回忆像副手铐

First step in our life together!

Rain n Shine~

Our 5th 儿童节!

Master n Slave

Pre-STRE life~

Teochew Pengyou n I

Fat boy is back!

愚公移山

When I get bored n I have long hair.

Dont work too hard.

Forever honeymoon period

多的是 你不知道的事

Will you marry me?

Some recent photos~

Im back....maybe?

the beautiful truth.

world cup fever

the Low... after the high.

the lazy baobei's blogpost email

a very nice day with most part of the pig!

random things tt i've been wanting to blog abt

happy 25th bdae! to baobei baobei~

why sg is so Naise~

Baobei is coming to China!

paopei deficiency

snowy morning! and class halloween celebration!

First Snow!

food updates~

shopping in beijing!

justin + julian!

3 yrs!!!! =) =)

Dinnner!!!

money money

random thoughts of beijing

enlightened.

败犬女王cont

败犬女王

happily THIRTY FIVE months!

Hong Kong Trip!!

depressed

leaving...

999 celebration part ONE

angry

feeling happy~

durian durians! free durians!

Finally!!

Pom Pom + dot dot

fishies

im sorry, my little ones...那

in a satisfied mood

boy crazy

Bring Back The HIGHBURY's Day!!

so sinful...

life is getting unhealthy! :[

A real Clinic!

多的是你不知道的事