right now im feeling very confused.
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dont worry there's no prob in my life now. haha. its cuz i just watched finish the second last episode of 败犬女王 and there are a million thoughts running thru my head currently. for those who have nvr watched it b4 and are intending to watch it, pls dont read the following.
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this beautiful and fairytale-like story is about this woman who was engaged to her senior, but was abandoned eventually on the day they were supposed to announce their wedding to their friends. he left without a word and could not be contacted at all. while they were together, they shared memories, dreams, and just about every romantic think you can imagine. why then, you would ask, did he leave?
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the woman did not know. she could not understand. for six years, she lived in her past. for six years, she became thirty-three years old. for six years, she lost faith in people, and lost trust in love.
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one day, another man appeared. a "boy". their age gap was eight years. he also had a story. the woman he loved died because of an accident, an accident which he blamed himself upon. he also lived in the past, suffered, and struggled to walk out of it. when he did, he realized the one person was the one who helped him walk out of it --- the first woman i've mentioned. when he finally decided to tell her his true feelings, the first man returned.
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apparently, at this point in time (i have yet to view the last episode), what would u choose? to give the older man a chance at explaining, and maybe accept him and forgive him? or to go on with the romance with the younger man, and to experience a whole new experience together?
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it might be pointless to discuss it. i hope this tragedy would nvr fall upon me, and the choice nvr be made. even thou the two guys in the show were terrific, the situation is totally unbearable. to fall in love, then horribly out of love, endure tauntings, and then slowly fall in love again (with the gap of 8yrs), and then to realize your old love is back, vying for ur love. haha~ i keep thinkin, if it were me, who would i choose?
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i still havent really decided.
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probably...if the older guy had a sufficient reason, i would forgive him and be w him. but of course, that would totally destroy the younger one...(who i secretly like more, out of the show! hehe..) BUT, if the reason the older guy gave was (like what was given in the show) for greater good, ie. to take photographs of the third world and present it to the world to increase awareness....bullshit! i would nvr forgive him. for one thing, he left after proposing to her (yea, what the hell), secondly, he placed "third world" above ME. so....NO NO NO. im not those 宽宏大量 type.
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haha~ its 3.40am on a sat night. i shall continue watching it tml and decide if her choice was like mine (i choose the younger guy, since i think i alrdy noe the reason as to why the older guy left...)
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^the Queen^
also a very 花痴 paopei!

NOTE! OUR LONG AWAITED BIRDPARK POST IS UP (THE LAST POST ON THIS PAGE!) haha finally finally... but w/o any narration, just picts. too lazy.... haha but the picts themselves tell a story! =)
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yay~~ today is our thirty five months!! muack muack to baobei~!!!
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this is my first blog post in china, beijing. and this is also the 100th post on our blog!!! been v lazy to blog these days even thou i've got tons to say. alright... so here's s summary of what happened, the photos... maybe another day =X
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staying in a three room apartment w keeka n huiming now, me in a single room w the two of them sharing room (err.. kaka kena fever today, poor huiming need to sleep in living room sofa cuz meng yan wan us to quarantine her. btw, kaka is banned frm going sch for the next three days... diaoz...) ok back to the house. its kinda old, here n there falling apart, esp the toilet. the toilet has been giving us several probs, but aside frm all those little nitty gritty thing....i love this place! my own little cosy room has been described "cosy" and "hall-like" by others, which r prob synonyms for "messy" and "very messy" HAHA. dun care. i like. my room came w a huge cupboard n two (YES, two) beds and a cui table. one of the beds is converted into a table, where i throw everything on. haha literally. let me list the things currently on it now:
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laptop, speaker, tissue paper x 3, sweets, hair clip, scarve, shirt x 3, ftb, shorts, plastic bag x 3, hello kitty soft toy (present frm kk n hm), story book (kite runner), tcm textbooks x 5, tcm exercise books x 5, headset, yu ping feng san, sour plums, baobei's timetable, calculator, hong mei su yan gao x 2 (for my nose), xue li gao (for curbing the dryness), a random magazine, box of paper clips, black pen, blue pen, a box of 8 china black pens, cd of seniors' houses, self-made "sweet" to practice accupuncture on, lab coat x 2, clock, a xiao ren w all the accupunture points on, comb, multi-coloured umbrella, yellow poncho, moisturizer, staple, scissors, cute note pad x 3, post-it pad, a file, plenty plenty PLENTY of loose paper...
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that should be about all.
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so u can imagine how COSY my little room is! =D without moving much, i can get almost anything ANYTHING i want! ahahhaha~ shoik.
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food is not a prob here too! our place is really surrounded by alot of food! some bad (salty, oily) but many are not bad, n some really fantastic! so far i haven missed sg food alot (actually, not at all, cuz im not a western food fanatic, and the food here r quite similar to those back home, some even nicer, and most are MUCH CHEAPER!) hehe~ the FIRST food-related item i miss... guess what? bubble tea. im serious. i really really miss sg bubble tea. i alrdy missed it when i went hong kong for one wk w baobei. the bubble tea in hk not v nice. in beijing, TOTALLY CMI.
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but i miss eating w baobei... even thou he will steal my food n make me skinnier... i wish baobao is here to share all the super cheap food w me! super nice baos, three for 2.7yuan = sg<60cents! meaning one is less than 20cents -__________- but of course, there'r relatively expensive food too lah.
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shopping... haven really went shopping except at dong wu yuan aka "zoo". this actually collectively refers to the massive shopping areas near the zoo. real massive! i shall not attempt to describe how massive is massive. LOL. anyways i spent over 600yuan last sat there, bought a ton of things back. haha shoik, holiday mood! huiming went w me n she spent 400plus. considering i only spent like sg$120... i bought 3 track pants, 4 pantyhose, 1 long socks, 1 jacket, 1 long sleeve shirt, 1 scarf, 1 spagetti, 1 shirt, 1 bag and food. wow. haha~ the polka dotted jacket is my fav, the highlight of the day, costly 150yuan. hahaha check out my fb display pict to see it. LOL.
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other than dong wu yuan, nvr go anywhere much. got go yong he gong (just alot of buddhas n statues n artefacts, went w roger, brandon, kt n xuhua, after which i went to their place for dinner...YUM YUM. yen can cook! lol.) as well as some "men" cant rem at the moment. haiz. my bdae here was passed in a blur... i was very upset and emo-ed the night before i turned 22. lonely without my little boy around to celebrate w me. nothing interesting can come close to celebrating birthdays with my darling...
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school was fine so far. in fact, i believed i paid more attention here than back in sg. no constant smsing, no being late for class (v strict here, plus im part of class committee, plus meng yan lao shi can directly see who's late...). well, its good in a sense lar. haiz. n speakin of class comm... its actually quite fun n really efficient! glad tt they made up come up w it, if not no one will volunteer to do all the shitty jobs. ntu shld have forced us to do it too... hmm...
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anyways, as a side note, baobei won first prize for hall 3 dnd! lucky shit. he got himself an iPhone. bleah. i also wan new phone!!! baobei sucks.
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my first exam next next wk. haha not gan jeong yet! its actually kinda relaxing here! quite like the life. joined gym membership w a grp of frens 1200yuan for two years, so we actually go tog to free (included in the whole membership) pilates, hip hop, board aerobic lessons! haha super fun n i feel v healthy! n brandon actually found a place to teach us taichi too! at the park near our school. 30yuan for 8 lessons...meaning less than sg$1 per lesson! ha! shall learn abit den go back qiu cuo qie cuo w mummy!!! LOL. so fun :) lessons here r so cheap tt alot of my frens r joining professional dance classes (eg. latin dance, modern dance, exotic dance), singing, er hu, etc etc. HAHA. roger's household even bought a PIANO. diaoz.
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baobei not coming over this dec to visit =( actually, i told him not to. he got fyp which involves wet lab, so might not make it. den again this dec alot of exams to study for, so i wont be able to pei him full time...so....sob sob...so.... he's not coming. n thats final =(
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next yr after he grad he'll come over! for abt a month i hope! hahahah~ but not more than a month cuz if so he need to make visa, go gui di fang no. 1, 2, 3 many many times, n blah blah. so. yea. less than 30 days. which is more than enough! =D i cant wait to go gai gai w u baobei!!! muack!!
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ok la... post too long le. hopefully i feel more likely to post picts nxt time round. hehe. going to bathe den go study lo!!
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a happy n strong little PaoPao
^the Queen^